Aria pov
We stared at each other across the expanse of his bedroom, both of us breathing too fast, both of us wanting sothing we knew we shouldn’t take.
The air between us felt charged, electric. I should leave. I knew I should leave. But my feet remained rooted to the spot, as if my body had declared mutiny against my common sense. The dim lighting from his bedside lamp cast shadows across his face, highlighting the sharp angles of his jaw, the intensity in his eyes.
"If you don’t leave right now," Damien said, his voice dropping to sothing dark and dangerous, "I’m going to walk over there and kiss you. And if I kiss you, Aria, I won’t stop. I’ll carry you to that bed and spend the rest of the night reminding your body exactly who it belongs to."
The words sent heat spiraling through , pooling between my thighs with an intensity that made my knees weak.
"You can’t say things like that," I whispered, but there was no force behind the words.
"Why not?" He took a step toward , and I watched a water droplet slide down his chest with fascination. "When it’s the truth? When I’ve spent every night for three years imagining exactly this scenario? When I can see in your eyes that you want the sa thing?"
My breath caught in my throat. Three years. Had it really been that long since anyone had looked at like this? Since I’d felt wanted instead of just needed? Since I’d been anything other than Noah’s mother, the CEO, the woman who had to be strong every single mont of every single day?
"Because" I struggled to find a reason that didn’t sound hollow. "Because Noah is down the hall. Because we’re not really married. Because you hurt and I can’t just forget that because I’m"
"Frustrated?" He took another step closer. "Touch-starved? Desperate to rember what it feels like to be wanted?"
"Stop it." But I didn’t move away. Didn’t run like I should have.
"Make ." Another step. He was close enough now that I could sll the soap on his skin, could feel the heat radiating from his body. "Tell you don’t want this and I’ll stop. Tell you don’t lie awake at night aching for touch and I’ll walk away right now."
I opened my mouth to say exactly that, to lie convincingly enough that he’d believe .
But no words ca out.
We stood there, inches apart, both of us breathing hard. His hand lifted slowly, giving ti to pull away, ti to run, ti to do anything except stand there and let him cup my cheek with his large, warm palm.
The touch sent electricity through my entire body. My eyes fluttered closed involuntarily, and a sound escaped my throat—sothing between a gasp and a moan that I imdiately wanted to take back.
"When was the last ti soone touched you?" Damien asked quietly, his thumb tracing my cheekbone. "The last ti soone made you feel good?"
"That’s none of your business," I managed, but my voice was weak.
"You haven’t," he said with certainty, his eyes searching mine. "Not since before Noah. Three years of nothing, of no one, of pretending you don’t need this."
"I don’t—"
"Liar." His other hand ca up to fra my face, tilting my head back so I had to et his eyes. "I can see it in the way you’re trembling. In the way your pupils are dilated. In the way you looked at when I walked out of that bathroom. You need this. You need to be touched, to be wanted, to feel sothing other than fear and anger and exhaustion."
He was right. God, he was right. I’d forgotten what it felt like to be seen as a woman instead of just a role. To be desired instead of depended upon. The realization made feel vulnerable and exposed in a way that had nothing to do with the thin t-shirt I was wearing.
"And you think you’re the one who should do it?" I asked, even as my body swayed toward him. "After everything?"
"No," he admitted, and the honesty in his voice was devastating. "I think I’m the last person who deserves to touch you. But I’m also the only person you want touching you right now. Aren’t I?"
I wanted to deny it. Wanted to tell him he was wrong, that I could want Lucas or any other man who wasn’t the one who’d destroyed .
But we both knew the truth.
"This doesn’t change anything," I whispered, my hands coming up to rest against his bare chest. His skin was warm and damp under my palms, his heartbeat racing against my fingertips. "This doesn’t fix what you did. It doesn’t make us okay."
"I know." His forehead dropped to rest against mine. "But maybe for tonight, we can both stop pretending we don’t need this. Stop pretending that three years of distance has killed what was always between us."
"Damien—"
"Tell no," he interrupted, his lips hovering just above mine. "Tell you don’t want this and I swear I’ll let you walk away. But if you can’t say it, if you can’t lie to convincingly enough..."
He trailed off, waiting.
I stood there with his hands on my face, his body inches from mine, his breath ghosting across my lips. Every rational part of my brain was screaming at to run, to go back to the guest room, to not complicate this situation any more than it already was.
But my body had other ideas. My body rembered the lodge, rembered the way he’d made feel, rembered pleasure I hadn’t experienced since.
My silence was an answer in itself. We both knew it. The mont stretched out, taut as a wire, ready to snap.
"I" I started, then stopped.
I couldn’t say no. God help , I couldn’t say it.
The silence stretched between us, heavy with implication.
Then Damien moved.
His mouth captured mine in a kiss that was nothing like the careful, controlled kisses. This was desperate and hungry and raw—three years of denial and longing and need poured into the press of his lips against mine.
I made a sound—half protest, half surrender—and then I was kissing him back just as desperately, my hands fisting in his damp hair, my body pressing against his. Every nerve ending ca alive. My skin felt too tight, my body too hot. I’d forgotten this feeling, this overwhelming need that consud everything else. The world narrowed to just this—his mouth, his hands, the solid warmth of him against .
He tasted like mint toothpaste and sothing darker, sothing uniquely him that I’d never forgotten. His hands slid from my face down to my waist, pulling flush against him, and I could feel every inch of him through the thin towel and my even thinner clothes.
This was wrong. This was stupid. This was going to complicate everything in ways I couldn’t even begin to calculate.
But right now, with Damien’s mouth on mine and his hands on my body and three years of celibacy making desperate for touch, I didn’t care.
I didn’t care about anything except making the ache stop.
His hands slid under my t-shirt, hot against my bare skin, and I gasped into his mouth. He took advantage of my parted lips to deepen the kiss, his tongue sliding against mine in a rhythm that made my knees buckle.
"Bed," I managed to gasp out between kisses. "We should"
But before I could finish the sentence, reality ca crashing back in the form of a small voice from down the hallway.
"Mama?"
We froze, our lips still pressed together, our bodies still tangled. Noah’s voice ca again, sleepy and confused.
"Mama, where are you?"
Damien pulled back, his chest heaving, his eyes wild with desire and frustration. "Go," he said roughly. "Before he cos looking for you."
I stumbled backward, my lips swollen, my body still thrumming with need. "This didn’t—we didn’t"
"I know." His hands clenched into fists at his sides, like he was physically restraining himself from reaching for again. "Go take care of our son."
I turned and fled down the hallway, my heart pounding, my body aching with unfulfilled desire. When I reached the guest room, Noah was sitting up in bed, rubbing his eyes.
"I had a bad dream," he said, reaching for . "Where were you?"
"Just getting water, baby." I climbed back into bed and pulled him into my arms, breathing in his familiar scent and trying to calm my racing heart. "I’m here now. Go back to sleep."
He snuggled against , already drifting off again with the easy resilience of childhood.
But I lay awake for a long ti, staring at the ceiling, my body still humming with frustrated desire, my lips still tingling from Damien’s kiss.
What the hell had I just done?
And more importantly, why did I want so desperately to do it again?
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