gan's POV
"Hey, gan, what is wrong?" I heard Dexter's voice behind , and then I felt him hold my waist as he helped get up on my feet. Ashton has been long gone, and I didn't know how long I stayed weeping on the ground, and I felt so glad. None of our neighbors have seen in my current state. Then my brother faced , and he dried my tears away by using his handkerchief.
"Can you tell why you are crying here outside our house like a child? You don't need to get down on the ground, g, for heaven's sake." Dexter said as I was trying to control myself before I spoke to him. I didn't expect my brother would find looking so lost.
"I didn't know it would be painful as this, Dexter. I am in too much pain right now. I tried my best to look strong, and I hate myself for being so weak. I decided to break up with Ashton, but why I felt this way? It feels like soone pulled out my heart from my chest." I said, and my brother's face fell, and then without saying a word, he pulled closer to him, and he caressed my back, and I cried even harder.
"gan, I am sorry that you have to feel this way, sotis making the right decision could be so painful that we thought we were making the wrong one, but believe , g, everything will be alright. And I know the pain will not go away right away, but I want you to know I am so proud of you for doing the right thing. You are in pain now, and I know there are no words good enough to alleviate the pain that you feel. But I want to remind you, I will always be here for you." My brother said as I continued to weep, and I realized if I made the right choice, why it felt so wrong.
"But the misery his father will inflict to you would be more painful, so I think it is better you ended things with Ashton while it was still early. It would be best if you weren't like , gan. It was already too late for to regain myself. I am in love with Isabelle, and I think there is nothing I can do to make things better between us." He said, and I felt sorry for my brother again, and I want to tell him, I am feeling the sa way, and I don't think I can forget Ashton Priztgold that quickly, and I know it would take ti, or maybe I can never get over with him.
"I know that is why I broke up with him," I replied, and my brother dragged to walk with him into our house.
"You need to go to your room now, g. You have class tomorrow, and I know what you are feeling right now, but you need to be strong, gan.
"Thank you, Dexter, and good night," I said to my brother, and I walked straight to my room, and I saw my sister already peacefully sleeping on her bed. I can't stop myself from smiling, and I wish Ava would never experience the sa heartache I am having right now, Dexter already suffered, and now I have the sa pain. I tried to answer my assignnts, but I couldn't concentrate, and I knew it was because I missed Ashton so much, and I felt so guilty that I broke up with him even if I knew that I was crazy in love with him. It was unfair to his side and , but I needed to do it for both of us before his father could break us and make us stop believing in love.
I closed my books and notes, and I decided to answer my howork tomorrow. After all, I know it would be useless because I can't concentrate, and I can't answer them, knowing Ashton occupied my thoughts. I found it so hard to sleep that when I got up the following morning, my entire body felt so heavy, especially my eyes, and I could feel the back pains. I quickly showered and inford my sister I would go ahead of her. I walked to the bus stop alone, and I smiled when I found my best friend waiting for the bus as well.
"Hi, gan! What is wrong with you, g? Who made you cry the other night, don't tell you already did it?" My best friend asked , and I slowly nodded my head at her, and she hugged .
"Oh, I am sorry, gan, you should never break up with Ashton if you look this miserable. It would be best to get a grip, g, or else he will know you are having a hard ti. It was your choice to break up with him, so you better look in high spirits and not be this unhappy." Alice said, and I couldn't disagree with her because I knew my best friend had a point.
"Yeah, you are right, Alice; I need to do this," I said, and I smiled at her. We rode the bus without talking to each other, and the mont we walked at the entrance of the Academy, we found Oscar waiting for us. We walked together to the library, and I spent my remaining hour answering all my assignnts.
I couldn't stop my heart from pounding against my chest the mont we got inside our classroom, and I felt the pang on my chest when I found Ashton talking with Lauren at the back of our classroom. And I know I should never felt jealous because it was who broke up with him, and not the other way around. I hate that my eyes searched the entire classroom because I couldn't stop myself from longing to see him. And even if my heart is aching, I don't have a choice but to listen to our teacher as he discussed our lesson because I didn't have the ti to review my lessons for the day.
I felt glad that our class was over, and I quickly put my books in my bag, and I ran from our classroom, and I didn't try to look back at Ashton once again, if he is planning to date Lauren again, all I need to do is accept the reality, even if it will break . As Dexter said, sotis we need to do the right thing even if we get hurt along the way, and I hope Ashton will not hurt more by dating Lauren again.
The entire day passed quickly, and I knew Ashton was avoiding ; and he never looked at again like he used to, and I could tell he was back to the old Ashton. The one who enjoyed the attention of girls because I can see him with his teammates having fun with with the girls on the hallways, and even inside our classroom before our teacher arrived, and even if I avoided the cafeteria, I knew that he was back hanging out with Lauren and her friends because Alice showed Lauren's post. I don't know if they are back together, but I can tell he is happy being with them.
The entire week passed, and I congratulated myself that I was able to endure the pain. I still cried at night when Ava was already asleep. I am back to being the old gan again, except that I never wear my old wardrobes ever since I dated Ashton. The girls ignored , and I felt glad about it, but I am sad that Ashton stays away from . We never talked again, and the boys will always say hi to when they are not with my ex-boyfriend, and I wonder why when they all know we already broke up.
It was the most horrible week of my entire life. And I am just glad I enjoyed my work after class because I will temporarily forget about my heart problem every ti I feed the fish on the tanks.
"gan, aren't you planning to go ho?" Anthony asked , and I smiled when I looked at my watch, and I realized it was ti for to go ho.
"Are you alright, g?" He asked, and I nodded my head.
"Yes, I am okay, Anthony," I said, and I said goodbye to him, and I walked going to our house.
"Are you sure you want to do this, gan?" Alice asked as we waited for Aunt Sonia to co and drive us to Lauren's place.
"Of course, I don't want Aunt Sonia to think I am choosy. Besides, she already paid us in advance." I replied.
"We can return the paynt, gan," Alice responded.
"We are professional with regards to our part-ti work, Alice. I don't want to taint the reputation of aunt Sonia. I know I need to endure three more Saturdays in Lauren's mansion, but I am no longer afraid of what she will do with because I have nothing to lose, now, Alice. And I need to do this to pay the bills." I said, and she smiled at .
"Of course, but you don't need to worry. I will never leave you this ti, and if you need to jump in the swimming pool again, I will be jumping with you." My best friend said, and I couldn't stop myself from laughing.
"Wow, I miss your laughter, g, and I hope you will be laughing again." She said, and I felt guilty that I beca miserable like this after I broke up with Ashton.
"Don't worry, Al, I will try to be more energetic," I said, and I smiled when I saw Aunt Sonia's car pulled into our driveway.
We were silent the entire ride, and the mont we got inside the mansion, the housekeeper in charge of the female servants t us, and I felt glad it wasn't Lauren. And I realized she left the house early because of the football ga today. And I suddenly felt nervous if she would have another party tonight.. We clean the house together with the maids, and I know the only reason Lauren hired us is that she wants to show to my face the reality that I am not worthy of Ashton's love and attention.
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