Ashton's POV
"I don't understand you, Ashton. Why didn't you fight back with Zachary? You took all his beating like you wanted to end your life." Lennon said the mont he ca to my aid after my girl left with her best friend, Zachary ran after them. I felt so curious about what gan had to say, why Zach kept telling her to tell the truth, and what kind of truth she wanted to know. Maybe gan wished to say to my face that we had already broken up, and she tried to tell I was a coward.
"I deserved all this, Len. Besides, I wanted sothing to happen, so I would stop myself from hugging gan. She still looked so beautiful even if she looked miserable, and I hate myself for feeling so useless." I said as he put on the sofa while Cole got the first aid kit. My brothers tend to my bruises, and it feels like I am carrying the world on my shoulders.
"You better get a grip, Ashton, or you are losing yourself, man. You have to decide what you want to do with yourself and stand firm about it, or else you will look like a ss forever." Lennon said, and I sighed heavily.
The days passed quickly, and I stayed in my room most of the ti reading books. I tried my best to let go of all gan's mories, even if I knew I was only fooling myself because she would always be here in my heart. When it was our ti to go to WEN University, I was the only one feeling unhappy about it.
"Ashton, what is bothering you, son? I pretended I hadn't noticed the bruises on your pretty face, the swollen lips, and black eyes." Mom said the mont she visited in my room, on the night before, I would leave Astikoz for good because I promised myself I would never set foot on this house ever again.
"Nothing, mom," I said.
"You can never lie to , Ashton. I know that you are suffering because of gan. I am sorry, son, that I couldn't do anything about it. I understand that you like gan so much, but your father doesn't want you to be involved with her anymore, and I know it will happen. I wished the mont your father realized that you love gan, he would allow you to be gan's boyfriend, but I was wrong for the second ti around. I am hurting knowing two of my children are suffering because you fell in love with the Cortezas siblings. And I hope I can do sothing about it, but I am also powerless." My mother declared, and I held her hands.
"Mom, it was not your fault, and I will never bla you. It was all dad's decision, and I hope one day he will realize the most important things that matter in life." I said, and my mom smiled at .
" too, son. I hope you will find your way back to gan soday, and you will end up together." My mother said before she took into her arms.
We boarded our chopper, and I felt better when Isabelle had just co on ti to go with us. And I couldn't believe I was on my way to WEN University. I have been dreaming for this mont all my life ever since I wanted to play football professionally, but I never expected that I would feel in so much pain leaving Astikoz hills, and I know it was because of one girl who turned my life upside down.
My brothers are talking as we approach the beautiful capital city of our country, the Majuscule City. I am so excited to live in this city, and we are on our way to one of our properties located in the beautiful hills of Majuscule. I always felt excited every ti we traveled here, and this was the first ti I wasn't in the mood to have fun. The mont we landed on the beautiful ground of our mansion, we all disembarked from the chopper, and what I love in Majuscule is the climate. I can see the sun shining brightly in the sky while I can feel the breeze of cold wind that tickled my skin.
We had a wonderful lunch, and in the afternoon together with my family, we visited the University. Even if I was with my family inside the campus, I can't deny my mind is elsewhere. I pretended to look cool since I didn't want my father to think I was planning sothing bigger. And my father was true to his words. He t and talked with my coach, and Coach Adams was so excited to see . And I felt glad he welcod warmly, and I could feel the excitent of playing football again.
My family stayed for two days, and I was shocked that my father stayed with us, and this was the first ti he spent his ti with us without ntioning his job. We do so activities during our stay in our house, but most of the ti we roam around the city since my sister and brothers are bugging our parents to have a tour, and I felt so glad it was over because I didn't want to spend another day with my dad. After all, I couldn't stop thinking how selfish and cruel he can be to ruin soone's future because of loving a person.
I don't understand my father and his logic, and I don't want to talk about it because no matter what he is going to do, I will never follow his dreams for . I will do everything I can to stay away from him. I know that I will always have my grandfather's support, even if my father disowns . But I am doing all this to protect gan and her family. Because if I only had it my way, I wanted to run away and choose another school and continue my dreams of becoming a professional football player.
But right now, I know that my father was watching gan's family through his n, and he will use them to make follow whatever he wanted, and all I needed was five years for gan to finish her studies, and then we can be together. And for now, I have to forget about her for the ti being because I know if I will see gan, everything I planned for us will be wasted because I know I will choose to be with her, but I don't want her to suffer, so I better keep my distance for now.
The entire house felt so lonely and quiet when my whole family left , and my only companion now is the staff of the house. But I feel more at peace now that my father is not around anymore, but I couldn't stop my mind from wondering what gan is doing right now. And I hated myself for missing her voice, especially the songs that she sang for . And I know that I will lose my mind if I continue to think about her, but no matter what I do, I know gan will always be in my heart and mind.
I know I still have one week to spare because Coach Adams told to take my ti. After one day, I realized I was going crazy with the boredom, and the realization hit when I looked at my dresser. I found the birthday card gan had given , and I hated that I forgot to read the card because of my excitent to have my ti with her.
I didn't have any plan of bringing it with , and I rembered I threw the card on my trash bin, and I wondered who among my siblings got the card, and once again, I didn't want to read what she wrote on the card, but my curiosity was killing . And I couldn't stop my heart from agonizing when I read her ssage on the birthday card.
My Dearest Ashton,
Happy Birthday to the most handso man on earth! I know you have everything in life that you deserve to have, and I don't know what to give you since you have it all, but there is one thing I am sure you will be happy to have, and that is my undying love for you. Yes! I accept I am head over heels with you, Ashton Pritzgold. I am in love with you not because you are your father's son, and you have a pretty face and hot body.
I beca so drawn to you because of what you are inside out. You are the most selfless man I have ever known. Thank you for choosing to beco your girlfriend and making the happiest woman in the universe. Thank you for making feel special and loved. You showed the real aning of love, and I am excited for you to be my first of everything. And I can feel it in my heart that you will be my only love, my last love, and my one true great love. I will fight my love for you until the end, even if it ans I am losing myself because that is how much I love you.
Loving you always,
gan
P.S.
I don't share my music with anyone, and I am sharing with you the lyrics of one of my songs entitled " I Am Not Special." This music is for you, Ashton, and I hope you can read this card every ti you miss !
I can feel my tears wet my shirt as I continue to cry after reading gan's birthday ssage for . When I look at the right side of the birthday card, I can see the lyrics of the beautiful song of gan, the one she sang during the party held at Zachary's house, and I realized what a fool I have been.. And I got up from my bed and picked up my phone on the nightstand, and I could feel the urge to go back to gan, and I knew that I would never be whole again as I realized I had left my heart in Astikoz City.
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