She knew that worrying about it wouldn't help her prepare, though. She knew that when the mont was right, she would feel it and welco it.
She just didn't want to be so nervous when that ti ca. Her anxiety had a habit of ruining things, while Elias tended to help her back to the mindset she needed to be at. He really was a miracle worker.
With a faint smile, Alyssa signed into the desktop and brought up her online gradebook and coursework.
She had gotten used to everything being online. With the money that she was saving up from her on campus job, she would be able to afford a cheap laptop soon.
Then, she wouldn't have to trap herself in the library so much.
She scrolled down to see her grades, and her eyes imdiately widened in shock. How did she have two B's in her organic chemistry class and lab? She just had A's not too long ago.
Then again, she hadn't checked her grades in a mont. Sothing must have happened to lower them so much.
She brought up her latest assignnts and had to do a double take.
She got a C on one lab assignnt, failed another, and got multiple low B's on a few regular class assignnts. What happened?
She rembered doing the work and not having that much of an issue. The work was hard, but she didn't think she'd score so low.
She looked through her answers that were marked wrong and nearly facepald. She literally ssed up the easiest things.
She mixed up a few numbers and terms, like she hadn't been paying attention. What was on her mind?
Alyssa checked the dates and realized she had turned in all of those ssed up assignnts during the period of ti she had been spending a lot of ti with Elias.
It was so easy to get distracted when she was with him. Even when they were studying or doing howork for psychology, the last thing on her mind was work.
She couldn't let her grades slip! She had a scholarship riding on them, and if they got too low, she'd lose her scholarship and have to drop out.
That ant that she would have to move back ho, and she couldn't do that. She had to fix this, and the only thing that she could think to do was to limit her ti with Elias.
The thought of that saddened her. She loved spending ti with him, but she had to keep an eye on her future.
She couldn't throw it away for him, and she knew that he wouldn't want her to either. It would just be hard to take a step back from him.
She would have to do it gradually until she found a happy dium where she could be with him and still keep her grades up.
She buried her face in her hands with a sigh. She couldn't believe she had let her grades slip so much.
She only had so much ti left in the sester to turn them back around, which ant she couldn't drop the ball now. She couldn't risk it.
It was great finally having a social life, but she needed to stay at college. She needed to be away from her family, who only contacted her when they needed sothing from her or wanted to chew her out for sothing.
She loved being with Elias, but she couldn't sacrifice her sanity to be with him. She hated having to give up one for the other.
At that mont, her phone buzzed on the table. She looked over at it to see that Elias had texted her.
Her heart automatically skipped, but she frowned this ti instead of smiled. She had a feeling about what he texted, and she couldn't respond how she wanted to.
Elias; Tea ti, honey? ;)
For a second, a smile broke out across her face at the playful nickna. He always tried to get her to smile, even through text, and it always worked.
But it only worked for a second this ti. Then, she rembered the dilemma she faced. She wanted to go to the café with him, but she needed to catch up on her work. She couldn't push it off any longer.
Alyssa; I have to do howork :( another ti!
Alyssa sent the text before shutting her phone off. It was hard blowing him off, but she knew she had to do it.
As much as she loved being close to him, she had shut out everything else, including the things that she needed to focus on.
Besides, what if things didn't work out between them? What if she gave up so much for him, and he left her?
She would have nothing. No degree. No love of her life. No planned future. She doubted soone like her could actually keep soone like him for long term. He would find soone else and move on.
Alyssa didn't want to be discouraging to herself, but she had to look at the facts. She hadn't been in many relationships at all in her life, and they were nothing special.
Now, out of nowhere, she got to be with one of the most charming boys she had ever t? It didn't make any sense.
Elias; Hope you get it all done! :)
Alyssa read Elias' text and nearly groaned. Of course, he was so sweet and supportive. That made it hurt even more to push him away.
Things were so perfect not too long ago. Now, reality hit her full swing, and she was out of her fantasy world. She wanted back in, but she knew she was stuck on the outside for the foreseeable future.
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A few days later, Alyssa still continued to avoid Elias. She had so much work to catch up on and so much studying to do.
She saw him in class for brief monts, but she whisked herself away afterwards to go to her next class.
She wanted to spend her free ti with him, but her grades needed to be lifted before finals arrived.
If she bombed finals, it was over for her, so she needed to study as soon as she got the materials together.
In case she got lower than she hoped for her scores, at least she would have so padding if she worked hard now to raise her grades. She was basically doing damage control. Or maybe she was just panicking.
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