The Alpha's Fated Outcast: Rise Of The Moonsinger. Chapter 96 96: Guilt-tripping grief

Lyla

It was nearly dusk when I arrived at the pack house and the first ti I would be going ho since I arrived at Blue Ridge.

I hesitated at the door, taking in a deep breath. I didn't know what to expect from my mother. Did she hate less now?

I glanced over my shoulder at the two pack warriors Beta Jeremy had insisted I co with, their presence felt comforting alright but I knew I had to face whatever was waiting for inside the house.

"Wait here," I managed to say to them. "I won't be long."

They nodded quietly and stood to one side of the terrace. I took another deep breath again before knocking. After a few seconds, the heavy door creaked open revealing one of the pack servants.

It was our housekeeper.

As soon as she saw , she opened the door wider and bowed her head in greeting. "Miss Lyla."

"Good evening," I flashed her an uneasy smile looking past her shoulders. "Are my mother and my sister around?"

"Miss Clarissa went for a walk around the Packhouse to clear her head, while your mother is resting in the bedroom. Should I tell her you're here?"

"No!" I said quickly, feeling relieved sowhat. "Let's not disturb her. I only ca to get an important thing for my dad's funeral and will be out in no ti."

I entered the house, stopping to respond to the greetings of the few dostic staff who passed by or were working silently in the background. The atmosphere in the house felt depressing. Everyone I passed had a sombre look on their face. They were all mourning for my father.

To everyone, he was a good man... except for .

I made my way through the hallway, trying not to get overwheld by the mories that rushed to my mind. My father sitting in his favourite chair in the sitting room, barking orders at . Family dinners that revolved around their perfect daughter Clarissa and more complaints about … the scent of his cologne still clung faintly to the air.

Focus, I reminded myself. Just get suitable clothes for the funeral and leave. I repeated the mantra in my head, heading for the stairs that led to the master bedroom. I wasn't here to wallow in mories or to mourn; I'd done that enough already… in my own way.

As I approached the master bedroom, I noticed the door was slightly ajar, which was unusual. Just as I reached out to push it open, a sound froze my steps – soft chuckling, almost delirious drifted from within to my ears. My breath caught in my throat as I slowly peered inside.

The bedroom seed empty.

Deciding I may just be hearing things, I entered the bedroom this ti and was about to walk in the direction of the closet when the soft, almost muffled chuckling reached my ears again. Startled, I decided to find out what it was.

Following the direction where the sound had co from, I got to the other side of the massive bed and gasped slightly when I saw my mother sitting on the ground, crossed-legged, flipping through a photo album spread across her lap.

Her fingers traced the photos as she flipped through the pages, pausing every so often to laugh or make one weird noise, though it sounded more like a pained release than true laughter.

Her cheeks were streaked with dried tears and her eyes were swollen and red from crying. I've heard that losing your mate – the pain, was worse than rejection and as soone who had experienced what it ans to be rejected, I had an idea of how my mother felt right now.

As if sensing my presence, she finally looked up and imdiately the chuckling ceased and her gaze shifted from nostalgia to pure hatred that made involuntarily take a step back.

"I… I just ca to get sothing suitable for Dad… for his burial." I stamred, with a trembling voice.

She said nothing. She rely closed the photo album with a deliberate slowness that felt like she was contemplating harming before attempting to stand. She groaned as she tried to stand with her heavily pregnant form.

Instinctively, I stepped forward to help but a sharp glare from her made recoil. Reaching for the bedpost instead, she pulled herself up, panting. Then she walked past taking the photo album with her.

"Mom, please," I followed after her still keeping my distance. "Can we talk? I'm sorry… please just tell how to fix it, I promise I'll do anything."

But she ignored and continued walking to the door. I followed her with my gaze fighting the tears that pooled at the corner of my eyes. As she reached the doorway, I noticed Clarissa was standing there.

My mother passed by without saying a word to her. I quickly looked away, hoping to hide the tears in my eyes but Clarissa entered the room anyway. She didn't say anything to at first.

She just walked around the room slowly, her fingers brushing against father's belongings – his reading glasses on the nightstand, the watch he always forgot to wear, his favourite sweater draped over a chair.

Finally, she sank onto the bed, running a hand over the quilt on it.

"This is the first ti I've been here," she said softly, tears gathering in her eyes. "Since… since father…" she couldn't finish the sentence, but she didn't need to.

I crossed the room and sat down beside her, and for a mont, we sat in silence.

Sniffing back tears, though her voice still trembled, she turned to . "Mom's struggling, Lyla. She lost her mate, her best friend plus carrying a baby doesn't make it easier. The pack healers say that she's in deep grief – it's hitting her harder than anyone expected and they said it'll take ti, but she'll co back to us eventually."

I bit my lip, lowering my gaze to the floor and nodded. "I just…" I struggled, finding the words almost painful to say aloud. "I wanted to help her, but it's like she doesn't want anything to do with ."

Clarissa didn't say anything. After a few more seconds of silence, she pointed to the rocking chair in the corner of the bedroom. "Rember how father used to read to us here?" she laughed. "Every morning before he goes to the office he'd do all the different voices for each character."

I smiled, my heart swelling at the mory. That was before I started getting my heat. "Or when he'd chase us around the yard, pretending to be so rogue wolf."

Clarissa nodded, as a tear rolled down her cheek now. "He was a good father, Lyla… to both of us. I know…" she took a deep breath. "I know it got rocky for you at so point but he didn't stop loving you in the end. When they took him to the pack hospital at the White Mountains… before his surgery… he had a brave smile on his face and he demanded to see you."

I was familiar with the guilt-tripping that ca with grief. I didn't know how to tell Clarissa that I wasn't interested even if our father suddenly started loving before he died. I was too broken to accept that he asked for on his sick bed.

I didn't care at all. I was only here out of duty and not obligation.

"Would you like my help?" she asked suddenly, wiping the tears from her cheeks. "To help you choose suitable clothes for dad. I have an idea what his favourite might be."

I nodded with a small smile. "Sure!"