The world sways. I am being lifted by strong arms. Warmth. I reach for that warmth, but the harder I try, the faster I fall. A door slams shut sowhere in my subconscious. A frustrated growl fills the space. Water begins trickling.
And then, that voice tells , If you die on , I will haunt you down in hell, Valka. And I’ll bring you back and kill you myself.
And then, I fall. For real this ti. And crash into a pool of scalding hot water. The throes of the nightmare seeking to sink seize at the peril of being drowned in real ti. My body jacknifes and I gasp, water filling my mouth and nostrils.
I flail, hands outstretched as I try to grab a hold of sothing. My nails screech against the smooth panes of what feels like a bath tub and I begin thrashing with wild panic.
But it only lasts for a second as those familiar hands pluck from the water and I cling to them for dear life, shivering. Sobbing.
My eyelids part enough to see a chamber ford from a cavern, rough rocky walls and an almost smooth ground, dimly lit with a handful of caverns. And it is Lucien who shelters against his chest that slls like clean skin and winter. I inch closer, pressing my cheek against it as another violent shudder travels through .
He lifts us out of the tub without a word, water sluishing as he wraps my feeble legs around his torso, taking beyond the bath chamber and into a vast bedroom, all while he strokes a single finger down my lower back, his lips brushing over my forehead, my brows, my eyes, my cheeks. "You’re alright."
I believe him, if at all because it feels like he’s trying to convince himself more than he’s trying to convince .
My hands don’t stop grasping his shoulders. My nails dig into his skin and I know it must hurt, but it is the only way I can ground myself. He doesn’t complain. He rely walks us to the small couch by the edge of an empty dresser and sits, holding against his lap while I shiver and spasm uncontrollably. He repeats those words to . In common tongue, muddled with an older language. Until I stop shaking. You’re alright.
My teeth clatters violently.
"Valka," he says after a mont, enunciating each syllable like he wishes to rember that it is my na. "I need to..." His words trail off as I lean closer, absorbing more of that warmth from his skin. His arms tense around him. "... take off your clothes. You’re freezing."
I nod tiredly.
"I will take my arm off you now, but I am right here. Do you understand ?"
I nod again.
"Use your words."
"Y-yes," I whisper hoarsely.
He untangles himself from gently, making quick work of the light slip of a dress that I don’t recognise, until it cos off, leaving naked and cold. He sets down on the couch and crosses the room in swift strides, retrieving the first thing he can get his hands on. A thick tunic fashioned like a jacket, woolen and long.
Like he’s done it a thousand tis before, he crouches low in front of , pulling the tunic down over my head and hands. The fabric is warm and smooth on my skin, wrapping in his scent. It stops mid-thigh and the hands droop low, swallowing mine, making feel like an infant playing dress up with adult clothing.
And then, he reaches up, taking the damp strands of my hair and in silence, he weaves them into a neat braid over my shoulder.
My breaths co easier now and my mind less foggy. "I’m dying, aren’t I?"
"It’ll pass," he says. "The fever is broken and--"
"You did this to ," I say, but the words have no fight or bite. Just exhaustion. "I heard you both earlier. Making your Erasthai is killing ."
"Grandmother often speaks a lot of nonsense," he mutters, rising to his feet. "In the years before, you’ve had symptoms. Severe nosebleeds. An addled mind. If you did not die then, then you will not now. Much less when I’ve given you equal ground to fight back."
I blink. "Equal ground?"
"Keeping you bonded to boy-king would’ve only bought you ti, a few decades, maybe. But it was inevitable, Valka. It would’ve happened either way." He leans against the bed post, crossing his arms. "You’re strong, stronger than anyone gives you credit for, but Ilya’s older... and far more experienced. You fought well, but when you left , you were already slipping. And that wasn’t because you were weak. It was because of what you are."
"And what is that?"
He purses his lips. "Usually, half-breeds do not have enough of either to make it count. But the royal-blooded work differently. Usually, at the age of eighteen, their bodies transit, making a decision on which of the beasts to keep. The Lycan. Or the wolf. The Lycan always wins, consuming the other. Yours was peculiar. In the sense that the Lycan your body should have transitioned into had a sentience of it’s own. And where it should have been a becoming, it would be a devouring.
"The other half of you is an Oga. Even your body still wears that shape. A wolf can’t win a head-on fight against a Lycan, no matter how fierce. It was never a fair fight."
My fingers curl in my palms. "You’re saying that you bonded with to save ? And not your Erasthai?"
Lucien contemplates for a mont. "You are my Erasthai."
"You’re not answering my question." Did he choose ? Over Ilya? If he didn’t, why then, would he be trying to save my life?
His eyes gleam intensely and in classic Lucien fashion, he deflects and contradicts himself. "In that mont, I wasn’t thinking about saving you. I was thinking about the nurous ways I could both own and ruin you."
I stare at him, at a loss for words. "I’m tired. I would like to sleep."
He takes a step forward and I hold up my hand, teeth gritting. "I can walk just fine." Only, when I stand, my body gives out under and I crash into the ground ungracefully. Embarrassnt heats my cheeks at the sound of Lucien’s low chuckle as he picks off the floor like I weigh nothing.
"I can walk just fine, she said," he mimics, hands tightening under my knees as he sets down in the centre of the bed.
"What are you doing?" I ask when the mattress dips beside , sitting up too fast, my vision swims.
"What does it look like, sweetheart?" Lucien mocks, lifting the sheets and getting in under.
I glare. "Leave. I’m not sharing a bed with you."
He laughs. "There’s only one bed here, Val. And I’m not peeling my skin off taking the floors for you. This isn’t a fairytale or a novel."
"There’s a perfectly functional couch right there," I point across the room.
"It’s too small to fit all of this greatness," he smiles mischievously.
My lips part on an argunt, but I end up squealing when he bands an arm around my waist and tugs my body beside his, my back hitting his chest and he crushes his nose into my neck. When I twist, trying to pry his hands off where they hold in place, his deep voice rumbles against my throat, "If you keep wiggling your ass like that, I’m going to assu you’re asking to touch it."
"You are the most disgusting pervert I’ve ever t," I growl.
"So you have said many tis, but it doesn’t make you want any less." His thumb brushes along my stomach, softly. "You’re safe with . You always have been."
My body relaxes against him slowly, the circles his fingers trace into my skin soothing enough to deceive my body into a false sense of security. Or maybe it was the fever and the vulnerability of my mind. But I lean back slightly, letting him crush into him even further. We fit, in the way a glove encompasses a hand, keeping it warm from the elents, Lucien’s body fits around mine.
"Lucien."
"Hm."
"Why did I leave you?" I ask, eyelids drooping slowly.
A smile ghosts against my skin as sleep tugs at . "Because you liked too much."
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