The Abandoned Empress Chapter 6

Chapter 6: Chapter 6

She was very confused. Looking at him holding , she began to get angry and shouted, “Rub, what are you doing now?”

“Jiun, I’m just…” Embarrassed by her sharp voice, he hurriedly responded, but she cut him off and said with a trembling voice, “How can you do this to ? ”

“No, don’t misunderstand. Jiun! Wait a minute!”

“Ouch!” Jiun yelled and left.

As she, staring at him in anger, quickly turned around and left the audience room, he stood up, very much embarrassed, forgetting he was holding who had lost balance.

I could hardly breathe. I felt I bumped into sothing, but I hurt so much that I couldn’t breathe. I curled up a lot but felt a sharp pain in my abdon. I moaned unconsciously.

“Oh, I feel pain here in my…”

“You?”

“Ahhh…”

“Is anybody there? Call the royal doctor now!”

Unlike his aloofness, he was embarrassed and shouted at the maids. Soon the maids who ca running were astonished to see .

Why? Why is he so embarrassed? What the heck are these maids doing?

When the royal doctor rushed to , he ordered the doctor to take care of and left the room quickly. With a deep sigh, the doctor quietly told the maids to help move to the bed.

The mont I got up with the help of the maids, I saw my silver dress stained with blood, which my father gave at my coming-of-age ceremony.

I felt dizzy again.

I heard the voice of the royal doctor and the maids fading away. Slling the strong scent of blood, I was falling into the bottomless pit.

***

I opened my eyes because of the pain. Sunlight shone through the open curtains, and birds were chirping outside the open window.

It’s morning. It’s the sa morning as any other day. But why do I feel so empty?

“Oh, you are awake now. Are you okay, Your Highness?”

When I saw the royal doctor’s face, I recalled that he held when I was about to fall out of balance with dizziness. I also rembered that she was there with him. And…

“Let ask you so questions.”

“Sure, Your Highness!”

“I guess it, but I wonder if my expectations are correct. Did I have a miscarriage?”

“… I’m sorry, Your Highness. ”

“My guess was right.”

I guessed that because I saw my stained dress with blood, but when the doctor said I miscarried the baby, I was really at a loss how to express my feelings. The most important question was not this. I was very scared, so I didn’t have the nerve to speak, but I had to confirm a couple of more things.

“Let ask you one more question. Can I still have a baby?”

He didn’t say anything.

“Why don’t you answer ? I asked you.”

“You were very weak… I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, Your Highness.”

“I got it.”

Although I had more pain than joy when he made love to , although I was pregnant all of a sudden, although the fetus didn’t grow enough to feel my maternal love, and although the fetus bothered with morning sickness and dizziness, I could not see my and his baby ever. My and his baby won’t ever exist.

“…Got it. You can leave now.”

“Yes, Your Highness. Please take care. ”

Without even thinking about getting up, I stared into the air for a long ti. I saw the chief palace official going back while carrying a stack of papers, and the maids on standby outside going out silently, but I couldn’t afford to pay attention to them. I touched my heart as I felt more and more empty.

When I was comforting myself lonely, I saw a man in uniform entering the room. With his silver hair shining in the sun, he was staring at silently with his blue eyes. Suddenly, my eyes were blurred.

“Daddy..”

“What happened, Your Highness?”

“Just like you heard it, dad. I…”

“I heard His Majesty pushed you back while hurriedly standing up in order to clear the empress’s misunderstanding. That’s why you miscarried a baby. Is it true? ”

“…Who spread such frivolous rumors. It’s because I foolishly stumbled, so don’t listen to groundless rumors, dad.”

My father never heard or repeated bad rumors about the empire and the imperial family.

I couldn’t believe my ears when he asked that question, so I just smiled at him as if nothing happened.

No matter who gossiped about , I had to set the example as a mber of the imperial family while refraining from saying or doing anything that could disgrace the empire and the imperial family.

My father, who looked at for a while without saying anything, spoke in a low voice. There was loneliness in his blue eyes. His navy blue eyes were filled with bitterness.

“Oh, what I heard is true.”

“Daddy.”

“… You were gravely injured. Take a good rest. ”

While I was looking at my father, I lay in bed, thinking of his reminder that I should take a rest.

But how can I relax at all? As I lay still, several things ca to my mind. His cold look and eyes, his cold voice with which he declared that my child would never be his successor without showing joy at all, and his cold-hearted actions when he simply called for the maids to take care of even after I fell bleeding then followed the empress.

I felt heartbroken. I was more heartbroken by the fact that he was following her than by the fact that I lost a child I hadn’t seen yet. Perhaps it was fortunate that the child was not born to a woman like who was frustrated more by the fact that she did not gain his love than by the fact that she lost a baby. Co to think of it, maybe he was right when he said I was indeed a cold-hearted woman.

I felt like I would go crazy when I just sat silent. So, I started working randomly. When I wake up in the morning, I read and read papers even though my head was in the clouds. I kept reading a mountain of docunts until all the maids went to sleep and the day broke. When I had no more papers to read, I reread the docunts I had already reviewed.

Every ti I lay in bed, I kept recalling what happened that day. Every ti I took a nap, I had a nightmare. I didn’t want to lie down nor sleep.

How many days passed? Or weeks? Months? When I was writing sothing in a dream-like state, I heard the maids whispering among themselves quietly. They said Jiun had his baby.

“Hahaha.”

I made a hearty laugh at their funny gossip for a long ti. I kept laughing, while struggling to breathe, until the stunned maids ran out and my dad ca running to to talk.

“What are you doing, Your Highness?”

“Daddy, isn’t it so funny? Her Highness, that woman allegedly blessed by God got pregnant. Ahahahaha. ”

“Your Highness?”

“Isn’t it funny? My baby is gone, but she got pregnant. I can’t have any babies for the rest of my life, but she will have a baby. Isn’t this funny? Ahahahaha! ”

“Co to your senses!”

My father grabbed by my shoulders and shook back and forth. I tilted my head.

Why isn’t he enjoying this funny story? Why is he staring at like that?

“What is the matter with you, dad? Isn’t it funny, dad?”

Stars flashed in my eyes. I ca to my senses when I was hit by my father for the first ti in my life. I didn’t have the nerve to look at my father’s face when he was gasping for breath, so I looked down slightly.

“… Sorry, Dad. ”

“Now, have you co to your senses?”

“Yes, I’m sorry to show my ugliness.”

“I wish I had not married you off to him.”

I learned the royal courses as soon as I took my first step after I was designated as his wife.

Like the head of the empire’s foremost loyal family, my father never resisted the imperial decision to take as the crown prince’s wife by treating as the child of the prophecy.

Even when there was a confrontation between the factions who wanted to make the mysterious girl his wife and the faction who wanted to make his wife, my father, as a faithful servant of the imperial family, didn’t raise any objection to the crown prince’s decision to take Jiun as his wife. And he humbly accepted the prince’s humiliating order to have , who was originally chosen as his wife, accepted as his concubine.

Despite that, my father now said he regretted that he married off to the prince. I could hardly believe my ears. Did I hear wrong? My father was not the type of man who could have said that.

“What did you say, daddy?”