Chapters 11-17 have been rewritten to improve story flow and pacing. [June 27, 2024]
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Strange dreams disturb my sleep these days.
It always starts the sa; being pursued in a dark forest, not knowing what's hunting . The panting, the crashing of underbrush, the chase.
Sohow the forest becos mountains, and the mountains turn into the beach. Still I run, as fast as I can, with the threat of sothing at my heels.
It's dayti. It's night. There are people running with , and I'm alone. It makes no sense at all, and yet it feels completely normal in the mont.
Then a wolf slipping out of the shadows to stare at , with blue eyes and sparkling white fur, except for a patch of black at the end of her tail.
The dream always ends there, with startled awake and staring at the ceiling through the dim light of my bedroom window, soaked in sweat and sore like I'd run a hundred miles, being chased by so monstrous beast.
Getting back to sleep after feels almost impossible as I toss and turn, and I show up to the Novel Grind every day feeling more exhausted than the day before.
The only new change to my life is the daily escape from Animal Control—that silver husky (who, we found out, is actually a girl) who always stops by to see at the store, waiting patiently for an officer to get her and bring her back to safety.
Carlos jokes that I should keep her, since she seems to like , but there's no way I can raise a pet. Not when there's a part of always looking over my shoulder. A part of waiting for the day I have to pack up and leave again.
By the third day of nightmares, I've developed a low-grade fever that seems to co and go, along with a slight cough. Nothing to keep from working. It just leaves miserable enough to think I might need so help getting rid of these nightmares.
If I can't get enough quality sleep, I'm going to end up really sick. A trip to urgent care is sothing I can't afford.
Building a new life is expensive. There's a huge list of things on my need list, and not enough dollars in the bank account to cover them.
On day four, my blessed day off, I drag myself out of bed with shivers wracking my body. Thermoters were listed on my want list, not my need list, so I have no idea how high my fever might be. Either way, I can't afford dical care, so ignorance is probably bliss.
Even putting on clothes makes my skin hurt, and my bones ache.
But I'm out of food.
Getting dressed feels like an impossible task. My arms shake. My muscles protest. My head swims with every movent, especially when I lean down to fumble with my sneakers. It takes five tries to get the laces tied.
When I'm done, I'm a sweaty, trembling ss.
The walk to the grocery store is pure agony. Every step is a torture of sharp pain from heel to pelvis. The sun beats down on with a vengeance, despite the crisp spring morning.
It's all I can do to keep putting one foot in front of the other.
There are familiar faces, neighbors I've co to recognize in my ti here, who pass by with a smile and wave. I can barely muster the energy to nod in return, shuffling along like a zombie's taken over my body.
It's usually a quick ten-minute walk to the store, but today it feels like an eternity. I have to stop and catch my breath every few minutes, leaning against buildings or trees for support.
My lungs burn and itch. My throat's raw from the hacking cough that's developed from needing to breathe oxygen.
By the ti I finally stumble into the grocery store, I'm not sure I'll be able to make it back ho. It doesn't feel worth the effort. Maybe I can just live and die here, right by the apples.
The cool air conditioning is a blessed relief… but it also makes shiver violently.
Living and dying is definitely not happening by the apples. I'll have to go ho.
Grabbing a basket, I head for aisles by mory, shuffling my way through. I have to make smart choices. The basics are all I need today. A small container of milk. Bread. Eggs.
Things that are easy to carry and require no effort to prepare.
The soup section is a dilemma. Chicken noodle? Tomato?
My head pounds, and I can feel my fever spiking. Not investing in a thermoter feels like a terrible oversight. It would be nice to know just how sick I really am.
Sick enough to go bankrupt at the doctor? Or sick enough to make it through with sleep and determination?
I end up grabbing a few cans of chicken noodle. As I make my way towards the checkout, I spot the dicine aisle, filled with boxes of bright colors and bold fonts.
A thermoter would be smart, but they're expensive. I settle for a small bottle of Tylenol instead, hoping it will be enough to get through the worst of this.
The cashier gives a concerned look as she rings up my items. It takes a second to realize she's a shifter.
I don't think I've ever seen a shifter working here before.
But I'm too tired to worry about it.
"You okay, honey? You don't look so good."
I force a smile, but it feels more like a grimace. "Just a little under the weather. I'll be fine." More proof of my defect life; shifters don't get sick, not like humans do.
This is awful.
She doesn't look convinced, but she doesn't push. I pay in cash, not wanting to risk using my card and leaving a trail. It's a new habit that I'm trying really hard not to break.
The walk back ho is even worse than the trip there. My grocery bags feel like lead weights, and I have to stop every few steps to catch my breath.
There's a prickling down my back, like I'm being watched. My paranoia must have finally kicked in from that shifter cashier.
I glance around, but there's nothing. No hint of any shifters nearby.
Still, the uneasiness lingers beneath my misery.
By the ti I make it back to my apartnt, I'm ready to collapse. I barely have the energy to put away the perishables and heat up a bowl of soup in the microwave.
Even the thought of eating makes my stomach turn. I force down a few spoonfuls anyway, knowing I need the nutrients.
As I curl up on the couch, shivering despite the blanket I've wrapped around myself. Too late, I rember the Tylenol, but the thought of walking into the kitchen to grab it… Ugh.
Maybe later.
I don't want to move.
But of course there's a soft rapping against my door to ruin that plan.
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