Without a preamble, Janet began her first counselling session with us.
"Now, I can tell without being told that there was a ti when you were head over heels for each other and don’t ask how I know... It’s glaring," Janet said quietly giving us each a smile. I wanted to roll my eyes at her words but I maintained my composure. "So, the first thing we’re going to do before anything is..."
She paused and pulled out two writing pads from behind her which she handed over to us. "So, I want you both to tell from your perspectives how you first t. The specific details, sights and sounds that captured your senses when you first saw each other. What drew you first and...".
She was beginning to sound like a broken record. Noah shifted uncomfortably in his seat, so I knew he wasn’t going to start either. So, I jumped in without hesitation. "I and Noah’s eting is what I’d consider the strangest way for a man to et a woman," I started getting a curious eyebrow arch from Janet. "We t a few months after I gave birth to my daughters and he didn’t freak out like most people would. He embraced and my children and I can’t say when or how I fell in love with him,".
From the corners of my eyes, I saw Noah give a sharp look. Even though I wanted it to be a lie... sothing in my gut felt like I was making a confessional. Like finally coming forth with what I feel about Noah. I didn’t love-love him but I liked him to the extent that if we had better opportunities or more ti, I would have loved him.
"Y...You love ?" Noah asked from beside . His voice was a mixture of pain and almost surprise "You feel sothing for and you’ve kept it away from ? Do you know how much I’ve longed to even hear you admit that you like , Selene? And now this? What am I supposed to do with your confession now? Are you trying to guilt trap ? All these months, I feel like I’m floating with you because you never say the words back to . No matter how much I try to show you I love you... all I always get is a thank you!" he exploded.
"Okay, your majesty!" Janet shifted in her chair "Why don’t we take a breather. Rember we are talking about what made you fall in love. This will co later,".
"A thank you?" I repeated staring at him incredulously "What the fuck do you an Noah? And maybe you should listen to Janet... not everything is about you. I am only saying all the things that attracted to you and not this... it’s not even ti for a confessional. By the way, what do you an by the Thank you?" I was just too curious to let it go.
"You say thank you to the maids, to the guards, to the soldiers, to the man that opens the door for you at the shopping mall, to Xavier, to every godamn person including ! You never see for who I am... to you I am just a man who is head over heels over you. You don’t pay attention to , the only ti you’re endearing is when you want a favour or sothing done and...".
"Okay! That’s enough, Noah," Janet interrupted raising her hand placatingly towards him "I need you to calm down and maybe take a walk or sothing then you can go back later and rejoin us,".
"No!" Noah exhaled deeply as he adjusted in his seat "I am fine, we can continue. I’m sorry for my outburst, I just got emotional. Please continue," he indicated at .
If I hadn’t been in this room when it happened, I could have sworn with my life that the outburst didn’t happen. It was so hard to believe that the man that was blowing hot a few minutes ago was the sa person sitting beside . At this point, I was so flustered that I had forgotten what I was saying. Janet must have sensed it, because she faced Noah.
"While we wait for Selene to gather her thoughts, how about we hear from you, Your majesty?"
He nodded and cleared his throat "I t Selene on a rainy night and I cannot tell if I fell in love with her right there or several months later when she turned around my pack finances. She had children at that ti but she was very much a desirable woman. I rember how my wolf would go crazy whenever I see her... she’s smart, intelligent, knows how to fix things and beautiful and I started growing fond of her..."
He leaned to drink from the cup of tea in front of him before he continued "And by the ti I could put a tag to my emotions I was trapped. I love Selene so much... even now. I love her, I love her kids and goddess knows I will do anything to be with her, to make her look at just for once. Also, love the kind of love I have for Selene is different... before her, I’ve been in several casual friendships and also had an important relationship at so point with a woman I loved but with Selene it’s different..."
A tear rolled down his cheek. "Usually, when you love soone, there are periods you go when you feel like you don’t want them anymore. Maybe after a quarrel or a fight and you just want to stay away but it’s not like that with Selene... I want to be with her right after this mont. I want us to fight and stay... to cry and make mad love to each other afterwards. Is it too much to ask?"
Janet stared at him for the longest ti before she sighed and tutted. "Alright, that was wonderful. Thank you for sharing with . So, for our last activity today, on the note pads I gave you a while ago, I’d like you each to take so ti writing down all the individual traits, habits or characteristics that you love most about your partner. Don’t hold back anything – usually I advise that you allow it pour forth from your heart onto the page and when you’re done, you’d also write down all the things you hate about them. Sothing you wish you can change,".
That was easy – I told myself.
I imdiately set to work. When I was done, we had to wait for Noah to finish up before we handed the pads back to Janet who received it gracefully and then faced us.
"That will be all for today’s session, I’m afraid," she said, consulting her wristwatch. "And it’s not because we have exceeded the ti, I allotted for this first session but it because a lot of emotions are high and you cannot do effective counselling when your mood is a ss. So, we’ll co back tomorrow and maybe we’ll keep eting every day this week, except of course there is serious pack duties," she turned to Noah "That needs to be attended to. Just inform beforehand so, I can prepare my mind,".
My gaze strayed to Noah who looked calmly outwardly but I knew there was a storm going on inside of him. Janet was right... because it was not just him... I could still feel the lingering chaos left in the wake of Brooke’s taunts and Noah’s irritation over my lateness so it was probably for the best.
With grudging nods, we both rose to take our leave when Janet’s voice reached us again. "Sorry, I forgot to ntion... Usually, at the end of each session that is for clients who book for private sessions, I go with the lest emotional one and try to find out how the session went. That’s for couples, of course. So today, Selene will be going with and one last thing..." her gaze travelled our faces as she eyed us suspiciously "For the duration of the therapy and counselling can you both not have sex whether with your spouses or any sidekicks!"
Noah’s brows ford a dangerous arch reminding of a bow and arrow that wants to be shot. "Why is that?"
"Because sex sses up a lot of things. It can make you put off the most important of confessions just for a few minutes of pleasure and believe when I say you’ll tell yourself that you don’t need this therapy and a few sweaty rounds will fix it. So please...don’t take it lightly,".
Noah looked like he wanted to argue more but he sighed and left. I waited for her tidy up while wondering what she was going to ask . After she finished, she gave a smile and motioned towards the door.
"It’s a beautiful day and honestly one of the reasons I accepted to co here was because I heard that Moon Whisper is such a beautiful place and believe , it hasn’t disappointed since I ca here," she started as we started walking towards the garden.
We had walked for almost ten minutes when she stopped suddenly and turned to "You don’t strike as a woman whose husband cheated on her I must say. Do you like it or are you only trying to suppress what you feel?"
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