(EP-333.1) Of Hearts #2
333 – Queen of Hearts #2
Actually.
I’d thought this before.
Maybe Aira did like .
Not simply as a cherished subordinate or servant, but as a man.
Otherwise, why would she have lick soap off her or kiss her feet? But I’d never asked her directly.
There hadn’t been an appropriate mont.
More importantly, I didn’t want to deal with the aftermath if the answer was “no”. So I kept it that way.
If I was being honest, I might have been enjoying that strange tension—sothing that was almost there, but couldn’t be touched.
And so, this question could change many things about my relationship with Aira.
But no answer ca from her.
“……”
Those half-lidded eyes looked at . I couldn’t tell if she hadn’t heard or if she was lost in thought.
Should I ask again?
This ti, more directly.
“Aira-nim, do you like Theo Gospel? Romantically.”
“That’s strange.”
Strange?
It was an unexpected answer.
“Theo wouldn’t ask sothing like that.”
Ah, that was true.
I decided to brush it off.
“Because it’s a dream.”
“… Is that so? If it’s a dream, I suppose it makes sense. But I don’t quite understand the point. Liking or not liking… Such things aren’t important between and Theo.”
Was Aira also trying to dodge the question by answering vaguely?
No, it didn’t seem so. In Aira’s eyes, which were narrowed again, there seed to be genuine sincerity.
Aira truly seed to believe that whether or not she liked didn’t matter in our relationship. But what did that an?
Was there so much trust between us that it transcended that?
Or was it because there was a wall between the queen and her servant that even affection couldn’t overco? I asked for an answer, but I only got more questions.
Suddenly, she said.
“Then let ask you. What does it an to like soone romantically?”
Aira posed the question to , and I couldn’t quite grasp what she intended by it. Was she genuinely asking?
“To like soone in that sense… It’s as the words imply. Aira-nim must have had one or two n you’ve liked in your life, right?”
“Hmm…”
Aira humd softly, as if in deep thought.
After a brief pause, her lips finally parted.
“Reuben was a kind person. He always complinted and patted my head. He’s much older than , so I always had to look up to him. Reuben was tall.”
Reuben.
“Judah and Dan were lively. Both are mischievous, but they were always kind to . They’d pick flowers for or bring birds.”
Judah and Dan.
Those were familiar nas.
After that, Aira ntioned several other nas and said what she liked about them. A total of 12.
Aira liked 12 n. It might sound like she was a heartbreaker, but those n were her brothers.
It was a bit different from the answer I expected.
Still, I continued to ask.
“Besides family. Aren’t there any n you want to marry?”
Even as I asked, I felt a slight tremor of nervousness.
It felt like asking about your girlfriend’s past. Honestly, there was a part of that didn’t really want to know the answer. But Aira, being human, must have experienced liking soone at so point.
After all, she was a princess beloved by everyone.
The man she would have liked must have been so tall prince clad in a uniform and adorned with shiny dals.
The kind who would hold a ball to choose a princess and chase after Cinderella at 12 o’clock.
This anxiety ca hand-in-hand with a faint expectation—what if, just maybe, my na would co up?
Anxiety and anticipation.
This strange Pandora’s box of emotions finally opened.
“There wasn’t anyone.”
“Not even one?”
“None.”
Relief and disappointnt blood simultaneously.
She said there wasn’t.
It ant that no one could enter Aira’s heart, and at the sa ti, pointing out that I couldn’t enter it either.
Was that even possible?
“What is love?”
Suk.
Her delicate fingers touched the left side of my chest, which got nervous.
Since she thought of all this as a dream, it felt as though she might just rip my heart out. With Aira, it was very possible.
“What is marriage? I’ve never really given it much thought. Nor do I really want to.”
“But didn’t you announce a martial festival to search for a gukseo? Whoever wins will marry you. Isn’t it reckless to approach sothing so significant with indifference?”
My question could have been considered rude, yet Aira simply laughed. It was small and faint, like tender blades of grass swaying in the wind.
“It’s just entertainnt. Everything is, in the end, just drifting in a dream….. ”
* * *
This wouldn’t be as easy as I thought.
That was my conclusion after the recent conversation with Aira. How should I put it? Aira felt like a robot with so missing components.
Was it that she lacked the emotions of love and affection?
To capture Aira’s heart, I needed to teach her that ‘love’.
But doing so for Aira, who seed to lack that function altogether, was a mountain of a task.
I’d always known that her emotional responses were sowhat different from those of ordinary people.
She was similar to a psychopath or sociopath, soone with a notable deficiency in empathy and emotions. I had vaguely suspected as much.
If it was sothing related to the mind, the Draco twins might know sothing. Could I explain the situation to them and ask for their help?
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