Chapter 374 - Three Hundred And Seventy-four: We Are Nothing
The third point of view:
We all have inner demons inside us to fight. They are nothing but our DEMONS who prevent us from seeing the goodness of ours as well as others.
"The fear of the unknown is worse than reality."
We all have these demons, as parts of ourselves that we don't like to acknowledge but we see them lurking inside us. They dominate us every day, every mont.
No matter how hard we try to ignore our demons, they are always there constantly pulling us from positivity to negativity.
But the question is, are we going to ignore it or are we going to face it and make peace with it?
The choice will always be there, but Cecile wasn't sure she was ready to make that choice yet. She has been doing well with it over the years, why change now?
"You're afraid of a man's touch, aren't you?" That question played in a loop in her mind. However, the mont realization set in, her face lost all color.
How did he know that? That was the one secret no one knew about, not even her son, Pedro, or even Reina. Hence having soone, not just soone but one of them who had contributed to the phobia in the first place know about it, wasn't exactly pleasing.
Without a word, Cecil made a course for the door, but Erald, who had sensed her intention, went after her. Just as she opened the door, he snapped it shut.
"Answer ," He demanded.
"Get out of my way," She growled at him, fighting against the urge to submit to him.
With Erald standing so close to her, he towered over her greatly, not to ntion that he was invading her personal space.
"I did this to you, didn't I?" he asked, preventing her from escaping his querying
"Let go," She tried to slip around him but he wouldn't let her.
"Seriously, speak to !" he yelled.
"What do you want to say!" She shouted back at him, "Congratulations, you, my father, and Fernandez ssed up a young girl real bad? What? Is that it?!" she spat at him.
"Yes, so that I can help you!"
"I don't need your help and don't you dare to look at like I'm so fragile damsel in distress!" She scread, poking him on the chest, and God, it felt good - almost therapeutic.
"You need help, Cecil, can't you see it! You can't even have a good ti with a man without breaking out in a panic. Let help you," He pleaded even though his voice was at the sa furious range as hers.
If he was the cause of her illness, he had to redy this. If he had kept his dick in his pants, all of this wouldn't have happened; it was his fault.
"I don't need a man in my life neither do I need your help!" She retorted.
"What?" His expression changed.
"Yes, you heard right," She told him right in the face, "And don't you think that just because we made out a few minutes ago that we are sothing special because we are not! We are nothing and you would never be sothing to !"
It was too late, Cecil realized as soon as the words were out of her mouth; she didn't an to say it that way.
Erald flexed his jaw, "Is that so?" he said, disappointnt flashing across his features.
"Erald..." she tried to explain but the hardened look on his face shut her up.
"The job is done, Fernandez would never bother you. You can leave now," he opened the door for her this ti.
Cecil stepped out of the room with the words she wanted to say stuck in her throat.
"E...." she turned to say only for the door to be shut at her face. Wonderful! This is how you thank the guy who saved you from your crazy ex, really smooth Cecil, she chided herself.
Cecil banged her head on the wall, what the hell was wrong with her? She really didn't an that - at the least half of it.
n were not ant for her. So won were lucky enough to et the love of their life who loved them back on the first try. It was true that all n were not the sa, but her heart was not strong enough to handle another betrayal.
She didn't know what Erald want from her, there was no way he loved her, he just needed a good fuck, which she dreaded. Intimacy with the opposite sex was a work in progress. Yeah, so much, progress - note the sarcasm.
Knowing she had hurt his pride, Cecil headed back to her room and began to pack up. Everything was resolved, there was no need to linger here any longer. It was one hell of uncomfortable.
Cecil began to pack up, more like organizing the room since she had co with literally nothing - Erald had provided everything. She felt a tightening sensation in her chest at the thought of Erald, he has done so much for her than she thought.
Wasn't she being selfish by thinking of leaving without thanking him properly? He had rescued her from Fernandez - well that was Reina's order; gave her and Pedro a roof over their head and provided them basic anities - well, this was still Sakuzi's place aka Reina's father; he warned Fernandez off for her sake - that was him atoning for his sins.
Fine, she'd stay behind and at least thank him for what he has done - she wasn't an ungrateful bitch. Cecil decided, flopping down on her bed. Deep in thought, she just closed her eyes a bit and the next she knew, went into dreamland.
When she woke up and decided to take a walk around, as usual, Cecil discovered there were so slight changes to the house. The n were decorating the house amid their quips and playful scuffle.
"What's going on?" she stopped one of the n she had acquainted with over the days.
"Oh, you don't know," The young man was excited, "It's Erald's birthday today. That big hulk - don't tell him I called him that - doesn't like to celebrate it but Sakuzi always organizes a party for him at the least. Left alone, Erald wouldn't even accept a birthday wish, talk more of a party," He explained.
"Thank you for the information," She flashed him a grateful smile.
"You're welco," He winked at her playfully and went to join the other n while Cecil inhaled a shaky breath.
What has she done?
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