The scent of herbs and flowers filled the room as more healers from all over the kingdom ca inside my room to attend to . Different salve had been applied on my body all of them of different sll but the good thing about them was that they were effective. After so days, I noticed that the bruises around my eye and my mouth were starting to fade away.
Madam Heidi had also manage to get so of the tears of a rmaid salve which sped up the healing process. I was able to now walk without feeling any pain or discomfort. I was almost completely healed, faint for the few bruises on my face and so places on my body, I would be fine.
I was grateful for the rebels in a way because Madam Heidi had frowned at the scars on my shoulders. She ended up muttering so very colorful words at what the rebels did to not knowing that it was injuries I had sustained from fighting with Reagan.
Another thing that changed was the way everyone seed to be careful with after finding out I was pregnant. Madam Heidi made sure everything was in place and had begun teaching classes along with Alia who was no stranger to it.
They had listed out food that I was going to be eating and listed things they deed as too harsh for the baby. Alia was surprisingly gentle with and it was probably the closest that we’ve been and the longest words we’ve said to each other as she shared tales about her pregnancy and the mood swings and the craving that was sure to get more intense with each ti.
Madam Heidi on the hand was quite strict with . Every al that was brought to was inspected thoroughly by her and every move I made was under constant examination. It got to a point she started telling what positions to sleep in and where I had lost it was when she had started talking about sexual positions that would be suitable in my condition.
Alia had also chirped in telling there would be a ti in my pregnancy when I would be very horny and the sex would get more intense but the best way to have sex was with facing down. Alia and Madam Heidi seed oblivious to my discomfort and they were so into the conversation they didn’t notice when I had slipped out of my room.
Gods above! I sighed heavily as I leaned against the door, at this point I do not think my body belongs to anymore!
Pressing a hand to my face, I heaved out another sigh. My near-death experience led to think I would face many things but listening to Alia and Madam Heidi talk about positions for pregnancy sex was not one of them.
With a slight shake of my head, I straightened from the door and drew in a deep breath before I decided to proceed forward. Walking into the hallway brought a refreshing air that was a welco relief from the herbs heavy odor in my bedroom. I drew in a deep breath selfishly welcoming the fresh air which was exactly what I needed at that mont.
I needed enough space to be able to breathe and to hear my own thoughts.
I don’t think anyone understands how I truly feel. How suffocating it was to be constantly reminded of a pregnancy I wasn’t sure I felt about yet and one the father didn’t know about. Although my body seed foreign to but at least I could decide on what to do with it.
Or so I hoped!
I was still lost in my thoughts when I suddenly collapsed into a hard chest. Warm strong hands, suddenly reached out to steady and I looked up only to find my brother looking down at .
"Bjorn." I called startled.
"What’s gotten your mind so preoccupied sister?" Bjorn asked , "Are you sure you are okay?"
Heaving out a sigh, I stepped away from him. "Apart from the fact that ever since I’ve gotten here, I’ve been constantly fussed over, treated like I’m fragile and my body doesn’t feel like my own? I’m fine!" I said the last part having more bite than I intended.
Bjorn arched a brow up at , "I’m guessing this is one of the pregnancy hormones that they spoke about?"
"By the hells Bjorn!" I groaned as I shoved away from my brother, "I swear if I hear one more talk about the pregnancy, I am going to scream."
"Alright, alright." Bjorn chuckled as he raised his hands in mock surrender, "But I thought you would be happy. Apart from the fact that a pregnancy is sothing most won look forward to, I thought you would be happy with all the attention you are getting."
I sighed, raking a hand through my hair in frustration. "Maybe that’s the point. I have gotten so used to not getting any attention that this feels strange to !" I said before I turned back to look at Bjorn who was watching with a wary look on his face, "Besides, it’s not the kind of attention I want. I can’t breathe, I can’t think, I can’t fucking hear my own thoughts and now I have to watch the way I sleep or I am going to kill the baby, it’s like my body doesn’t fucking belong to anymore!" I yelled loudly.
Bjorn’s eyes imdiately darted around, no doubt checking to see if we alone and no one had witnessed my outburst. Satisfied that no one had been there to witness it, Bjorn turned to look at . "How about you calm down Dahlia?"
"That’s the thing, I can’t calm down." I said starting to breathe heavily, "I can’t calm down, no one will listen to , no one listens to whatever I have to say, I can’t calm down Bjorn, I can’t..." St this point I was already starting to hyperventilate, my breath ca out in sharp pants as I tried to speak.
Bjorn already knowing what was wrong with imdiately grabbed and wrapped his arms around firmly, "It’s okay Dahlia, you are okay now."
In the arms of the only person I ever considered, I allowed myself to break, sobbing while clutching him tightly and Bjorn allowed even though he wasn’t supposed to. We were breaking a lot of protocols by being like this. Anyone could walk in on us at any mont, but I didn’t care. Right now, he ws my big brother and I was his sister he was trying to comfort.
"I don’t know what’s going on with you Dahlia," Bjorn whispered, "But whatever it is, you are going to be okay, I promise you."
I sniffed as I nodded my head still clutching Bjorn close to mine but deep down I knew, it was never going to be okay. His promises ant nothing to since I knew the truth. Things could not just exist as it had been. Everything that had transpired made it impossible to return to the previous circumstances, not with everything that had happened. The child inside of carried a weight that served as a reminder of my consequences, a tether I couldn’t escape.
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