Chapter 54: The ending he must bear
“Huh? You are...?” That was so out of the blue...I glanced at the number again.
“I’m Hong Xiaobei. From now on, listen to . I know you’ve been watching ever since you have ca to this school. I don’t care what motives you have for approaching , and neither do I care about your relationship with my sister. But currently, you’re the only person I can share my deep thoughts with. Ever since my sister died, I’ve always been living in the midst of pain and struggle. The only things that sustained from continuing to act her role were Kevin and Xiao Xin. I thickened my skin because of Xiao Xin’s hospital bills. I wore the high heels and the brand uniforms that didn’t belong to . I carried the brand na bags that weren’t mines. I lived a luxurious life that was soone else’s. I guess I am rather fortunate. Each ti I felt like I had no one to rely on, God would grant another reliance. But I always give those people misfortunes. Right now, Kevin is my world. During my most helpless and desperate monts, he believed in . He decided to stay by my side during my most darkest tis. So, I love him. Both him and Xiao Xin are the people whom I want to protect the most. But today, at 5:47pm, the doctor announced that Xiao Xin had passed away to another world. I don’t want to have any more hopes towards life anymore. All the people whom I loved are dying one at a ti in front of . They all leave . Late at night, I often cry myself to sleep. I can’t help but feel resentnt. Why is life so unfair? Why can’t I protect those who love and support ? I’m calling you because I want you to do one thing for . From the start, I’ve never been able to successfully protect anyone. This ti, please let succeed for once. I’m begging you...or else my life would be a total bust. In regards to my sister’s issue, although Kevin took part, I hope you do not ntion him. Please do not ntion it to anyone. If others find out, he will be considered an accomplice. He will be sentenced. His future is bright, I don’t want him to go to jail because of . Just let take responsibility for everything. Allow this secret to disappear with . Oh, also, please tell Kevin I love him. I have never told him face to face. After all, I am a shy maiden. I don’t have the courage to say “I love you”...”
Hong Xiaobei’s words seed to be heading towards a bad direction.
Aside from the unknown number, I heard soone yelling from the background.
“Little Miss, co down!”
“It’s so dangerous. Whatever you want to say, co down first!”
Could she be....
“Xiaobei! Don’t do anything crazy!” I hopped up from my couch and shouted into the phone, “Where are you now? I’ll co find you!”
“No need. I’m tired...I just want everything to end....”
My sense of dread was growing by the second. I tightly gripped onto my cell phone as I tried my best to persuade her, “Xiaobei, please do not do anything foolish. You told how you felt when your father committed suicide. You know that suicide is not the answer. It’s only an escape. You’ll be pushing all the responsibilities towards others instead. Those who love you will suffer. Please calm down. We can take ti to make a decision...”
My voice was caught in my throat. There was no sound on the other side of the phone. I only heard the wind howling, with no sound of life.
My cell phone slipped from my hands and landed on the wooden floor. It made a huge noise, and I felt like there was a gigantic hole in my heart.
My mind was a ss, with another voice that wouldn’t stop ringing, “It was because of you! Because of you! Because of you!”
Yes, it was because of ! If I hadn’t trusted Xu Weishan so easily and ddled in their affairs, perhaps, Xiaobei and Kevin could have lived an ordinary life.
Logically, I should be running out to find Hong Xiaobei. But strangely, it was as if my legs had lead poured over it. I wasn’t able to take a single step. It was like there was superglue underneath my feet that forced stay in my original spot.
“What happened? Huh? Your cell phone is on the ground. You clumsy bum, if you drop your cell phone too often, then...”
Suyang heard the noise and ca running out to see what was wrong. He talked endlessly as he bent down to pick up my phone for .
“Fortunately, it’s not broken....” He spread out my hand and stuffed the phone back in it. Suyang finally noticed the tears that were rolling down my face. He asked in a caring tone, “W-why are you crying?”
The mont I heard those words, I began to sob louder. Initially, I only had silent tears rolling down from my eyes.
Ultimately, I never told him the reason. But Suyang was able to make discerning judgnts and didn’t continue to push . He gently placed his hands behind my back as he patted and tried to soothe .
I released all my emotions as I loudly wailed. I let out everything that I was feeling....the humiliation I felt from being deceived by Xu Weishan, the self-bla for tracing after Hong Xiaobei, and the regret for ddling in other people’s business.
After a long ti, I changed my mindset.
Although I was used by Xu Weishan, at the end of the day, I didn’t do anything.
I was glad and lucky that I didn’t do anything. In their stories, I tried my best to be an outsider and listener. It was a freak combination of factors that I had entered their lives and found out about their stories. In regards to their ending, it was self evident.
I knew the ending of this story wasn’t my fault. If I had never ca to this University to pretend to be a fake student; never t Xu Weishan or found out their story, Hong Xiaobei would’ve just made one less phone call today. But even so, I couldn’t help but feel depressed for a very long ti.
The next day, Hong Xiaobei’s suicide caused a sensation all over the newspapers.
The inside story of the Xu Clan: Real daughter murdered by fake. The fake committed suicide to escape punishnt.
According to sources, before Hong Xiaobei had jumped into the river, she recorded a confession on her cell phone. The confession was broadcasted and Hong Xiaobei admitted she killed Xu Weishan. She didn’t say it was manslaughter. She said Xu Weishan died because of her and she wasn’t asking for forgiveness. She just wanted to die in order to regain peace in her heart again.
The Police also ca to find . They asked why I was the last person Hong Xiaobei contacted.
I calmly responded, “How would I know what was going through in her mind? She’s dead now. Who can explain?”
“Did she say anything specific to you? Your conversation was not short.”
“She told she was sorry for using a fake identity to trick people for so long. She was tired of pretending to be Xu Weishan. She preferred living as the poor and real Hong Xiaobei. Now, she can finally be herself again. If there’s another world, she hopes to see her loved ones and be with them forever.”
After hearing my words, the Police shook their heads in confusion. It appeared they didn’t understand my words. “What type of ssed up thoughts did she have....”
Later on, I encountered Kevin in front of Hong Xiaobei’s tombstone.
Xu Weishan’s parents ended up burying Xu Weishan and Hong Xiaobei next to each other. To them, they had lost two daughters.
I passed on Hong Xiaobei’s ssage to Kevin. Kevin calmly stared at for a few seconds and then thanked as he turned to leave.
Based on my impressions of Kevin, he had always been a sunshine boy who loved basketball. But as I watched him turn and walk away, I could feel a heavy burden on his black windbreaker that could not be expressed with words.
Now, he must bear all the truth and secrets alone. Hence, his rear view was laden with grief.
“I have already passed onto your ssage. Is there anything else you want to do?” I turned to Hong Xiaobei. She had been standing by my side from the start.
She smiled at . It was like how we t the first ti -when she smiled and invited to that awkward party.
But this ti, her smile was real and bright.
Hong Xiaobei shook her head. Then, she ran and caught up to Kevin as they walked together side by side.
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