I felt a frown crease between my brows as I began struggling to understand my own feelings and what it was that I wanted.
Do I want him to keep away from Bradon? Is that it?
Does Anthony even know that his brother had taken his place at his wedding?
At first, I wanted to get Anthony to help get out of my house-arrest but now that I could co out of the mansion, I wasn’t sure what it was that I wanted. My conflicted feelings and hesitation led to an awkward silence that seed to stretch for far too long.
“Things have been quite complicated for . As you probably know, I took my sister’s place at her wedding and...your brother took your place,” I said as I felt my throat suddenly turn dry.
“I see. You’re living with Bradon right now, aren’t you?” he asked casually.
“Yes, I am...” I replied truthfully.
“How is it? Living with my brother...” he asked.
For a mont, I thought that he might be worried about , but I didn’t dare to let that feeling blossom into hope in the fear that I might get disappointed once again. Anthony is in love with my sister, and he must be worried now that she has disappeared. If I told him the truth about my sister’s disappearance and the fact that she had eloped with another man, would that change the love that he has for her?
If I told him the truth, would he see any differently? Would it be possible for him to love or was it already too late for that because I’m now married to his brother?
Was I really married to Bradon?
I was so confused that I was no longer sure what was the right course of action that I should take. Living with Bradon felt like trudging through burning hell with a heavy load on my back. Every step felt so painful and ridden by bad mories. He was cruel, cold, dominating, and extrely manipulative. It felt like I was walking in eggshells and broken glass whenever I was around him. Each small move or even a wrong choice of word could lead to my downfall and punishnt. His mood was unusually dark, and his humor twisted and sarcastic.
It felt like he always had a plan at the back of his mind to manipulate into doing exactly what he wanted. I could no longer count the number of tis that he tricked ...and then saved . Sotis he would go along with what I wanted, including my selfish and unreasonable demands. He didn’t hesitate to defend from my father. When he touches , I can feel that he’d been holding back for my sake. Sex with him is beyond amazing.
How do I feel about living with Bradon?
“As you know, this marriage between your brother and is just superficial. I apologize for my sister’s sudden disappearance and the fact that she hasn’t been found yet. I know that this must have angered your parents and that is why they wouldn’t let you attend the wedding. Regardless, my point is, since I’m supposed to replace her temporarily, I don’t see why I have to live with your brother. Can’t I move out and stay sowhere else until my sister returns?” I pleaded my case desperately.
In the end, that was how I thought it should be. I should have just married Anthony in na only and my involvent with Bradon shouldn’t have stretched beyond the wedding ceremonies and reception required to put on a show to fool the people. There really was no need for to live with him and I hoped that Anthony would agree with on this.
“I see. So, you want to move out?” Anthony asked flatly.
“Yes. As I just said, there’s really no need for to be there. I’ll still keep my end of the deal and continue on in my sister’s place even after I move out,” I further clarified.
It wasn’t my intention to run away or anything like that. I glanced at Anthony’s face as he seed to calmly take in my words. For a mont, he seed so emotionless and so distant, and he didn’t quite resemble the picture of Anthony that I rembered in my mories. He was silent for a mont, and I could sense his hesitation to go along with my proposal. I had to admit that his hesitation made feel uneasy and it was quite unexpected.
Although I knew that it might be too much to hope for, I had to admit that I did imagine Anthony openly expressing his care for the discomfort or any sufferings that I may have gone through. Then I imagined that he would offer to help by transferring imdiately to another place that he thought was safe. However, that didn’t seem to be the case. I wondered what was holding him back from readily offering help and what I could do to convince him.
“Honestly, I was quite shocked when it was Bradon who turned up in your place at the wedding. I guess because I haven’t t you for years, I couldn’t tell you two apart and honestly thought that he was you all throughout the wedding. I guess that’s quite embarrassing. If I may ask, why didn’t you turn up to the wedding? I an, even if I’m not my sister, it’s not like the wedding was supposed to be real...” I asked as I kept my eyes on his face to judge his reaction.
I truly wanted to know why he abandoned and why he allowed Bradon to take his place. Even if it was because of the pressure from his parents, I still wanted to hear it from him. Even if he didn’t love , he could have sympathized with my situation. He could have realized that I also had to make sacrifices. He could have at least turned up and held my hand as he stood by my side in front of the altar.
Honestly, is that too much to ask for?
--To be continued...
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