Becca.
Waking the next morning, I had the worst hangover of my life. Allegra and I had stayed up all night talking, laughing, and more or less, crying. I was a ss, but like Allegra told , I needed to putl my big girl panties on and take care of my shit.
The only problem was, I wasn’t sure how.
Slipping from bed, I made my way towards the bathroom to freshen myself up. I had to co up with a ga plan, because as nice as Allegra was, I couldn’t stay in her apartnt forever. Instead, it might be best if I bought my ticket ho.
Even though the other part of my brain protested against it, telling to go after him.
I couldn’t go after him. I wasn’t going to be seen as so pathetic bitch chasing after a man who didn’t want her.
Picking up my phone, though, my heart lurched. Three missed calls and over twenty texts from Jas and a few even from Tally.
Tally made it clear she hated , and I was no friend to her. That I had betrayed her and called every na under the sun. As much as it sucked that I’d hurt her, I honestly wasn’t upset about us not being friends anymore.
Jas, on the other hand, was begging for to call him. To let him see .
The last ssage he sent had my nerves on edge and my breath catching in my throat.
‘I never ant for things to happen this way, Becca. I need you. Please don’t walk away from . Give a chance to explain and fix this.’
My legs quickly turned to jelly as I sat on the bed with my hand over my mouth. Did I trust him enough to give him that chance? Did I let myself buckle under the pressure of my emotions for him to hear what he had to say?
Against my better judgnt, I sighed and sent him a ssage.
‘Where do you want to et you?’
As if he was waiting by his phone for to ssage him, a text ca through imdiately. ‘I’m at the office. Please co see .’
Taking a deep breath, I stood and quickly got dressed.
Allegra was waiting in the kitchen by the ti I ca out, and with a smoothie in her hand, she raised a brow at with a smile. “You’re going to see him?”
“How did you know?” I asked, with confusion. Had he been ssaging her as well?
“I told you, Becca. I’m very observant, and I see how Jas is around you. He isn’t going to let you walk out of his life. The way he is with you... well, I have never seen him like that with anyone else.”
Her admission made my heart swell, but no matter how much it entranced , I couldn’t just give in so easily. “I get what you’re saying, Allegra. But he made things clear before, and to be honest, I don’t want to be mixed up in so outrageous drama...”
“Becca, I’m gonna tell you what my mama told ,” she smiled, walking towards . “If you let your mind control you, you will never let your heart guide you. Sotis in life, things are worth taking a risk on. Just don’t let it destroy you.”
I wasn’t sure who her mom was, but I needed to see that lady. The advice Allegra gave was beyond remarkable, and it made so much more sense than what other people had told .
“Thanks,” I smiled, grabbing my purse. “I will be back later.... I’ll call you.”
“Oh! Make sure you take the spare key,” Allegra said, quickly fishing through a drawer in the kitchen. “Here you go.”
Taking the key with hesitation, I furrowed my brows. “Are you sure?”
“Yeah. Never know when you may need to use it. Now, go see Jas, and don’t be too harsh on him.”
“Wish luck!” I called over my shoulder to which she replied, “Break a hip, or don’t.”
******
Forty- minutes later, and after fighting through traffic, I made it to Jas’ building and was in the elevator heading up to his office. I wasn’t sure if this was the best idea I ever had, but then again, sleeping with my best friend’s father hadn’t exactly been the highlight of ideas to have.
My heels clicked against the floor as I stepped out and made my way towards his office, Evette’s eyes catching mine as I watched her brows furrow. “He’s expecting you.”
How would she know he was expecting ?
Had he told her about us?
Without questioning her, I nodded, giving her a small smile as I let a heavy breath escape , and turned the knob, opening the door. Jas sat behind his desk in all his godly fashion. His eyes slowly raised to et mine, and as they did, no smile followed.
I thought he would have been happy to see . Especially since he was the one who asked here. “Hello, Becca. Please take a seat.”
Business oriented... and here I was, hoping for sothing else.
“Hello, to you as well,” I replied, taking a seat across from him.
Jas’ eyes never left mine as he sat quietly, as if going over what he wanted to say.
“So–” I said, breaking the silence, causing him to finally smile. “What did you want to see for?”
“I don’t want things to be bad between us, Becca,” he admitted, clasping his hands together. “I want us to be like we were.”
“Yeah, well, things kind of changed, Jas. Tally threw a fit... you allowed that to happen, and you told her we were nothing. We were just having sex, that’s it.”
“I didn’t an it like that,” Jas snapped, catching off guard.
“Well, that’s what you said. You could have told her anything else, but that was what you went with. How do you think that makes feel?” I snapped back, shaking my head.
I honestly was hoping when I ca here today things wouldn’t end up heated like they are. Perhaps it was too soon, though. Not enough ti away had allowed us to speak clearly.
“I know,” Jas groaned, running his hand over his face. “Look, I’m not going to beg you to stay because that isn’t the kind of man that I am, but I will say I don’t want you to go.”
“I see. Well, why do you want to stay?” I asked, crossing my arms over my chest. He kept saying he didn’t want to go, but he never was clear about why he wanted to stay.
“Because we have fun together. Not to ntion incredible sex...”
Out of everything he could have said, that was what he was going to lead with?
Wrong answer. “So you want to stay because you like the sex?”
“Don’t twist my words. That’s not what I ant—”
“That’s exactly what you just f*cking said, Jas.” I yelled in frustration. “God, I have no clue what you really want. I was allowing myself to feel sothing again. After everything Chad did to , and yet... I was a fool because look at what has happened.”
Jas paused after my rant with a dumbfounded expression. “What were you feeling?”
Shit. Of course, he would want to elaborate on that confession.
“It doesn’t matter, Jas. How can I feel the way I do when you can’t even stand up to others about what you want?”
“That’s not true,” he replied. “Don’t you dare say that because it’s far from the truth.”
“Is it, though?” I replied, shaking my head. “Because you let Tally dictate a lot.”
Taking a deep breath, I pushed to my feet and grabbed my purse. I was done with this conversation and done making myself look more of a fool than I already was.
“Where are you going?” He stood as well. “Becca, stop...”
“Why, Jas? All we are doing is fighting, and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of keeping secrets and everything else that is going on. I should never have let myself fall into a situation with you like that. Especially knowing there would be nothing from it.”
Before I could reach the door, he took my arm and spun to face him, pressing his lips to my own. The taste of him in my mouth was breathtaking.
I wasn’t sure if I would ever kiss him again, but knowing I was right now was everything I needed.
“Don’t leave,” he whispered against my lips as he pressed my back to the wall. “Stay with .”
Every part of wanted to cry, but trembling, I had to find the will to move on.
“I can’t...” I replied, pushing back tears. “I want a relationship, Jas. I want soone who will love , and it isn’t fair to either of us to continue on when that will never happen.”
“It can happen,” he murmured, catching off guard. “I just need ti.”
Of course he did. “Ti for what?” I was curious to know his answer.
“Ti for Tally to understand things better,” he replied, and with those words, my heart broke again.
“Why do you have to wait for your grown ass daughter to finally give you the go ahead before you can be with –or anyone else for that matter? She is never going to be okay with this. She is never going to accept it. Therefore, we can never be together.”
The truth finally was out, and stepping back from , he stared at in disbelief. It was the truth, though. If he wanted to wait on Tally to be with soone, he was never going to be happy with another woman.
She would always want her dad and mom to get back together.
She would always expect him to co to her every beck and call.
Tally was a selfish bitch, and everything was always about her. So what was the point in Jas and I playing pretend that this could be more than it was? None of it made sense, and I couldn’t wait around hoping that it would.
Leaning forward, I ran my hand down the side of his face and kissed him deeply.
“Goodbye, Jas,” I whispered as tears slid down my cheeks.
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