Chapter 86: What Miyagi doesn't say — 86
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Miyagi will may or may not co.
When I called her after the festival, she ca, but considering what I did that day, it seems more likely that she will not co.
What I heard from Utsunomiya today.
If Miyagi were here, I would like to hear about it.
——I don’t feel very good about it, though.
The pain in my stomach has subsided, but my chest is still a little hazy.
All that cos to mind is negativity and not a cheerful mood. I feel similar to when I watched my parents who only loved my sister.
I get caught up in one thing and think only pessimistic thoughts.
This kind of is not good.
I have had a reasonably enjoyable school life, using my head to the point and in a reasonable position in the class. That kind of is about to disappear.
Breathe in, breathe out.
I walk quietly through the not so large classroom.
Even though I was not involved in why Miyagi chose an out-of-prefecture university, she chose a university not far from where I would be attending.
Close is better than far for any reason.
It is easier to simply believe that.
I do not wish to be far away from Miyagi, although I am not willing to admit it. As for the choice of the sa university as Utsunomiya, it is not so clear to that I am walking in the sa world as Utsunomiya, but it is better to find aning in the word “close.”
With Miyagi not too far away, the relationship would not just fall apart. With that in mind, I feel I can forgive so things.
I can’t sort out all my feelings neatly anyway. Then it is better to choose so better idea than to fall into the abyss myself.
I have to persuade myself that I’m not convinced and take it in a direction that sohow looks good. That shouldn’t be so bad.
However, there is a problem.
The Miyagi I know is not honest.
If I asked her to tell what college she was applying to, she would never talk to . And I do not want to ntion Utsunomiya’s na. If I do, I have a feeling that Miyagi will do her best to deny that she just consulted with her and has no intention of going.
That said, it seed difficult to ascertain whether what we heard today was true without ntioning Utsunomiya’s na.
Still, there is a part of that does not want to give up.
But what if Utsunomiya told Miyagi about what happened during lunch break——
Miyagi is about to accept the sa university as Utsunomiya.
If Miyagi had found out that I knew about it, it would have been troubleso. It is not surprising that he told Utsunomiya that he would go to a local university after all.
I stopped and looked at my watch, fifteen minutes had passed since I got here.
「She’s not coming, I guess?」
Five more minutes to wait.
The music preparation room is a little cold, probably because December is fast approaching behind . I don’t think this is the kind of place where people wait too long.
In general, even Miyagi would not make wait for 30 or 40 minutes. I would like to think so.
I leaned against the shelf where the instrunts are placed.
Looked at the door.
I close my eyes and slowly open them and the door opens silently.
I see a skirt that is not short, but not long either.
Her eyebrows raised in a sulky manner.
Not a word of concern for , like she was late, or sorry for keeping waiting.
Miyagi approaches silently.
She stopped a little in front of , shaking her hair a little longer than her shoulders. Then she opened her mouth in a tedious manner.
「What happened to our promise not to talk at school?」
Miyagi smashes her bag against my leg with a thud.
「If you wanted to protect it, Miyagi could have protected it. But if you didn’t keep it, doesn’t that an you don’t care about the promise?」
「I’m leaving.」
Miyagi said in a voice lower than room temperature and tried to turn around, so I called out to stall her.
「Stop. I called you here for a reason, you know.」
「It’s a silly thing anyway. Why don’t you just go ho instead of here?」
Complaining, Miyagi puts her bag on the floor and looks at .
「I don’t want to take orders from you.」
I smiled and said, and was t with a blatantly disgusted look.
「If you’ve got sothing to say, say it quick.」
What to say and how to say it.
I still haven’t figured it out yet.
And I don’t think I’ll be able to co up with anything even if I think about it for another five minutes.
As I am surprisingly absent-minded when it cos to Miyagi, I had no choice but to ask her straight out, as I always do in the end.
「…Where is your school of choice?」
「Is that what you’re asking ?」
「Yes.」
「I’ve said it a million tis already.」
「It’s not like you can only take one college. I was wondering if there was anywhere else you could take it.」
「I won’t take it.」
The answer ca as expected, and I fingered the polished instrunt.
The university is one of the things Miyagi never tells .
I want to ask her, but I know she will not answer.
Miyagi doesn’t always tell what I want to know.
I have no way of verifying whether Utsunomiya’s story is true or not.
「Why don’t you just take it? I think you can aim for a better university now. You’ve studied so hard.」
I know I shouldn’t, but I try to get the answers I want to hear from Miyagi.
「Sendai-san, you are persistent. I’m done talking about this.」
「I don’t take orders from you here.」
「It’s not an order, so if you want to talk, just continue as long as you like, Sendai-san. I have nothing to talk about and I’m leaving. Sendai-san, you can co over to my house later.」
Miyagi unilaterally terminates the conversation.
I knew it was coming, but I think it’s both curt and cold. I know that if I try to prolong the conversation any further, I will only be made to feel even colder. However, I, who am not a good person, do not want to let Miyagi leave like this.
「…Don’t you want to go to the sa college as your friends?」
I am tempted to na Utsunomiya as a specific example, but I will swallow her na and lock it in my stomach.
「…What is this suddenly?」
「You know how often that happens? Like you want to go to the sa school as your best friends.」
「Speaking of which. Sendai-san, you talked to Maika today, right?」
Miyagi does not answer my question, but returns the question with a thin crease between her eyebrows.
From the way she looks at , I can tell that Utsunomiya told Miyagi that she had t with . If that is the case, I cannot just pretend that she did not hear Utsunomiya’s na and proceed with the story.
「Utsunomiya and I would et on the way to the store.」
「What did you talk about with Maika?」
「She just asked about calling Miyagi before or sothing.」
「Is that it?」
「That was it. Utsunomiya, did she say sothing?」
「She said the sa thing as Sendai-san.」
「I see.」
Apparently, Utsunomiya did not tell Miyagi about the university.
If that is the case, I should not pursue the matter any further.
It would be less troubleso to end the conversation.
I know that, but there is a part of that still wants to talk.
「I’ve had enough. I’ll go ho first.」
I reflexively grab her hand to hold the bag Miyagi left on the floor.
「What?」
「Can we talk a little more?」
「I won’t. You can talk about it when I get ho.」
「Ahh, you’re right, but…」
I understand.
But I can’t keep my hands off.
I squeeze my hand tightly as if to close the gap between her hands.
It is colder than the hand I held on the day I caught a fever.
Even when we are alone, the music prep room is cold, and that’s why my hands are cold. I am sure her hands are cold too. That doesn’t an I held them to warm my hands.
「I’ll go ho, so let go.」
「Just stay like this a little longer.」
If I let go, I don’t want to let go thinking I won’t be able to connect again for a while.
I want to hold hands or touch more.
I can’t handle those feelings well.
Probably because all Miyagi does is touch .
And I think it is because Miyagi never tells anything.
「Miyagi.」
I call her na and take a step toward her, and she shakes my hand away.
「I’m not kissing you, I’m leaving.」
「I haven’t said anything yet.」
Miyagi’s voice was cold, perhaps rembering what I had done here in the past. But I only wanted to touch Miyagi a little more, not to kiss her.
「I’m just saying this first because I might say it in the future.」
「Because that’s wrong. I just wanted to touch Miyagi. Miyagi touches all the ti, too.」
「Isn’t that strange? I didn’t touch Sendai-san.」
I unbutton one button on my blouse that I don’t unbutton at school.
Then I show her the pendant.
「You’re always touching here.」
The pendant, usually hidden in my blouse, was touched by Miyagi whenever I was called. But whenever I tried to touch the sa spot, he would always stop with an order.
「That’s touching the necklace, not touching Sendai-san.」
「But you’re not just touching this thing, you’re touching too, so let touch you. It’s not fair that Miyagi always touch .」
I take another step closer and reach for Miyagi’s cheek.
When I pressed my palm against it, Miyagi shivered, perhaps from the cold. I slid my hand down her neck and loosens her tie. But before I can unbutton my blouse, she grabs my arm.
.
「Sendai-san’s a pervert. Stop this.」
Miyagi says in a strong tone and releases the arm she has grabbed.
「I don’t take orders from Miyagi here.」
「You’re right. I’m only buying the Sendai-san in my room, not the Sendai-san at school.」
「If you know what I’m doing, just be mature about it.」
「But even Sendai-san has no right to do anything to at school.」
「You used to let kiss you, right?」
When I ntioned the fact that I had been here, Miyagi re-tightened her tie with a difficult look on her face. Then, in a voice devoid of emotion, she said.
「…If you want to touch , then do sothing about it. Sendai-san, you like to trade, don’t you?」
「Not that I like it—— What are the terms of the exchange?」
It’s not a good condition anyway.
Still, I asked Miyagi.
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