Chapter 189: My feelings toward Miyagi — 189
Translated by KaiesV
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When I woke up, Miyagi’s face was right in front of .
It was Miyagi who had held back last night when I tried to cancel the sleepover and return to my room, and it was who decided to sleep in her bed. There is no doubt that she slept with her back to , and I rember that well. But now I can see Miyagi’s face better.
I don’t know when Miyagi turned to , but I am glad.
I peck her on the cheek.
Miyagi is fast asleep and unresponsive.
In the past, when we slept together until morning, Miyagi woke up first, so I was a little surprised to see her not even twitching.
Maybe she was tired because she had just gone out with Utsunomiya.
I stroke Miyagi’s hair.
I wasn’t supposed to do that yesterday.
I had planned to invite Miyagi to work part-ti with during the winter break, and we would watch a movie or a drama or play Miyagi’s favorite ga or sothing, but my modest hope turned into an unbearably big hope.
I touch Miyagi’s earrings.
It is hard to say that I could keep the promise I swore to her.
If we only look at the results, we probably didn’t break it, but when I think about what I did to get there, it seems like a miracle that Miyagi didn’t kick out of the room.
Well, this miracle can be quite painful.
I want to stay by Miyagi’s side and sleep in bed with her.
I always want to do so, but yesterday it was easier to go back to my room.
If I want to sleep maturely after sothing like that, it will take so effort. Feelings are not easy to switch off. Miyagi is terrible for forcing to make such efforts. But I knew it was also a sign of her trust in , so Miyagi stopped from leaving, turned the tide, and went to sleep as if nothing had happened.
Yet, when I wake up, I can’t help but think about yesterday.
The feel of her breasts.
Her body was hotter than usual.
Her disturbed breathing.
And the hand that pulls closer.
All of this was nothing but acceptance of , and it didn’t stop . I think that if I kept whispering, touching, and pushing away with my emotions, Miyagi would have continued to allow to go on like that. But if I get her without giving her a chance to think, nothing good will happen to . If I continue to touch Miyagi in a brightly lit room without her consent, the Miyagi that escaped even the first ti wouldn’t be here now.
And the missing Miyagi will not be easy to find.
As expected, she wouldn’t go to Utsunomiya the sa way she did the first ti, and since she knew that Utsunomiya and I are in contact with each other, she would go to a place that even Utsunomiya doesn’t know, and if that happens, I cannot bring her back.
I didn’t make a mistake yesterday in trying to get her to speak and listen to what she had to say. I myself wanted to know what Miyagi was thinking.
I think I was right yesterday when I slept peacefully next to Miyagi.
I am convinced of this, but when I look at Miyagi, who seems to accept , I cannot wait. Miyagi is always ambiguous, always within reach, and sotis painful.
“Haah,” I exhaled a small breath and tugs lightly on Miyagi’s bangs.
Miyagi didn’t even twitch.
「You sleep really well.」
——I don’t even know what this person is thinking.
If she was going to stop , she could have used stronger words to stop .
Still be roommates.
What a half-hearted word to stop , so I can’t wait to touch the sleeping Miyagi.
I don’t know how long “still” will last. Maybe we will be still like this forever, or maybe we will soon beco sothing other than roommates. At least she don’t mind living together as roommates. That ans that she has so fondness for , and there is a good chance that this fondness will be the sa as mine.
I am not confident enough to say that Miyagi likes , but I can feel that she has feelings for more than ever.
I see so much hope in the word “still” that I am afraid that I will not be able to keep my feelings inside.
If I confront Miyagi with my feelings, which she says she doesn’t want to change the relationship yet, she may never look at again.
I think it would be permissible to whisper the word「I love you」to a sleeping Miyagi, but I have a feeling that Miyagi as a person would wake up only in such a situation.
Miyagi doesn’t behave the way I think it should, for better or worse.
I swallow the words that are about to co out of my mouth and whisper sothing else.
「…Shiori.」
This much should be allowed.
If she wakes up, it will only put her in a bit of a bad mood, but it won’t be irreversible.
I comb her black hair and stroke her cheek.
Once again, I kissed her on the lips, calling her Shiori in a small way.
I let my fingers crawl up her powerless arm and hold her hand.
When I kiss her fingertips and touch her lips again, Miyagi indeed starts to jostle. Her hand almost escapes from and grabs it tightly. I pull her hips closer and Miyagi’s eyes open.
「Good morning.」
I call out to a sleepy Miyagi.
「…Sendai-san?」
I hear a sleepy voice.
I crawl my finger to her lips and tell her the words I want her to say.
「Hazuki.」
「Nhn? Hazuki?」
「Yes. Say it one more ti.」
I try to say sothing gentle to Miyagi, who is in a daze, but even though she just woke up, she soon becos the usual Miyagi and doesn’t do as I wish.
「…Why are you looking at ?」
She blurted out, and then she peeled off the hands that had joined and pulled it to her waist.
「I guess I woke up.」
Miyagi is really stingy.
The ti she gave to dream is too short.
I wish Miyagi had been a little more sleepy.
「Don’t make say weird things.」
In the towelettes, Miyagi kicks in the leg.
「Isn’t it awful to be weird about people’s nas?」
「It’s not awful. It’s hot. Let go of .」
A hard push on the shoulder grabs Miyagi’s hand, and it’s pulled back and my fingers are bristling with teeth.
That hurt.
She bit with a quite strong bite and I backed away from her a bit.
「Miyagi’s stingy. It’s fine, even if they’re attached.」
「I’m already awake.」
Miyagi pulls on her T-shirt as she tries to raise herself up and get off the bed.
「You’re going to have to hang around a little longer.」
「What about breakfast?」
「It’s a hassle to make it, and it’s just as good with lunch.」
「I don’t want to. I’m hungry, I’m going to go cook.」
I put strength into the hand that gripped her T-shirt.
It’s the opposite of yesterday.
I am the one who tried to go back to my room before going to bed and was held back, and in the morning I am holding Miyagi back.
「Sendai-san, you’re stretching my t-shirt.」
「If you don’t want to stretch it out, just lay back a little longer.」
「How long do you plan to stay in bed?」
「Until noon.」
Not that there is anything wrong with that, but I would like to spend a little more ti in the sa bed. I don’t want much right now, so I want to feel the warmth of her body next to .
「…The lunch, Sendai-san, you make it.」
She grumbled, and Miyagi lies down on the bed.
But I can’t see her face.
All I can see is her back.
「I’m fine with that. I’ll boil so water for you.」
「You’re thinking of eating a cup of ran for lunch.」
「Because it’s easy.」
「Make sothing properly.」
「If you turn around, I’ll make you sothing delicious.」
「What good food would that be?」
「Let’s discuss it.」
I tugged on her arm and Miyagi turned to .
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