The eardrum-numbing scream likely pierced all the way to the ground.
This was the only ti ever that I had ever caught sight of such a look on Hyugas face. Her glasses were out of alignnt and her breath was erratic. Even I had been yelling a lot, but not as much as Hyuga.
I was struck speechless this ti, and Hyuga grabbed my arm and seized it frantically with a frustrated expression. The force was so intense that I didnt think it was coming from a girl, and her slender fingers dug into my skin.
I cant put it into words well but this isnt a lie!!
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I can see it, senior!!
That hurts, you!
Whether you believe or not is fine, but senior is
Before she could say anything else, I jerked Hyugas arm away from . In recoil, Hyuga staggered away from . Her red-rimd glasses fell off with a light clink.
And then, I let loose one of the worst words I could ever say to Hyuga.
I dont understand
I couldnt help but wish that I had held my tongue.
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Dont make go along with your nauseating fantasies!!
Those were the worst words I could have said in a mont of excessive bloodlust. Words could not be taken back. Once spoken, that was the end of it. To Hyuga, those words may have been a crippling blow, irrespective of how much I may have lost my mind in anger or how heartless the words were.
She was motionless as if she had been struck by a bullet, not picking up her glasses, only looking at with her eyes and remaining silent for a while.
At the sa ti as I said it, I felt as if I had been liberated from sothing and finally caught on to the harshness of the words I had uttered a few seconds before, and held my breath.
Sor
I opened my mouth again to say sothing, but Hyuga picked up her glasses, took a step away from , and declared with a broad smile, I hate you, senior. You are a piece of crap.
Hyugas parting shot was accompanied by a small teardrop on her cheek.
Hah, is that so What a coincidenceI share the sa feeling toward you.
With a blank expression on my face, I walked past Hyuga. This was the end. I realized at this point that there was nothing more I could say. So I left the rooftop with those words.
I paused montarily at the bottom of the stairs as Hyugas muffled sobs lingered on the rooftop after I descended but I did not go back.
It wasnt that I lacked the courage to apologize. I ran away out of disgust with my irredeemable self, who had ruined everything in a mont of emotional distress. This was the last ti I shared a conversation with Hyuga.
A couple of days lateron a rainy day after the sumr break, Hyuga jumped off the rooftop where we had parted in a fight.
She died.
Hah Ugh!
Waking up, I sobbed violently as I lay there, overco by the sensation of my gastric juices regurgitating. Right away, Takenaka poured a glass of Pocari, handed it to , and patted my back.
Do you want to go to the bathroom?
No
Sweat dripped from my bangs as I shook my head feebly.
Hah
mories that had been sealed deep within flooded back and beca clear again what kind of a person Hyuga was, and how I regarded her.
Hah hah hah
One more thing beca clear. I beca certain of it. So much so that there was no denial, I could say that this was already conclusive.
After all, I killed her huh
Perhaps sothing had been overlooked in the process. Right, despite my faint hopes, the mories I had discarded were even more ruthless than I had expected.
The origin of Hyugas death It could only be Nobody else but could have cornered her
That recollection must be connected to the nightmares I suffered night after night these days.
Hyuga died while cursing for the awful words I hurled at her, for hurting her, for calling her a liar
[Then prove it to .]
So that was how things were. Hyuga intended to prove to that she was not lying.
She killed herself and appeared in front of to deny the words that I spat out at that ti
It was natural for her to bear a grudge when she t her end like that.
The wind from the fan sent the photograph on the table flying and falling on the tatami mats. That was picked up by Takenaka. With his eyes downcast on the photo, he looked as if he had spotted sothing extraordinary and creased his brow. He muttered sothing in a small voice but I couldnt hear it.
Takenaka Thank you very much Now its finally clear Hyuga didnt show up before to tell sothing. She showed up because she holds a grudge against .
Hakamada.
I an, there is no other reason I dont need you to explain, it was who drove her to suicide
As you said, Hakamada, she probably still has so unresolved feelings in this world and has not been able to rest in peace.
That remark made my heart ache even more.
But.
Perhaps Takenaka was aware of this, and chose every single word, slowly letting hear it as I was about to collapse.
It could be that there was sothing else that she chose to die for.
Sothing else
There was sothing else? What was it
When I crawled out from under the futon and asked him this, Takenaka averted his eyes.
Do you know what it is?
Please tell if you know it!
I cant do that.
W-Why!?
I wondered how many tis I had thrown the sa words at him, yet for all my pleading, Takenaka would not enlighten on the rest of the story.
Why?
In my frustration, I reached out my arm to grasp Takenakas shoulder. Howeverbefore I could grab his shoulder, my vision turned around and in that way
Right on the verge of falling flat on my face to the tatami mats, Takenaka helped up again.
I truly was so pathetic
Im sorry
I cant tell you now. If you know now, surely you will
Any more than this
In the middle of his words, Takenaka made lie down on the futon again and heaved a small sigh. He looked sowhat agitated.
At the sight of his expression, I reluctantly closed my open mouth, though I wanted to pursue the rest of Takenakas words and what they ant.
Being the quietest and most sensible person on the night shift, Takenaka still held mysteries that I was not aware of. Since he rarely spoke much, I was clueless as to what he was thinking behind his expression.
I have sothing to say.
Takenaka finished his preparation for leaving and looked back at .
You may inevitably feel guilty about her but please dont be too hard on yourself. Rather than blaming yourself, you need to recover first. Please eat sothing nourishing, not just son noodles, and get well soon.
I gratefully accepted Takenakas words of advice despite his lack of a smile.
And.
And?
For three days from Friday, I am going back to my parents house.
I was montarily taken aback by what he was referring to but soon realized what he ant.
Oh, its Obon ti, isnt it?
Takenaka announced softly, Yes, so Ive asked the manager to change my shift a little so he can fill in for . So, if anything happens while Im gone, please contact , then got up and turned to walk to the front door.
Um
He was ready to depart when I suddenly recalled sothing and I interrupted him with a brief remark as he gripped the rusted doorknob.
I have one, no, two questions.
What is it?
Hyuga is there any way to make her rest in peace
Even if you could get in touch with her I think it would be fairly difficult in her current state even if there is a way to do it. Thats exactly what being prepared to die is all about.
I see
Whats the other question?
Prompted, I revealed sothing that had been bugging all this ti.
Why are you always helping out?
His eyes briefly widened before instantly narrowing. He cast his gaze diagonally downward and fell silent.
Was that gesture a sign that he didnt want to disclose it?
You would probably feel turned off by if I told you.
That made want to ask even more if he ntioned like that. I an, what reason would there be to worry about getting turned off by?
No, I would still be happy to hear it.
Takenaka looked highly reluctant to tell , and after the long hand of the clock moved one more ti, he told , Its for my own sake.
I thought in my heart that I wanted him to offer a few more words but perhaps it showed on my face.
To tell you the truth, everything Ive been doing up until now Ive been doing it all for myself, not for you.
I must be a jerk, right? His eyes were loaded with forlornness as if to say that.
Why did he make that kind of face?
Given his integrity, Takenakas answer could not have been a falsehood. For so reason, I was not convinced. Or rather, it didnt feel satisfying.
But Takenaka didnt seem to be willing to elaborate any further.
Well then Ill be going now.
As if to escape, he turned the doorknob, bid farewell, and left. I may have touched on a subject I wasnt supposed to hear.
Feeling slightly apologetic, I closed my eyes as I listened to the sound of footsteps going down the stairs.
The silence that ensued after Takenakas departure gripped with dread. Even though nobody else was in the room apart from , I was sensitive to the faint creaking of the floor in my ears and the occasional sound of water dripping from the bathroom.
My chest fidgeted and I felt restless. While my body felt sluggish and wanted to bury itself under the futon, my heart thumped anxiously in the darkness cast by my closed eyelids.
When did I beco so timid? I shut my eyes tightly in disbelief. Many tis I persistently tried to go back to sleep, thinking about irrelevant things in my head and attempting to do so as fast as possible but I couldnt
From then on, it was difficult to fall asleep.
I felt as if there was a blood-soaked Hyuga standing by my bedside.
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