"Earlier this year, He Teng went to the capital for business, and after that, there hasn’t been any contact," Lin Deng answered truthfully and then asked, "I’ve been a bit busy lately, so it’s been so ti since I last ca by. How have you been? It looks like your belly has grown a lot."
"I’m doing great! I’ve gotten used to this lifestyle now. The baby is just a bit rambunctious, moving around inside my belly all day." As she spoke, He Zhilan let out a soft "ah" and laughed, "Look at that, he heard saying sothing bad and is protesting."
Lin Deng looked at He Zhilan’s belly with curiosity, marveling at how wondrous it was.
"Lin Deng, you’ve been with the border troops for so ti now, right? If I rember correctly, since you ca here, you haven’t gone back to the capital. Do you plan to stay here forever, never returning ho, never seeing your family?" Perhaps He Zhilan was ddling a bit too much, but after all, it was Lin Deng. Although he seed the sa as always, appearing as lively and cheerful, those who knew the Lin Deng from before could see that he wasn’t as carefree as he appeared.
You can tell if soone is truly happy by their eyes when they smile. How much of his so-called happiness is genuine?
"Go back for what?" Lin Deng retorted, then smiled bitterly, "Engaged to Gu En, they decided that. Canceled the engagent with Gu En, they decided that too. Now, they want to go back and continue being a puppet son, to et the girl they think is suitable for . They just want to go back, marry a girl from a prestigious family, and then let the Lin Family have a bright future. Sotis, I can’t respect them or myself for being like this, so going back is less appealing than staying here. Even though I am their son, I’ve sacrificed my own happiness for them. What I have done and given should be enough. I can’t go against them, so I can only continue staying here. There, I don’t really want to go back because there’s no happiness."
Lin Deng’s words left He Zhilan speechless for a mont. Everyone’s life cos with its own set of frustrations; not everyone can live life perfectly.
Even for herself, isn’t it the sa? Trapping herself in this mountain village, unable to leave.
Even when she thinks day and night of that face, yet she still stands here, just longing.
This is her helplessness. Even if she were to be reborn, facing these realities, she would still just be an ordinary woman.
"Lin Deng, sotis, as Jiang Biyun’s good friend, I really resent your cowardice."
It took He Zhilan a while before she slowly spoke, and then, she still sighed.
"I hate myself too," Lin Deng responded, smiling bitterly.
Afterward, neither of them spoke again. They walked side by side, each lost in their own thoughts, both longing for soone far away.
He Zhilan missed He Teng. This longing was like ice and snow stuck to her skin, slowly lting, seeping into her bones and blood, causing her an almost uncontrollable pain.
Counting it up, over a hundred days, it seed like just a small number, yet she had thought of him for tens of thousands of seconds, tens of thousands of tis.
No doubt, she was living like a year per day. She was also making an effort to wait, waiting for the child to be born, waiting for He Teng to co to take her and the child back to the capital, to live a normal life.
The festive atmosphere in the mountain village was strong, the sound of firecrackers echoed throughout the entire place, and the sounds of children’s laughter and young n and won chatting and laughing seed to suggest that the new year would be thriving and prosperous.
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