Yasurouka's POV
I wanted to sleep a bit more but my mom woke up at 9 am saying it's 12 pm. This is so unfair. At least she should let sleep till 10 am on weekends.
I was sitting on my bed and checking through my texts. I noticed his na on top of my chat list. I don't even know how I can talk to him so much. Well, most of the ti he is the one listening as I keep spamming the texts.
Still, it's weird how much I talk with him, considering I didn't even know him. Well, technically I knew him as a friend of Gaisen. I never thought I would be talking with him one on one.
He is really weird though, but seems like his level of weirdness matches mine. But of course he is more weird than . He always has this gloomy face and his eyes seem like they're dead.
I can't believe he lectured yesterday. Looking at him, he seems like the kind of guy who doesn't really care about anyone, but he is kind of interested in , I think. I could be wrong though, since I'm not really a likeable person.
He calls cute sotis, but he might be joking. I know about myself, and I'm not really attractive. I was never to begin with.
I caressed my hands through my hair as I held a strand of hair and started rolling it on my index finger. I rembered the ti I used to have long hair. Unfortunately, I cut them last year because I didn't like them anymore.
I still rember that day, when he said that he liked my long hair. I cherished that mont so much, but I kept it in a corner of my mind after he started dating another girl.
I won't deny the fact that my friendship with him was really precious, and we were really close but over ti, I developed feelings for him. The more I talked with him, the more I fell for him.
But that ti, I never had the courage to confess my love for him. I just kept falling in the abyss of my emotions. The news of him dating another girl was really shocking to but it was my fault that I didn't confess my love earlier.
But would confessing earlier could have altered the outco? Of course it wouldn't have. Looking at the girl he was dating, and then looking at , I knew that I never stood a chance in the first place.
Did I despise him for not choosing ?
Of course not. So things are just not ant to work out.
He was leagues above , and that day I ca to realise my place. I wasn't anything more than a second choice for him. But I probably deserved that.
I an, I can't change myself, can I?
Why am I like this?
It was my fault to think that soone will ever love . I was at fault to believe that there was sothing more than friendship between us. And I won't make the sa mistake again with Sakamaki.
No matter how interested he might look, at the end of the day, it can be from a friend's perspective and that's the case here most, probably.
But I still can't help but feel restless around him sotis. I still can't get the image of and him standing so close to each other under the sa umbrella. But that's just a normal reaction that anybody would have if they share such monts with soone of opposite sex.
I don't even know from which angle I appear as cute to him. I don't like him acting all smart in front of . Though, he says so good things sotis.
He accepted as a weed, but still there was no hesitation in his voice when he said all that stuff. It was like he knew what I was thinking. He told not to look down upon myself and that I'm good the way I'm but that's just bullshit people say so that you don't feel bad.
I could never tell what he was thinking because of the straight expression he wears on his face.
But I could feel that he was saying his honest opinion about .
Why am I even thinking about that jerk!? He is annoying anyways. Ugh! I hate my mind. It's always overthinking things for no reason whatsoever.
I looked at my last text with him and I was telling him about my plan with Koi today. She was going to a karaoke place down the station with Uyeno from B class. I didn't really have a choice since she ordered to tag along with her.
I know Uyeno, and sohow I didn't like the idea of this hangout event with her. She seems really nice from the outside, but I can tell that she is a bitch.
However, Koi was good friends with their group so I couldn't really force my ideala on her. Maybe I don't like that Uyeno girl. I specifically hate her friend Isobe. She is an even bigger bitch than Uyeno.
I just talk with them to maintain social courtesy. I wonder if I was like Sakamaki, I would even bother acknowledging their existence. I really like this side of him though.
Ah, why am I thinking of him!?!
I decided to take a nap again. I woke up around 1 pm for lunch. Our plan was around 4.30-5 in the evening so there was still plenty of ti.
I decided to text Koi and Gaisen to pass my ti since I didn't have much to do, anyway.
Actually, I did have my physics notes to revise, so I changed my mind. Our end sester exams were also closing in so I better study well or my mom will disown .
Ti really flies by when you're doing sothing interesting. It was already 4 pm, and I was getting a call from Koi. I picked up the call.
"Hey, what are you doing?"
"Answering your call."
"No… tsk… seriously? You think this is funny?" I could hear the irritation in her voice.
"Your reaction sure is." I chuckled. "I was just about to look for sothing to wear." I continued.
"You still aren't ready?"
"Nope, I was studying."
"Ah… study… yes I completely forgot about it…" She said in an energetic voice. I don't understand how she is so energetic.
"Anyways, et near the station, alright?" She added, and waited for to affirm it.
"Alrighty." I said and the call ended there. I opened my closet to choose sothing to wear.
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