Lilith's POV
I passed out on the floor of Sakamaki's room. And I was having a nightmare. I didn't even rember the last ti I saw that dream, let alone recalled that buried mory of mine.
That dream made all those repressed mories rise to the surface again. Things that I left behind in the past, but carried the burden for my entirety of life. Every action I took, decisions I made, was flooding back in that mont.
Even though I called it a nightmare, it was nothing more than the re reality of my existence. I was a really disgraceful individual. To the extent that these things stopped bothering at all. I couldn't help but feel empty when I recalled such mories.
As I woke up with blurry eyes, my vision wasn't clear, but I could see sothing white in front of my eyes.. As I was about to use my hand to rub my eyes, I felt a tight grip on my biceps.
My senses were still obscured, as it took so mont to process what was happening with . My head was resting on Sakamaki's chest as his left hand was holding tightly. I was a bit confused as to what he was doing.
I looked up at his face, but it appeared like he was sleeping. His eyes were shut tight as he wore a distinct expression on his face. His breathing was heavy and uneven as his chest was hastening.
As I moved my head away from his chest, the faint sound of his heart beating unusually fast ca to my ear. I glanced towards him and felt sothing really wrong. Sakamaki was looking pale and his forehead was drenched in cold sweat.
I slowly grabbed his fingers and tried to loosen up his grip, but he had no intention of letting go of . The more I was trying, the stronger his grip was getting. I reached for his other hand, picking it up, but it appeared rather limp.
His touch was icy, and the expression on his face was clearly illustrating that he was disturbed. I assud he was having a nightmare, so I decided to peek into his mind. But the interior of his mind was blank. It was as empty as a barren land.
I was slowly growing concerned for him, as I shook slightly to wake him up and he wasn't fazed at all. I grabbed his shoulders and shook him gently, but there was no response from his side.
With the index finger of my free arm, I proceeded to poke his cheeks while calling out his na as calmly as I could since humans have a weak subconscious mind, so if anything goes wrong, he will probably not wake up ever again.
At that point, the thought of losing him was floating sowhere inside my mind, and the re thought was enough to get worked up and feel restless. The point at which he was standing, losing him to sothing stupid like this would be a huge trauma to .
I don't want to lose him too.
"Saishi!"
His eyes slowly opened, as the dark orbs shifted around randomly and then stared right at . His expression was that of utter disbelief, but I could feel a hint of relief from him, too.
He didn't say a single word except to keep staring at , and the silence grew more with each passing second. Even though his lips were sealed, his eyes seed to have a lot to say back then.
Those cold eyes, in which I never even saw a single glimpse of any emotion, were looking at in pure terror. I did not know what happened to him, but it appeared as if he was just as confused as he was shocked at that mont.
His eyes shifted towards his hand, which was gripping my bicep as he appeared to contemplate for so mont before letting it go. He was acting really strange, almost as if sothing inside him broke suddenly. He wasn't himself.
He closed his eyes for a bit and let out a heavy breath as he stood up and his hand approached towards . I was way too confused at that mont because he was acting like a completely distinct person.
He rested his left arm on my head and gave an awkward look before proceeding to caress them for a mont. My eyes instantly shot up at him as he looked really relieved.
I noticed his voice box move, as he asked in his husky voice, "You like fried chicken a lot, don't you?"
I gave him a confused look and tilted my head a bit. With a frown forming upon my face, I narrowed my eyes at him and asked, "Uhh… What kind of question is that?"
He said nothing except looking at the wall with blank eyes. I felt really embarrassed as he completely ignored my question, so I just proceeded to answer him, "Yes, I do like them…"
"Hai, let order so." With an approving head, he said, as I was getting concerned as well as confused, "Heh?"
He looked at for a while, thinking of sothing to say to . It appeared that he finally arrived at a solid reasoning as he began, "No need to be surprised, I'm hungry so I thought why not eat together."
I could tell that he was lying, even without having to read his mind. But looking at his stern expression, I knew calling him out wouldn't be the best option. Also, since he was acting strange, I asked, "Are you feeling fine?"
"Of course, do I look sick?" He narrowed his eyes at as he started moving towards the door. I gave him an instant nod and said in a loud tone, "You do!"
His hands were on the doorknob as he turned around and looked at with his usual bland expression and said, "I'm just tired. Let take a shower real quick."
With that, he closed the door behind him and left the room. Sothing was definitely wrong with him, and his behaviour was making even more curious about it.
He wasn't the type of guy to think about others, yet his touch felt really warm when he was caressing my hair. His eyes, which were void of any emotions, showed more feelings than what I've seen in them so far.
Either he was changing, so sothing was changing him.
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