**Rosalie’s POV
After the night I spent with Ethan, I had expected to see him again, but I didn’t.
He never once ca to visit. There was no compassion, no concern, no want or desire from him.
I was nothing more than a task – a tool he needed.
I was sure how I was going to be able to get past all the waiting, but, eventually, I found small ways to entertain myself. Art had beco a big one, and when Vicky realized I loved to paint and draw, she made sure I had everything set up in my own private art studio — considering the music room was off limits for the ti being.
Days turned into weeks, and, before I knew it, I began to lose track of ti.
The vast green fields around the Drogomor pack were beautiful. The peaceful village could be seen from the pack house, and the golden sunshine made everything seem upbeat and hopeful.
I loved to draw the sunny sky the most — it reminded of his clear blue eyes.
A soft knocking at the door to the art room had turning my head to see who was there. To my surprise, Estrella stood in the doorway, smiling at .
“Hello, Estrella...” I smiled back as I set my paint brush down. “Is everything okay?”
“Yes. I was just wondering if you would like to take a trip with to the clinic.”
For a mont I was confused as to why I would need to go, and then as the realization hit . I nodded. “Of course. Is Talon coming?”
“He is going to et us there. He needs to take care of sothing first and asked to co get you and start.”
Estrella was as kind as always, but I was a bit scared.
What would happen if I wasn’t pregnant?
My hand instinctively went to my stomach. Please... goddess, let be carrying his child!
Not just because of the thought of what Ethan would do if I wasn’t, but also because, deep down, a part of wanted to be...
I didn’t know when it had started, the idea that a small little life was growing within filled my heart with happiness.
To Ethan, to the pack, I was fulfilling my duty; but as the days went by, it felt less and less like a job for .
I wanted to be pregnant!
I wanted to carry his child – my child.
Moving from my seat, I joined Estrella, and we headed down the hall towards the pack clinic.
As we stepped through the clinic doors, my eyes stayed cast to the floor. The soft click of a knob, and Estrella was ushering into an empty patient room.
The white paper of the exam table felt uncomfortable against my legs. I wasn’t sure what to expect, but when she pulled out a needle, my eyes widened.
“We have to do a blood test, sweetie. It’s more effective than a normal pregnancy test.”
She must have seen the concern in my eyes by her response, and when she explained, I relaxed a little and allowed her to do what she needed to do.
I was only a short while away from finding out if a life was growing within . Deep breathing!
Please be positive, please be positive!
As Estrella withdrew the needle and filled a small tube with the blood she collected, I sat back with a small smile, thinking about what the next few months would entail with being pregnant. How I would feel the small child growing within – every little kick and movent.
A short, blonde-haired woman knocked on the door, pulling from my thoughts. I watched as Estrella handed her the sample and then she quietly left.
The worry over the results made more unsure than anything. I couldn’t stop going over scenarios in my mind as to what would happen if I wasn’t pregnant, and what would happen if I was.
Stop being so negative, Rosalie, I thought. Everything was going to be okay.
“So, Rosalie,” Estrella finally said, turning to face with a smile, “How have you been feeling?”
“I’m okay, I guess.” My response ca out softer and flatter than I had ant it to, and she seed to notice. “Just trying to keep busy.”
“What’s wrong? Are you not feeling well...?”
Quickly, I shook my head. “No, it isn’t that.”
“Well, what’s wrong?” She asked again. “I am your doctor, and if sothing’s wrong, I need to know.”
I hesitated, scared and unsure. I didn’t want to cause trouble by complaining.
“I just..” I paused for a mont. “I miss going outside... to the village.”
As soon as I spoke, the door opened, and Talon walked in. He was gentleman-like as usual — polite, distant but safe to be around.
Had he heard what I said? I didn’t want to be a burden by complaining, and I didn’t want Ethan to get angry because of it.
“You haven’t been outside?” Estrella asked confusedly before turning to Talon. “Why hasn’t she been outside?”
Talon was silent for a mont, looking between the two of us. “The Alpha doesn’t want her to leave the house. He wants her close. I’m just following orders.”
“She has to get fresh air and sun. It’s important for her health.”
I heard the disapproval in Estrella’s voice, and I clenched my fists nervously. I hadn’t ant for this to be a big deal, and now I was filled with regret for bringing it up.
Talon sighed, nodding his head. “I will let the Alpha know.”
I quickly sputtered, “I don’t want to bother him. It’s okay. I will just open the windows like I usually do.”
I didn’t want Ethan to find out that I was complaining — to give him a reason to be upset with .
“No, Rosalie,” Estrella said. “You need to go outside and get so fresh air every day.”
“Please — It’s okay. Please don’t say anything to him,” I stamred out again. I was pleading with her to let the matter go.
Having Ethan upset at because I disagreed with his orders was not sothing I wanted to experience.
“Very well...”
There was a knock at the door. The blonde-haired woman ca in and handed Estrella a piece of paper before exiting again.
All three of us went silent.
I never knew that my heart could flutter the way it did in that mont.
I watched as Estrella looked over the paper. Her brow furrowed, and she sighed before looking up at . I knew without words what the results were —
“So, no pregnancy yet.”
Estrella was officially informing Talon.
Instantly, a part of ached for the loss of sothing I never held. I didn’t know whether I was more disappointed at the situation or at myself.
I felt like a failure. I didn’t conceive...was there sothing wrong with ? What if I couldn’t have kids at all?
The thought filled with fear. What was going to happen? Would the Alpha ever look at again...? He had already given a second chance. What would happen to ... and my pack?
The thoughts swirled around , making dizzy. I couldn’t control the panic that flooded , and as it did, my breathing beca heavier, and I beca more lightheaded. My hands instinctively reached out to grab the table beneath as the tears pricked my eyes.
Estrella noticed my reaction and rushed over imdiately. “Rosalie, it’s okay. Deep breaths... In through your nose, and out through your mouth...”
“Miss Rosalie?” Talon asked in a concerned voice, stepping closer. Estrella ignored him, not taking her eyes off .
As the tears began to flow down my cheeks, I was completely ashad of myself.
I hadn’t been able to do the one thing I was bought to do. I tried everything I could, and I thought I was ready, but I didn’t give him the child he wanted.
For weeks, I had imagined being a mother. I had grown to like the idea of giving life to a child. And now it was gone.
“Rosalie, sweetie...” Estrella softly wrapped her arms around . “It’s okay... It will happen when it’s ant to.”
Once I started to calm down slowly, Talon spoke. “What do we do next, Estrella?”
“Well, it may take a few tis, but we should be able to analyze when her fertility is highest and pinpoint when the best ti is for her to conceive.”
Estrella sounded confident in her statent, but it didn’t make feel better.
My eyes widened.
A few tis...did I hear her wrong? Did she an...?
She pulled back, smiling at , grabbing a paper cup and filling it with water before handing it to .
“We will get her set up, and she and Ethan will have to try again.”
I would sleep with him again?!
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