' Subconsciously avoid it?' Su Wan had never once tried to avoid the matter of having a child that was what she always thought but now that Lin Yan was saying the sa thing. Su Wan couldn't help but think back to what she has been doing till now, did she really avoid the topic altogether? Maybe she did because she had no confidence that she would be able to raise a child sensibly. Her mother's suicide had left a very deep scar and even if she knew that she was nothing like that woman what if she beca like her? After all, in the beginning, her mother was also a kind and loving mother.
Lin Yan noticed the change in Su Wan's complexion and knew that she was most probably troubled by what Lin Yu told her, he softly smiled and raised his hand to smoothen out her hair. Su Wan felt a warm hand caressing her hair gently and looked up, her gaze t with Lin Yan who gave her a light smile " You don't need to look so trouble. I know what Ah Yu said disconcerted you, but there is no need for you to be upset about this, if you don't want a child then there is no way we would ask for one. You can take your ti and tell us when you are ready, alright?"
Su Wan clenched her fists, she really wished that Lin Yan wouldn't be so understanding of her every ti. It made her feel like it was alright for her to be selfish, clearly, this matter was sothing that her husbands should also have a say in - so why, why do they have to be so selfless? Even Lin Yu, though the brat said that, he still went ahead and brought her that pregnancy prevention concoction after they were done.
She stared at Lin Yan's eyes pensively and said " What if I never get ready? What will you all do then?"
Lin Yan was a bit stunned when he heard her words, he didn't know that Su Wan would say sothing like that -but, his eyes softened by ten degrees and he crouched down so that he and Su Wan were looking at each other without her trying to crack her neck, he smiled as he cupped her cheek " Then you don't give birth to our children alright?"
" Yan, why are you-" Su Wan wanted to ask why he was being considerate, yes, she had done a lot for them but they have done a lot for her too, if they want.. they can ask her .. tell her what they want, because at least then she wouldn't have the chance to run away by hiding behind stupid excuses. That way she will have to face what she doesn't want to, however, before she could say such things, Lin Yan placed his finger on her lips and silenced her.
" I know what you want to say but don't..don't say it" Lin Yan was still smiling but his smile was strained and he looked a bit aggravated " We would like to have children with you, of course, no man would dislike having his kids but .. this is your decision too. If you don't want to we won't force you because being scared is normal... I understand that better than anyone, if you want to face your fears, you can do that but if you don't want to do that then you don't have to feel burdened by it either. But rember that I will always be by your side no matter what you chose alright? Because we want children but we don't need them to survive, you on the other hand are much needed so, don't be upset okay?"
Though Lin Yan didn't show any aggression towards Su Wan, he marked Lin Yu's na in his heart and underlined it, one of these days.. he will definitely get him back for this trouble that he ignited. Lin Yan knew why his younger brother did this but there was no need for him to be so hasty, he should have waited and tried to get Su Wan to forget these bad mories of her past before tackling this problem…. But of course, even the greatest strategist would fail to think straight when they are using their lower body to think about sothing.
Su Wan didn't know that for her sake Lin Yan was willing to poke the feral wolf of their family, nonetheless, she was still touched by what Lin Yan just said, her husband was right there was no need for her to feel burdened if she wanted she could always take so ti to prepare herself before thinking about having children and .. wasn't the matter of having kids a year away from now on? There was no need for her to worry about it so soon!
She will carefully prepare herself and face this trouble that she was now aware of… her mother had ruined her life enough as it is, she won't let her do the sa this ti too. Though she wasn't ntally prepared right now, people were ever-changing, she will one day change too!
She grasped Lin Yan's hand and with determination coursing in her veins, she declared " I... Ah Yan just you wait, I will definitely get rid of these trifling things soon and then I will give you all a bunch of pretty babies! Just wait!"
Her declaration took Lin Yan by surprise but then he smiled and nodded " That's right my Wan Wan is the most courageous one, I know you will definitely get over this fear of yours"
Su Wan bead, she was really thankful for all the trust and faith, Lin Yan was showing towards her. She will definitely not let him down!
" Ah Yan-I" she opened her mouth to tell sothing to Lin Yan but then suddenly a figure popped out of nowhere, surprising her and Lin Yan so much that the two of them jumped and then-
BAM!
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