Shades of Blue (Omeg Chapter 139 - 137 | Just Like Blue

Chapter 139: 137 | Just Like Blue

Winter zood into Kendall’s picture. It was clear that the oga had grown well. His cheekbones were high and his chin was small. His eyes had settled for a hazel color.

Winter’s stomach coiled as he stared at the picture.

In his life, he’d done a lot of wrong things. A lot of bad things to a lot of people. And he moved on from them guilt-free, convincing himself that the world was an unfair place, and he was just helping out to balance the bad side properly.

But any ti Winter thought of Kendall, that guilt surfaced. Images of a teary-faced Kendall erged in his mind and it was hard to get rid of them.

Winter had managed to suppress these mories well over the years, but seeing Kendall the other day brought them all back. It brought him back to his reality. His cruel reality.

"Fuck, I’m such an asshole..." Winter cussed himself out, rembering the things that he’d done in his youth.

He tried to imagine if soone did those things to his own child. Imagine if Winter Junior turned out to be an oga and so scum alpha—like himself—used Winter Junior and discarded him like trash. Break Winter Junior’s heart because he was in the mood and totally destroy his ntal health.

Winter was terrified of such a thing. If karma was truly real and it got to him, Winter would be horrified. He couldn’t... He couldn’t live with himself now, fully relaxed about his past actions.

That was why he had begun to et up with his exes—past preys—to seek their forgiveness and closure. It wasn’t very hard to locate them as they were all adults in established areas of specialization now.

He had about ten of them. He’d t up with three and had ssaged six. Two of his etups were relatively okay if one looked at it from a certain angle. The ogas were doing okay despite despising him in their heart.

That could count as a win, couldn’t it? The other one had stood him up. Among the six people he had ssaged, two had gotten back to him and they’d been able to clear the air.

Winter was the only one in the wrong so clearing the air ant them forgiving him for his cruelty. The other four people hadn’t responded to his ssage.

Winter guessed they were ignoring him. The last person, however...

Winter could only stare at his picture, too afraid to take a step forward. Winter’s chest burned as he went through Kendall’s social dia.

It was almost like Blue’s own. aning that there was hardly any info on it. Winter didn’t know what to make of Kendall’s current state.

He was currently Blue’s neighbor in that silly building. Was Kendall not doing well for himself? Winter had thought. He also had the thought that Kendall might have just liked the apartnt despite its size, just like Blue.

Fuck. Winter realized that at the end of almost every thought he had about Kendall, there was always a comparison to Blue. Just like Blue, almost like Blue.

He wasn’t trying to compare them, really. He was just...

"What am I even doing?" Winter asked himself.

The screen pointer was resting on the ’ssage’ option in Kendall’s profile. Kendall was in his past. Just like the other people. So why was his own case different?

It shouldn’t be. He shouldn’t allow it to be.

Winter tapped the ssage option and typed out a paragraph, introducing himself and asking Kendall to et up with him so they could discuss matters.

Kendall probably wasn’t online as he did not respond to the ssage imdiately or even five minutes afterwards.

Winter shut his laptop with a sigh. He silently hoped that he’d be able to get closure with Kendall as his existence was the cause of it all.

***

Blue knocked on the door across the hall. It was almost midnight and probably rude of him to be disturbing another person’s peace by this ti of the day just because he, himself, wasn’t at peace.

However, the person being disturbed didn’t take up to ten seconds before they opened the knocked door.

Blue was standing on the outside, wearing a blue silky two-piece pyjama. On the other side was Kendall who was wrapped up in a long cotton robe. His face was covered in serum and his hair was divided into two tiny pigtails.

"Blue?" Kendall said in doubt, surprised by the identity of his sudden guest.

"Yeah, hi. Can I co in?" Blue’s eyes darted all around the place, showing that he was uncomfortable in one way.

Kendall noticed this imdiately and kindly said, "Sure. Co in."

If it were to be the other way around, Blue would definitely not invite Kendall into his ho in the middle of the night. Thankfully, in this situation, it was not the other way around.

Blue stepped into Kendall’s place and didn’t take the ti to admire the cozy decor of the house. He only found a place to sit and ntally prepared himself for what he was about to do.

"Would you like so tea or..."

"I’m fine," Blue said as Kendall trailed off, already walking towards the kitchen.

"Oh, okay then," Kendall turned around, "Are you alright?"

His tone carried a hint of concern as he watched Blue visibly shrink into himself in the chair that he was sitting down on.

The words, ’I’m fine’, almost slipped out from Blue’s mouth as it was his constant response to those kinds of questions. But this ti, he didn’t make use of them.

"No, not really," Blue admitted, his gaze was fixed on his lap as his fists clenched and unclenched on either side.

"I... Does it have sothing to do with you?" Kendall approached the matter delicately as he settled down across from Blue.

Blue nodded without a verbal response.

Several thoughts went through Kendall’s mind at that mont. He was about to apologize for making Blue feel not okay when Blue spoke up.

"It’s just that- fuck, this might sound very foolish, I know, but I have so questions things to ask you... about Winter." Blue’s volu dropped as he spoke.

Kendall’s expression didn’t change too much as he was already expecting Blue’s words.

"It’s fine. You can ask," Kendall said, trying to maintain his composure despite the uncomfortable coiling in his stomach.

"Do you like Winter?"