Reverse World Chapter 158 - 158 – Recounting

Chapter 158: – Recounting

"I discovered I was a masochist when I was in high school. I spent most of my high school days experinting with myself and when I was in university, I got my first boyfriend. At that ti, indulging in masochism was giving such excitation that I based most of my decisions on that criteria. That boyfriend was a sort of delinquent, rebellious, and violent and I thought he would be perfect for . He was also quite popular among other girls but I managed to attract him by making myself completely submissive and obedient. At first, things went well. He treated badly and I loved it. But, as ti progressed, his treatnt of got worse and worse. He started using only as a way to unwind and got more and more violent. There was also not much love between us and one day when he was very stressed, he got too far and hurt badly. After that, things got awkward between us and we broke up."

She stopped for a mont before going on.

"The next few boyfriends were pretty much the sa and I always ended up picking the bad kind, who I thought were well-matched to . But the conclusion was always similar and the relationships never lasted too long. I saw this wasn't working so I decided to aim for more normal guys. I got a normal boyfriend, soone who had nothing special, neither having a good personality nor a bad one. After dating for a few weeks successfully, I told him my tendencies. He was a bit repulsed at first but I convinced him to try it. The first ti went much better than he expected and he enjoyed controlling as he pleased. For so ti, things went well. However, the more he controlled during sex, the more it affected his attitude toward during normal tis too. After a few months, he began treating as so sort of servant that would do anything he asked. He grew used to the power he had over and our relationship turned more into sothing convenient for him than a lover's relationship. As you can imagine, it didn't last long and we separated soon after because this wasn't a healthy relationship."

She sighed and took another break. These were probably not the best mories for her.

"The next boyfriend I had went pretty much the sa way and I found out once again that I was doing sothing wrong. I decided to completely change my approach. I created a cold and distant front and I only let the people I trusted in my life. That's how I t soone totally different from my previous boyfriends. He was a very kind guy, always smiling and helping other people. He wasn't extrely brilliant and didn't have much for him except for his nice personality. Still, after spending a lot of ti together due to studying the sa subjects in university, I began to fall in love with him. However, I was very conflicted. With him being such a kind person, he was a bad match for . However, I was young, foolish, and more importantly, I was completely in love with him. I spent more and more ti with him and I was eventually successful in starting a relationship with him. Because of his personality, I hid my masochist side from him and things went well for a long ti. We loved each other very much and our relationship was the longest-lasting I ever had. We graduated together, found work, and even started living together. But when he started to talk about marriage, I felt extrely guilty and in the end, I couldn't hide my secret from him any longer. Contrary to what I thought, he took it very well. He told that he wasn't into it but he didn't mind indulging from ti to ti because he loved very much. As you can expect, I was on a cloud. Still, I rembered my previous failures and we set so strict rules for this. We decided to strictly separate this from the rest of our lives. And it worked. Those tis were the best in my life. He never did anything very cruel or extre but I didn't care because I always felt his love for . As you can guess, he was my late husband because we married soon after."

She stopped for good at that point, looking lancholic. Benjamin was quite affected by the story, especially because he knew how such a nice person ended up in the end. However, it seed that wasn't the case for his grandmother, who had probably heard that story so many tis that she had gotten used to it.

"Ben, for reference, Vera's life story is pretty much the sa. The point here is that masochists are extrely annoying creatures that want to get treated badly and be loved at the sa ti."

She sent another resentful look at the two ladies who avoided her gaze once again. Did she make him listen to this whole story just to say that? It seed she held quite a grudge against them for their previous BDSM session. At this point, Angel intervened.

"Ben, the real point of this story is to understand that letting soone have too much control over you never ends well. Power ends up corrupting people, even the most normal and good-natured ones. For example, right now, I could snap my fingers and ask them to give so money. They'll gladly do it but that would break the trust between us. That's why we have agreed on never doing it to get anything from them outside of a sexual context. I hope you'll also follow this limitation and never use it for your benefit."

"That goes without saying. I swear I'll never do this. And if I ever do, just smack until I regain my senses."

The four won smiled at him, happy with his declaration. His grandmother ntioned.

"Good, as expected of my darling grandson. Now, we've gone off topic for a long ti, let's go back to our initial discussion. I've got a question for you, Ben."