Resetting Lady Chapter 45

Why did you clean up the body?

Why did you steal the truth from ? Do you even know what this ans to ?

Tears welled up in her anger. This act was no different from taking away the truth from her like this, letting her madness and irrationality eat away at her. This was neither love nor protection.

Wouldnt it have been difficult for you if things grew out of hand? The childs happiness is the parents happiness as well. All Catherine and I wish for you is happiness.

If you wish for my, my happiness.

Her voice was hoarse. Carynne hated the middle-aged man in front of her. This stance of his of not telling her the honest truth, this conduct of cleaning up her ss without telling her anything. It was all disgustingly terrible.

Why didnt you grab by the shoulders and tell thisYoure crazy.

What should I do to satisfy you?

If I killed soone, you should have told that Im not supposed to do that, right? You should have thrown in jail. You should have let be tried in court and gave the death penalty.

What kind of happiness could you attain in prison? You havent even started your life yet. Youve yet to et a man, get married and have your own children.

She was so utterly speechless that she wanted to stomp her feet.

If my insanity is hereditary, then it must have been from you, Father.

At those words, the fief lord abashedly shrugged his shoulders. And then his answer was just absurd.

You resemble your mother more than .

Do you even know what on earth youre saying right now? My mother and father ruined my life. At the very least I should know how to think for myself, but no. I cant even believe anything I see, hear or feel right now. Its not about trusting you or not, neither is it about you loving . What youre doing is nothing short of a sledgehamr right to my head to erase my mories just to give what you claim is a stable life.

Marriage, love. What the hell kind of dream was that.

Between putting soone to sleep through dications and with this so-called peaceful life, whats the difference?

Those things have no importance to right now.

Theyre important.

The fief lord asserted this.

Theyre very important, Carynne.

Look here, Mister Fief Lord.

If it was like this, then there was no need to continue this conversation. Carynne tightened her grip on the fief lords hand. She had just gotten her nails done. His hand gained a few red marks, but that was all.

What is it?

I should be angry. But I cant even do that properly either, Im too baffled. Ha Fine, do as you please. Im going to keep killing people, so if you want to stop , then try it. And if I ss up, Ill just go to Sir Raymond and turn myself in.

I wont let you.

Lock up then. Stop . Tie my arms and legs, find another hypnotist to replace Nancy. This ti, I want you to tell an even more beautiful story than this fantasy where Ive fallen into a book and have been dying over and over again for one hundred years. It might be fun to find myself waking up in the emperors bedroom and beco a sex slave, or even go further back in history where I can try to change the world.

Carynne tried to be as sarcastic as she could. She would not be able to see any grief from her father. And he wasnt going to fight with her about this.

If a cri had been committed, its only natural to exact punishnt. She didnt start all this with that determination in mind.

But then, rather than her determination, the fief lord focused his attention on three words.

One hundred years?

Maybe more than that, I dont know. If there are new mories, just erase them all and turn into a dunce.

It felt like she had died for nothing. Carynne wanted to burn her whole body. To burn her father to death right in front of her eyes. To rip him apart.

But even more vehently than that, she felt a seething hatred. All those efforts, those years, those moriesdid all that an nothing? It was all just an illusion? Was there no worth to them? The conclusion that this was all just her own insanity was too convenient.

Shed rather kill.

One hundred years. Is that the ti youve lived?

Its done now. Its much too long. Just finish it all.

Carynne ca up with a plan to take her own life so she could escape reality.

Should she hang herself, drink poison, or shoot herself in the head. Which one.

Poison, as expected?

Im sorry about not being able to give you a proper answer.

Should we just stop doing these useless things and walk hand-in-hand together into the monastery? What do you think?

Catherine told not to interfere in your life as much as possible.

I dont want to hear about a mother who I dont even rember.

At that, the fief lord drew back from Carynne. He looked shocked by what she said.

Everyone heres a lunatic. Its a den of psychos. Wasnt this a family that would just make you sigh?

However, the fief lord looked at Carynne with a crestfallen look.

Catherine loved you. Very much.

Do I really have to be reminded of that now? My very own father erased my mories to the point that I cant even feel this love that you speak of. What are you trying to do, really? Are you going to continue being an accomplice to my murders, just as youve done so far? Sounds fun. Sure, great. Thats what I want. If youre helping anyway, kill that man Verdic straight away. Isellas a bonus. And it would be ever so splendid if even Sir Raymond dies. Youll do it for sure, yes?

Carynne.

Why, you wont do it? Then what the hell do you want to do?

Carynne glared at the fief lord. How frustrating. She knew far too little, and the fief lord was hiding sothing from her. And now she was looking at her with that kind of look. Who are you to do that to .

Ive grown tired now, too, he said.

Likewise.

Dont talk about Catherine like that. She did it for your happiness. But

Tears stread down from the fief lords eyes.

I Im tired now.

And he covered his eyes with his hands.

Catherine loved you so very much. And she was just like you.

Then I must have inherited this insanity from Mom.

Dont be sarcastic when talking about Catherine. She, your mother

The fief lord found it difficult to continue speaking. His emotions surged up. He took a mont to breathe, and then he spoke once more.

She used to talk just like you. The world is like a novel to her. And she said that shes older than how she looked.

Carynne stopped breathing.

And you, too She said that you will live the sa life she lived.

So what youre saying is that Catherinemy mother has the sa symptoms that I have?

Yes.

Are you certain?

Hearing the suspicion in Carynnes voice, an offended look swept through the fief lords expression without holding back.

Thats what my wife said. How can you doubt her words.

Dont tell . My fathers not an imbecile, is he?

Carynne spun a wily imagination inwardly. If it was like the life Carynne had experienced thus far, her mother, Catherine, wouldnt have turned up dead had there not been any conflict caused by her father. They always just had that only that much relevance.

But what he said just now, that its not just Carynne. That was sothing she could never ignore.

I dont exactly know the details of it. And in the end, its just sothing that youd tend to doubt. Id rather that its just But shes right. To start from the beginning and forget everything.

Missus Catherine.

Mother.

In the midst of it all, the fief lord still corrected her words. She had to hold it in because she was about to spit out words that she couldnt even describe. She wondered if the fief lord had always been this kind of person.

Yes, my mother.

She glanced sideways and looked at the portrait. How great would it have been if the person that was here before her wasnt the fief lord, but her. Carynne couldnt help but sigh.

Why was it that the one whos left living was this fief lord who was an outsider to all this? If what hes saying was right, then wasnt it that the only person in this entire world who could understand Carynne was her dead mother?

Do you have any proof that she lived a repeated life like ?

So, in the end, youre still doubting it.

Arent you the living proof of it?