Carynne had always dread of a world beyond the book after her repeated deaths. But she had never hesitated about the idea of leaving Raymond.
Her love for Raymond was just that shallow. Initially, she thought it was love, but as her life repeated, he beca rely a ans to escape the world of this book.
That shallow love hardened over a hundred years, making Carynne wish for Raymond to rember her, and this choice dragged him from a normal life into wandering the pages like her. And now, Carynne truly loved him. Yet, the answer remained elusive.
Just eating, drinking, and sleeping together in this mansion wouldnt end their lives.
They would forever be people walking on paper, alone together.
What exactly is the true love that Dullan spoke of? If she couldnt beco pregnant, this loop would go on forever and ever.
Carynne was happy yet saddened that Raymond joined her in this life. He changed and made all these efforts solely to save her.
Because of .
Still, her death would repeat. Raymond would live another life, and they would et again, all their mories intact. Unless they could find an answer from Dullan, this was inevitable.
Carynne knew she should tell Raymond this, but she couldnt bring herself to speak.
Ti passed amidst complex emotions. It was Raymond who broke the silence.
Carynne, you dont need to feel any remorse for .
Raymond looked at Carynne and smiled. It was a calm and confident smile.
But Carynne shook her head.
No, I need to. I must apologize.
Now she really had to tell him.
Theres sothing Ive been too scared to tell you.
Carynne admitted that, while she had demanded Raymond to tell her everything, she herself had been too scared to speak up.
Ill start with what Ive been thinking. I believe childbirth might be the answer to end this repetition. My mother also experienced this repetitive life. And she sought Dullans cooperation with my case. And
Carynne bit her lip. It was painful to talk about her past relationships to the man she had only just co to love.
Surely, those experiences were aningless to her and were rely experints that had to be done. But would Raymond think the sa?
Though he had given her unconditional love, she wasnt sure if it was going to be alright to reveal that she had been with many n.
She didnt want to remind him that there had been other n. Even if he rembered, it was different coming from her own lips.
But at this ti, her own sha seed truly trivial.
Until now, I Ive never been successful in getting pregnant with anyone. I might be barren. And
Despite trailing off, she finished her thought.
I think Dullan made barren.
She was afraid to say it because it all but confird that Raymonds efforts were in vain.
She didnt want to admit it.
Carynne.
As he stood up, she lowered her head.
He took her hand.
I already know about your deaths while you were trying to kill Dullan. And I am aware of your past lives, too.
Moreover, I had so of my own guesses as well.
How?
Because you once told that your mother also went through this. I considered the possibility of it being hereditary. And Ive aged quite a bit since then too.
Its alright.
Raymond gave Carynne the words she wanted to hear. This made her feel even more miserable. Would his efforts ever be rewarded?
I see.
Raymond gently lifted Carynnes chin. Their eyes t. There seed to be a fla in Raymonds eyes. Carynne, slightly scared, backed away.
Thats why I was afraid of being intimate with you.
His directness was overwhelming. The intensity in Raymonds eyes wasnt anger.
Avoiding his steady gaze, Carynne asked.
Why?
Whether you truly cant conceive, whether theres absolutely no chance of pregnancy. I was worried that asking you to confirm it through intimacy would be unpleasant for you.
Their lips brushed lightly. Carynne, wanting to hear more, gently pushed Raymond away, but this seed to fuel him more. She felt breathless.
If thats the only issue, then theres only one thing left for us to do.
* * *
Having done it this much, shouldnt she be pregnant by now?
Carynne lay on top of Raymond, thinking this. She had lost track of ti. It seed like a long while had passed.
Lately, Raymond clung to her as if he knew nothing else. Even during als, they were in constant physical contact, moving almost together. He held her even while working or when she slept.
He quickly prepared their als, then they spent all day together. There was nothing to distract them.
From a human perspective, hygienically speaking can we just bathe separately?
Carynne seriously requested this while pushing away Raymond who clung to her even in the bathtub.
Raymond reluctantly moved away. The bathtub filled with bubbles was cramped for two.
Carynne was astonished, beyond admiration, at Raymonds inexhaustible energy. They ate the sa food, so why was there such a difference in stamina between them?
Carynne, you really should eat more at.
Other than pheasant, rabbit, and bird, what else is there?
Theres beef and lamb.
Not the smoked ones.
Fresh at, then Should I catch the horse?
Carynne thought of the beautiful white mare tied up in the stable and shook her head. The very thought made her lose her appetite.
She was truly fed up with at. Raymond seed eager to increase her stamina, but if that was the goal, it would be better to exercise outside. She had had enough of bloody at.
Speaking of clothes. The ones you bought with that design
Ill make sure to buy only what you want from now on.
Dont cut off. Anyway, thinking about it now, they seem suitable for pregnant won.
Carynne thought of the dreadful-looking clothes. They were strange, but if considered as undergarnts or loungewear, they werent so bad.
The skirts were short enough for good ventilation, and the lining was soft. They werent designed for tightening corsets. The belly area was spacious, and without decorations, it was easy to move in.
In many ways, the clothes suited a woman with a growing belly. Maybe Raymond bought them while hoping she would get pregnant this ti.
But I still dont like the design.
You find it so because youre still young.
Hah
Carynne was baffled by such an ill-fitting comnt. Then she playfully splashed soap suds on Raymond.
Ack My eyes.
Serves you right for saying that.
Better than being too old, right? This
Carynne used a towel nearby to wipe around Raymonds eyes. It was annoying to be the one causing the ss and then cleaning it up.
Carynne, lets just bathe
Raymond made a stifled groan. Their naked bodies were close together. Carynne quickly pulled away, feeling the prominent object pressing against her from below.
Not here, please.
This is torture.
Raymond frowned as he pushed his hair back.
If I do get pregnant, I guess I could wear those clothes. But theyre too radical to wear outside.
Understood.
Raymond sighed.
While other matters seed more pressing, he still kept his promise to Carynne.
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