Resetting Lady Chapter 112

Carynne was running out of ti in this iteration. She didnt like the middle part, but the conclusion was a marriage proposal.

And she decided to settle for it. After all, from the very beginning, Raymonds feelings did not matter. What mattered was what Dullan thought. Dullan himself needed to provide the answer to Carynne.

She only needed to think about that.

Its my first ti doing all this, so Im very nervous and anxious.

No. Its not the first ti.

Carynne knew the reason behind her frustration and anxiety. Its exactly because its not the first ti, and yet, everything was happening as if it was.

She stared at the vase that Donna was pouring water into. And the hydrangeas that were put inside it. Then, the flowers that filled the entire room.

There are so many flowers.

Isnt it touching?

Mmh.

It was annoying to even pretend to be excited. Carynne looked at the flowers. Those countless petals.

I received flowers back then, too.

During the first ti, Raymond gave her flowers as well.

So its like that. Carynne now realized why it felt quite peculiar, why she felt a bit upset.

It was the wedding present that Carynne had received from Raymondduring their real first ti. Carynne rembered. Back when Raymond had proposed for the real, true first ti he had given her flowers.

Its just I saw these flowers this morning, and I suddenly couldnt stop myself from wanting to propose to you.

Carynne had laughed.

Were already engaged.

Still, Raymond gazed into Carynnes eyes and replied.

But I wanted to say it again.

A long ti had passed since then.

Raymond remained the sa. Raymond was not affected by the ti she had spent. He did not rember. Hed been the sa, and hed always be the sa. Even so, Carynne still couldnt figure him out. She did not know Raymond very well. Why was it like that, this ti as well.

I want to hack your stomach open. If I do that, will I know?

As Carynne stared at the flowers, this thought crossed her mind. Petals were crumpled in Carynnes fist.

I wonder if you really love . I dont think theres a difference, then and now. No, perhaps not this ti. It couldnt be the sa, this ti.

In this iteration, Raymond had looked at Carynne so coldly. But then, his attitude towards her suddenly changed at so point. Just like before, just like how he did in the pasthow he said that he loved Carynne. Again, this ti.

But, how co?

Carynne was afraid.

Because she did not know. Because she could not understand.

If Carynne were to base it on the Raymond she knew, he would not confess his love to Carynne. In her opinion, as his eyes got colder and colder by the day, he would eventually pull out a gun and point it at her. That is, if it was the Raymond she knew.

Carynne was confused about her own feelings. She felt nervous, but soon, she realized why she felt this way.

I have no answer either.

While she demanded to be loved, truly, she wished to be stabbed.

That seed to be more fun at least.

* * *

Carynne stared blankly into space. This was not the answer. This life was such a ss. But at least, she had been honest with herself.

She closed one hand into a fist. Fingernails dug into her palm.

I feel strange. I dont like how Ive been accepted. I dont like his sudden change of deanor. Can I believe in him? Can I believe in Raymond?

No. Carynne could not.

However, its not her who would decideit was Dullan. Whether this love was correct or not, he was the judge.

In the first place, Carynne chased after Raymond in this life because Dullan threw that bait. Wasnt that why, instead of acting on her grand dream of becoming a serial killer, Carynne went out of the house a lot while going to banquets and events with Raymond? At what point did things start to go wrong?

But, no, thats not the important thing here. Carynne soothed the wave of disappointnt passing through her.

Yeah. Theres no problem, Carynne murmured.

The room was empty. The suns radiance was warm. It was the height of sumr. It was dazzling. She needed to get up. Right now, there was no ti for tranquility. Raymond had proposed to her, so now, she needed to go to Dullan because of that.

Whatever it was that Carynne felt for Raymond, such a thing was not so important.

Carynne sighed. It would be great if Dullan would yield the answer once hed hear that Raymond had proposed to her.

She would now get a hint from Dullan, and so, she would finally be able to die.

Human emotions were truly trivial. In the tedious series of livesin this maze of eternityshe had co to know just how much a persons feelings could change dozens of tis a day, and it was all quite worthless.

Thats why Ive been feeling peculiar.

Perhaps shed been getting it all wrong.

Carynne shook her head.

This is all because of Sir Raymond.

Carynne concluded like so.

Hes the reason she was having a difficult ti. Because he gifted her flowers. Because they were the sa flowers that he had given her during his first proposal. Because he gave them again.

A hundred years had passed. Raymond still had not changed.

Carynne felt her resolve crumbling, but she picked up the pieces.

Maybe its because I dont love him.

She confessed as she stared at the portraits before her.

Perhaps that was so. Perhaps it was her whos to bla. Because Carynne did not feel true love, because she did not treat others like people, because she did not feel love and saw love only as a ans to an end.

Carynne, herself, had not loved anyone. For a hundred years.

So, she thought that perhaps this was the reason she had been repeating the sa life over and over again.

Mother. Mothers mother. Mothers mothers mother. Perhaps they all loved soone else truly, genuinely, and so they escaped the curse. But Carynne did not love anyone, which was why she was stuck in this trap endlessly.

Then, will it all be over once I love you?

Carynne muttered under her breath. Still, however, she did not know the answer. This was nothing but a murmur.

Alone in the room, she looked around the room where flowers were abundant. She suppressed the urge to cry.

Even so, it will be worth a try.

It is worth a try.

There was not much ti left. However, Carynne vowed to try harder to love Raymond.

But that night, Raymond did not return. He left only one letter.

Isnt this too sudden?

Carynne stared down at Raymonds hurried letter.

Whats written was that sothing had co up all of a sudden, and it seed as though he might be away for a while.

It hadnt even been written on a proper stationery paper, but instead it was a mo scribbled upon a knights notepad in a hurry. How could he be called to work like this when he was about to retire?

Would it be better to postpone the wedding? she asked herself. No, it would be difficult to reschedule it.

Theres not much ti left anyway.

She did not know exactly when Raymond would return, but she had no doubt that he would return safely again this ti. And he would marry her.

But this

Carynne stared at the other letter in her hands.

It was a letter with the royal seal.

Crown Prince Gueuze had summoned her once again.

* * *

His intent with sending this letter was obvious.

Co to my side. Heat up my bed.

Carynne let out a sigh. Raymond wasnt here. And Countess Elva wouldnt stick out her neck to protect her. Its too much of a risk to go against the royal family. Only people like Raymond, who believed in justice and listened to conscience, would do crazy things against them. Its for this reason that she chose him.

However, would Raymond be able to protect her again this ti? Right now, things were spiraling out of her control more and more that it was difficult for her to predict where things were going.

What will happen if I dont go, I wonder.

The sa ordeal was happening again, and for the first ti in a long while, Carynne was having a difficult ti to decide.

Raymond was called out to duty, and Carynne was being summoned by Crown Prince Gueuzeagain.

In the days long past, Carynnes suffering ended at Isellas hands. Its only to be expected that a romance novels villain was another woman. The story would beco too scandalous if another man would be involved. Itd be dirty.

Why is Crown Prince Gueuze so obsessed with .

Milady

Was he soothing his bruised ego through the daughter because he could not conquer the mother?

Still though, it was only a matter of course that Carynne had no intention of picking up Catherines leftovers. Its not very hygienic, you know. And it wouldnt be good for ones ntal health either.