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Star
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I was still sitting on the couch, contemplating my future when Artem ca back. With the talisman gone I could both sll and hear things better than I could before. I knew it ant that I was becoming one with my wolf. I could feel that happening inside of . It wasn't just Artem I could sll though. I could sll the food.
I wanted to test myself, to see if I could na the food before he got into the room. I closed my eyes and inhaled deeply. I could sll bacon and sausage above all the other scents, they were just so strong.
Underneath the scent of those ats I thought I could sll eggs and maybe pancakes, but it was really hard to tell with the at overpowering everything else. I didn't have ti to keep trying though, Artem was already close to the door so I got up and opened it for him.
"Hey." He grinned at . I could tell that he had showered and dressed before he went to make breakfast. I guess that makes sense, he had spent the night sleeping in the chair in my room.
"Hi." I blushed when I looked at him, I couldn't help it. The kiss flashed through my mind and it was made even worse when I rembered that I was the one who had kissed him.
Oh my god, what did I do? I had kissed him while I stood naked in front of him. I had kissed him, naked, while he ran his hands over my naked body, and I hadn't wanted to stop kissing him. If it hadn't been for my body telling us that I needed to stop I don't know what I would have done.
I know it's still too soon to do 'that' again. I didn't think I should sleep with him for a while. I want us to move forward as a couple first. I wanted to build that relationship that I knew we were capable of. Plus, I wanted to learn to be an independent person and get out into the world.
If I didn't have to worry about my family trying to hurt anymore then I wouldn't be afraid to leave the house ever again. I could be a normal person. I could go to college, I could learn how to be a real woman.
While I had that little mini episode of the Star show flash through my head Artem had walked to the table and set down a tray that was covered with our food and drinks.
"Are you coming?" He was grinning at like he thought I had lost my mind. If he only knew the truth.
"Uh, yeah, sorry I was just lost in thought."
"Glad you found your way back." He chuckled like it was a funny joke so I just smiled and sat at the table next to him.
"Thank you for breakfast." I said as I looked at the table.
I had been mostly right about it all. There was bacon and sausage, along with eggs and pancakes, but there was also sweet rice which was good, not my favorite but still good. We started to eat and talk about whatever popped into our heads.
"What were you thinking about?" He asked after biting a piece of bacon in two.
"The future."
"Well, that's a very ambiguous answer." He was smiling but he was also looking at with a curious expression.
"Well, I was thinking that I don't need to be afraid anymore, not now that my family has been thoroughly dealt with."
"So soone told you we killed all the male cousins and uncles?" He tilted his head in response to my wording.
"No, this is the first I am hearing of that." I felt the blood drain from my face at the thought of all the deaths that had occured because of . "I-I was aning that I d-don't have to b-be afraid anymore b-because Uncle Howard is d-dead." I was stuttering and shaking slightly at the thought of all the dead people.
I shuddered once then thought about it all calmly. The only people that were killed were those that had worked closely with Uncle Howard. They were people who would have hurt if they hadn't been stopped. The ones who had died were the ones who had been present at my wedding.
"Ugh." I threw my head down, grabbing it in my hands as I narrowly missed banging it on the table.
"What's the matter?" He looked at like he thought there was sothing seriously wrong with , his arms were outstretched like he thought he had to catch or carry or sothing.
"I just rembered sothing horrible."
"What?" It looked like Artem couldn't stand the suspense anymore and needed my answers five minutes ago rather than in the future.
"I married Uncle Howard."
I felt my whole body convulse with disgust as a wave of nausea hit . I gagged at the mory of what all happened to .
"That wasn't a real wedding, you don't have to worry."
"Still, he made vow to be obedient to him forever and then he kissed ." I convulsed at the mory of it. "He shoved his tongue in my mouth and flopped it around like a slimy fish." I grabbed my head and shook it several tis while crying out. "Make the mories go away."
"I will eventually drown all mories of him from your mind and your body." Those words sounded so natural, so sincere, and so heated that I could do nothing but look at Artem with shock. His eyes were filled with heated fire that seed to scorch my skin from just him looking at .
W-well...that...it's not...I think-." I was floundering. I didn't know how to respond. What was I supposed to say in response to that? How was I supposed to keep looking at him while he stared at like that? How could I ever look away?
The heat in Artem's eyes began to diminish. After a few monts it was more like a warm, comforting look than a burning heat. What was going on with him? The look in his eyes had made think of how he had been the other night, and it had made feel things I was not used to feeling.
"Don't worry Star, I won't rush or pressure you. Just know that when you want I will be here waiting for you." He was always so understanding when it ca to .
"Artem." I felt the blush at the sa ti my cheeks lifted with the gentle smile. "I know Artem, and that's why I love you so much. You're so sweet and understanding."
"Only when it cos to you." He looked away then, embarrassnt coloring his cheeks. "And I love you too, Star."
"Give so ti to figure myself out, OK. Just let get to know who it is I really am and what it is I am really ant to do." I felt like I was begging him, but I didn't know how else to put it.
"I will give you all the ti that you need. And if you need my help during this ti I will be here for that as well."
"Thank you, Artem. I will likely need your help and Chay's." It was then that I realized I had been completely and utterly selfish.
I HADN'T ASKED ONE THING ABOUT CHAY SINCE I HAD WOKEN UP!
What kind of horrible person was I? How could I forget to ask how she was doing? I need to rectify this situation right now.
"Artem, speaking of Chay, how is she? I know she was hurt really bad the other day."
"She is doing better, she will be fully healed by tonight. Or that's my guess anyway."
"Oh thank god." I felt like I had just had a weight lifted from my shoulders that I hadn't even known was there.
"That's one thing you should correct." He grinned at .
"What?"
"We wolves would say 'oh my Goddess'."
"Huh? Really?" I looked at him with curiosity. "Why?"
"We pay tribute to and worship the moon goddess."
"I never knew that." I was laughing now. "I guess learning our culture would be a good start huh?" He joined in with my laughter and both just ended up grinning at each other.
It was fun talking with Artem and all, and I had enjoyed breakfast, but now that I knew that Chay was awake I wanted to go see her. I needed to see with my own eyes that she was OK, that she was not seriously hurt.
"Can I go see Chay?" I asked Artem when we had finished the al. He didn't even hesitate, he just stood up and held his hand out for .
"Co on, she wants to see you too." That was a relief. I thought for sure she would be mad at because the accident was in a sense my fault. Or maybe she wanted to see so she could yell and scream and bla .
'No! Stop it Star!' I reprimanded myself as I started to get into my slump again. This was not who I was going to let myself beco. 'Chay would never act like that.' With those thoughts in my head I took Artem's hand and let him pull to my feet. Following that he led down the hall and to Chay's room. To say that I was nervous would be an understatent, I was trembling when he took into the room.
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