Reincarnated as the Chapter 377: Musings of a Mother

Chapter 377: Musings of a Mother

With the three children fast asleep on my body, I sighed softly and stroked their heads, a smile tugging at my lips as I noted how they all nuzzled closer to

at my touch, with Aka burying herself even deeper into my cleavage as she took up the warst portion of my body; Ehretia was content to cuddle against my side, while Ipoala's head was laying on my shoulder, the Pink Robinkin nestled in the crook fo my arm.

Each of them were completely out of it, their young bodies demanding this rest so that they could go back to playing and enjoying the wonders of being a child tomorrow, pushing themselves to have as much fun as they could whilst also continuing to grow taller and larger with each passing hour.

Looking at them and thinking of their growth, I felt the pangs of guilt as I stared down at Ehretia and Aka, wondering if I had done sothing... 'wrong' as a Mother by deciding their 'skillsets' before they were born, using my System to give them innate talents and preferences that would undoubtedly shape who they beca in the future.

Was I in the right for doing that?

For deciding that Aka would be skilled with a blade and adept at the art of killing, while Ehretia would blossom into an elegant flower that enjoyed the various arts?

What if Aka wanted to dance and not fight, while Ehretia wanted to hunt instead of sing?

This System of mine didn't make

a Goddess; I had powers, and there was a certain amount of responsibility that ca with it.

Responsibility to ensure that I used it properly for myself and my family, and a responsibility that I didn't try to think of myself as better than the rest of the world just because I had this System; life was precious and unique, and I had seen first hand already that a System didn't guarantee my safety.

Yiksa was the realistic example of how unprepared I was, but the Duchess... she was the real eyeopener for , her boundless mana and raw strength with that mana making

sweat even now, wondering what I could possibly do to soone that powerful in my current state.

Could I protect not only myself, but my family as well?

Is that not why I decided that Aka - as well as Camara and Aethisia before her - should have skills ant to defend themselves from harm?

Because I knew that there was a chance that I wouldn't be there to protect them all the ti?

Did that make

a bad Mother for using the skills at my disposal to ensure that they had the ability to at least defend themselves in the future, even if the tradeoff was that I was predetermining what they would potentially grow into before they even had the chance to think about it for themselves?

Could the argunt not be made that Camara was the perfect example of that?

That my eldest daughter was more inclined for the elegance of the arts than the gruesoness of the battlefield?

For the gentleness of Motherhood instead of the coldness of a killer?

Looking down at Ipoala - the only one in the family young enough to still be untouched by my System - I wondered if I should indeed wait to bless her with skills, or if I should do so now, so that she would have the talents at her disposal and be able to grow with them, instead of suddenly finding herself with an eruption of potential.

It was an internal struggle that I was faced with, two separate beliefs that battled inside my mind as I lay in the dark room, staring at the frail body of a girl that wasn't truly my daughter - not by blood.

However, I considered her my baby all the sa, just as I would consider Heila's child as a daughter, even if I had no true relation to the child in her womb.

As such, I wanted her to have the best life she could have, to do what she wants and live her life how she wants to live it, but at the sa ti...

If she grows up and doesn't have the sa potential as her sisters, and doesn't feel like she has the ability to do what she wants because of her 'power', then doesn't that an I failed her?

Or if she - Goddess' forbid - found herself in a tight spot before I gave her any sort of aid from my System, could I live with myself knowing that I had the ability to help her be safer in this strong rules the weak type of world but didn't use it?

On the other hand, could I stand the idea of forcing her into a certain path in life without letting her decide on her own..?

To let Ipoala - and any of my future children - decide what they want to do with themselves, to discover a passion and want to beco better in it and support them then?

It was a dilemma that threatened to consu

in this pitch black room, but a single thought pushed that pervading feeling away and instead made

shake my head as I internally cursed myself.

There was always a happy dium, and there were certain skills that I was going to end up giving all of my children anyways - as well as those that were close enough to

to either feel like my children or ended up as my lovers.

[Mana Sense] was the surefire answer from the Survival System; granting vision to the Weave and allowing my children - or those I considered close who weren't actually my biological children - to harness such a potent power source was very, very obvious.

[Closed Womb] was another, since it was obvious that anyone could enjoy the pleasures of sex through the vagina, even if they were a futanari; so were like Rhefia, who never once asked or desired vaginal pleasure, while others were like Sari, wanting to be on the receiving end sotis.

Giving that skill would just insure that unless they wanted to, my children couldn't get pregnant without the consideration and acceptance to do so; of course, it wasn't infallible, and there was likely ways to 'force' the womb to host life, but this was still a 'security' asure that I wanted to take.

Finally, the other clear answer was [Pleasurable Body], which was sothing that made

curious; it worked, certainly, since I could confidently say that Aethisia's cock was far superior to the Guard's that I had mated with earlier today, even if they were the sa size.

She just felt better, and when I compared the pussies of Prixisia and Kalia, they were also noticeably different in the way they made

cum, with Kalia draining so much more from

per ejaculation and far quicker than Prixisia ever did, even if the Lamia was so damn excellent at sex.

Since I had no other skills that I was determined to give from the Breeding System to won who might never desire children of their own or even be 'won', I was reluctant to give [Pain Blockers] to them since it also seed to lead to a higher desire for pain during sex...

Or maybe Camara and Kalia were just imitating

and molding themselves into masochists because it's what they've seen give their Dama's the most pleasure..?

I don't know, but there might be a correlation between the skill and masochism, so...

Anyways, I sighed as I accepted the prompt in the System, gifting Ipoala [Mana Sense], [Closed Womb], and [Pleasurable Body] as I leaned down and kissed her head, before smiling wryly as I realized that I had agonized over this for what felt like little reason...

And I noted the large amount of level ups I had been neglecting, which made my tired brain hurt just a little tiny bit...