Chapter 41. Whose son am I?(3)
Contradiction.
Different perspectives on a situation.
Sispanian, who wanted to understand everything, completely understood Calian’s pain, but said that he, who was sad about not being forgotten, thought it was a little unfair because it was difficult for him to understand that he was sad about being forgotten.
contradiction. Sothing that even Cispanians could not fully understand. But Kalian understands.
“Are you okay?”
Does Jan know what my younger brother ca to check on ?
To break up the conversation between the Prince and the Duke, the Duke’s eldest son ca and dragged his younger brother away, so what more could they have said? What kind of expression was he making?
Why do you still not know about ?
“no.”
Instead of continuing his complicated thoughts, Calian answered with a small smile.
“I’m not okay.”
After Demirea returned, Jan visited Calian and looked at his complexion, and his face turned as white as warm milk.
Kalian’s laughter got a little louder because it was funny that he didn’t believe when I said it was okay, but imdiately believed when he said it was not okay.
“What did Leah say? Was she being rude?”
“That’s not it. Don’t worry.”
Calian, who dismissed this, stared at Yan blankly for a mont.
It beca Shiroian again.
However, this ti, unlike before, I needed ‘soone who could scold Siegfried’s little duke’, so I beca Siroian.
“Then why did you say that
earlier…” Calian, who was almost asking why he beca Shiroian earlier, closed his mouth.
Is it true that I beca a Shiroian to cut off the conversation between Demirea and I? Or did he co to stop the conversation since he had beco a Shiroian? Putting aside the question that ca up again, I just shook my head slightly and said sothing else.
“The reason she’s not okay is because of sothing else, so don’t bla Demirea.”
“That’s good. But why aren’t you okay?”
Since he is still Shiroian, he is a little different from Yan who does not ask first what Calian does not say.
Calian felt it, but responded without showing any special sign.
“It’s because I’m tired for no reason. I guess it’s because I can’t sleep.”
“Look at that. I told you to rest. I’ll clear your schedule for the afternoon, so when you go in, don’t do anything and rest.”
Jan again.
Not suspecting anything. yarn.
Kalian, who had not asked about Yan’s work, suddenly said sothing when he saw Yan, who had no doubts about his work.
“No matter how much I think about it, I think you’re really funny.”
“? Am I having fun?”
“Yeah. It’s fun.”
“thank god.”
Without even wondering what was so funny, my favorite Jan’s eyes sparkled.
“I don’t think there’s anyone who likes it as much as you because they say it’s fun.”
“Prince, you’re having a hard ti, but it’s good if you think it’s fun. Do you need a reason?”
I thought I knew why Sleiman nad the dog in Siegfried Territory Jan. Even though I think it was too much to give a dog a nickna after a child, it is strangely understandable when I think of Hatsuara, who nad her son, who had many days left to live in the newly built palace, without any hesitation.
It is said that Hatsuara and Cythros, the first Duke Siegfried, were close friends. It’s been said since ancient tis that friends resemble each other.
‘If I go to Camilon, should I na my dog Slayman?’
Calian, who was thinking of clicking his tongue and saying that Sispanian was talking irrationally when he heard that he would repay Jan for what he did, let out a laugh like ice in mint tea.
“Okay, I’m going to rest today. I have too many thoughts. Just heat a glass of milk.”
Calian looked happy after saying sothing he could have never said.
“Would you like so honey?”
“No. No sweets, just milk.”
“Yes. I will bring it to you right away. And while we were talking, the knight Sir Verne ca by. I told him to wait in the prince’s room, and I will tell him to co back later.”
“Is Kirie here at this ti?”
Isn’t it Kirie who rarely cos to visit at a ti like this? Therefore, Calian shook his head and said.
“I’ll go first and talk to you, so co slowly.”
“All right.”
Knowing that the conversation with Kyrie would not be another source of fatigue for Calian, Jan answered calmly and then parted ways with Calian.
It seems like there were too many thoughts swirling around in my head in a short period of ti. Calian touched his forehead for a mont, feeling as if he was running a fever, and then went into his room.
Kirie, a tall girl with light brown hair standing in front of the sofa, bowed and imdiately spoke to .
“Why did you say thank you to the Little Duke without saying anything else?”
“You should tell first what brought you here, Kirie.”
Trying not to hurt Kirie’s neck during sparring was different from turning a blind eye to rudeness. Therefore, Calian scolded Kyrie in a soft voice.
Kyrie bowed her head and expressed her apology in response to Calian’s criticism that he did not overlook anything.
“I’m sorry. I ca to say thank you for this.”
Kirie said this and took out the bracelet on her wrist. Calian, who did not recognize this as it was sothing he personally asked Alan to do, welcod it and asked.
“I heard you like the gift?”
“Yes. I like it. I told Hina to co see her after work and say hello to the prince in person. Rather…” It was an
unfamiliar thod, but when Kirie learned that Hina was able to speak, he sent Hina away and her eyes narrowed. After wiping it down, I went to Calian to say thank you.
And I heard.
“Why don’t you explain it to the Duke?”
So I asked.
Rather than explaining, why did I just listen to Demirea’s urgings?
“what?”
Looking at Calian, who seed to be asking because he really didn’t know, Kyrie opened her mouth again.
“Why the prince is in this situation. If I had explained it to him, the Duke would have understood. If I were to tell the prince that I was going to bury it like that…” “Why do
I need to understand?”
Kirie looked speechless. Calian smiled and opened his mouth again.
“I don’t rember doing anything wrong to Dmirea that needs to be explained and understood, Kirie.”
Jan was like that.
Please refrain from saying sorry.
I replied that I didn’t like it, but I didn’t even reply because I thought I would keep saying I’m sorry unnecessarily.
“Dmirea said that because Jan was more important. I heard that because I was more important.”
Looking at Kyrie who seed to not understand what he was saying, Calian continued as if explaining.
“Dmirea is a person who values Jan more than the reasons I have, and I am a person whose reasons are more important to . Whatever the reason, I was the one who took control of the body of the person who was everything to Jan, and I was the one who hid that fact. Jan “Without knowing that fact and having no chance to properly overco it, I do as I please. Blindfolded by saying that you can only see what you want to see about .”
“But isn’t that a choice you made for Confucius?”
“As you know, Jan is the person I need. If you put it in a good light, you can say it’s for Jan’s sake, but in the end, it’s for my own sake. Demirea knew that, so she just reminded to feel indebted to Jan, not to Demirea herself. “It’s different, but I don’t know why Demirea needs to know and understand properly.”
“Don’t you rember being threatened?”
“Ah… I see. So, how thoughtful is my fiancé?”
Calian, who said that with sincerity, not sarcasm, went to sit on the sofa and continued.
“If I were Demirea, instead of coming to ask and warn him, I would have taken Jan back to Siegfried’s territory and co back to kill the strange bastard who tricked into being my flesh and blood. “I don’t know if it’s true or not, but why bother listening to an explanation? I’ll just kill you.”
“It’s contradictory.”
He had a very broad understanding of what had happened to him, but he didn’t need Demirea’s understanding. Isn’t it a contradiction?
Confusion appeared on Kyrie’s face. Like a Sispanian who did not understand the contradiction.
“… It sounds like you’re saying it’s unfair because you don’t recognize . Don’t do the sa to yourself.”
Calian laughed. Just like when I had that Sispanian in front of .
“If I don’t understand everything and only the unfairness increases here and there, what will happen to my life? Even if I embrace everything and complain, I prefer breathing and living. They say I can protect what I lost. Like Hina.”
Kalian, who said that, looked at Kyrie’s bracelet and made a soft face. Contains my younger brother’s voice. Kirie must have liked it a lot. Of course, Kalian too.
“So, I’m only going to feel a little bit unfair towards Serenti. So, even if you treat like a crazy person who lives in a bit of pain, don’t make into a pitiful person who feels unfair about even things that aren’t unfair to . Kirie.”
Instead of saying sorry for saying sothing hasty, Kirie nodded with a small smile. He knew now that he wouldn’t want him to feel sorry for what he thought.
Calian laughed. Like a person who has washed away a big worry.
“The secret won’t be revealed anymore. I think it’s a bit late because everyone who knows already knows, but once I get burned, I co to my senses.”
He said it with determination, as if he was fortunate.
“I guess I was wronged too much. I.”
Serenti.
My entire life was stolen from you.
A second life will never be taken away from you.
I still have a lot to protect, so I will protect them all.
Yan, Hina, Kirie, Randel’s heart, even Pea, who only got annoyed when I told him to buy it, and Chase, who was just thankful and sorry. Old Calian’s body and Bern’s soul.
And so many promises.
So do I.
“I have to live with a little resentnt. That way, I will have the strength to vent my anger when I et Serenti later.”
Calian got up and headed toward the bedroom. Then he got into the bed and looked at Kirie and said.
“If you don’t have anything to do, just watch for a while. Make sure no one wakes you up. I’m going to sleep well.”
In particular, I don’t want the boiled peas, which are now a bit greener, to co round and disturb my long-awaited sleep.
That was exactly what he ant, so Kirie answered with a very knowing expression.
“all right.”
Kalian nodded his head gratefully and drank the warm milk brought to him by the precious baby elephant who soon returned.
“Sleep well. Don’t worry about anything else.”
“Ok, thanks.”
It was warm and soft and made sleepy.
Calian laughed brightly.
* * *
It wasn’t that grand.
They did not set up a correction board in the square, nor did they send the capital’s security forces and royal troops outside to monitor it. There was no podium installed in the square.
Just like when Freya was brought into the palace, the ceremony was also simplified and held within the palace.
– It hasn’t even been a year since Silike’s job. There is no benefit in making a fuss about it.
It was because of Kalian’s opinion.
In fact, it was said in the hope that the morial service could be held as soon as possible. The more things to prepare, the farther apart the date for the ceremony will be.
Instead of listening to that, Lemain did not restrict the nobles’ position in any way. And the place where the ceremony was held was decided to be Siegfried Pavilion.
“Official events other than banquets are held at the Seigne Hall, but this ti it is unusual to hold it at the Siegfried Hall.”
“Your Highness must be thinking a lot these days.”
Is there any better place to remind us of the relationship between Siegfried and Calian?
That’s why Calian, who had barely succeeded in saying “Your Majesty has been thinking about it these days” and wrapping it in very nice words, looked at the mirror.
‘… Kalian.’
Maybe it’s because it’s ahead of Freya’s morial service.
On the day I had my first dream, I thought of the child I could barely et after I was in the dream.
Thanks to eating well and growing up, Kalian looked at his face, which was now much different from the day he saw it in his dream. After looking at him for a while, he quietly opened his mouth.
“I used to hate mirrors.”
Yan suddenly responded in surprise at the words that ca out like this.
“For so reason, you’re talking about what happened back then.”
“That’s right. I do it sotis these days. Now that I think about it, I told my teacher about the old days. Maybe I’ve grown up instead of my older brother.”
Calian smiled slightly and continued.
“I don’t rember now, so I don’t know if I hated it because I hated the resemblance to my mother, or if I hated it for a reason.”
Yan looked somber for a mont at those words.
Jan also saw Freya’s portrait. Although they could not enter the Hall of Rembrance, the portraits copied at Arpia Palace could be seen by anyone who visited the palace. Therefore, Jan also knew very well how much Calian resembled Freya.
– Don’t worry about anything about . I understand everything.
“… Whatever it was. There’s nothing to worry about now.”
Calian muttered quietly as if he was talking to himself, then looked at himself in the mirror and spoke once more.
‘congratulations. It’s late, but now I’m free from the shackles of blood. And…’
I had no doubt that the child would like it too. rlin’s voice called out to Calian, who was reminded of the old Calian.
“I’m ready, prince. You look good today as well.”
Clothes and accessories made by Shatin, the costu manager, with all his might after receiving Kalian’s order. rlin seed quite satisfied to finally see what she had longed for.
Jan did a final check while I looked in the mirror one more ti.
By now, Randel would have entered Siegfried’s coffin after his aningless eting with Gray Briesen. The sa goes for all other nobles. Evan Briesen, who did not want to incur losses by entering late like last ti, must have rushed inside.
“Now, should I go too?”
As always, a jacket that fits the body perfectly. However, the formal dress, which had unfamiliar decorations instead of the usual embroidery and buttons, was more awkward than the apricot-colored jacket and white pants.
And I liked it that much.
“To turn everything over.”
My situation and Evan’s speed.
Calian, who spoke with a grin, looked at the mirror once more.
Then, facing the red eyes that t his eyes, he repeated what he had not finished saying a mont ago.
‘thank you.’
Calian shifted his gaze.
‘For understanding.’
Feet that had not yet grown fully moved.
A long, bright red cloak filled with red jewel powder and constantly sparkling followed, fluttering behind him.
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