Ai fud with anger and turned her body away to the other side. She refused to see Jun's face anymore.
Jun could see the imaginary steam of displeasure coming out of her ears. He knew it was a serious conversation, but he couldn't help but find Ai too cute at this mont.
No, she is always cute. Well, sotis she is weird but generally, she is cute.
He had seen her getting angry, but it was the type of anger that was calm and composed. She wasn't the one to throw fits or raise her voice or point fingers. This was the first ti she was reacting like this, and Jun couldn't feel happier to witness a new side of hers.
He poked Ai on her shoulder. "Ai."
"Don't talk to ."
"I am still not talking to you," Ai was firm.
He pursed his lips and wrapped his arms around her waist. "I am sorry."
Ai said nothing.
He whispered, "I am really sorry. You can slap again if you want. My cheek is all yours."
Her brow twitched. She tried to shake him away, but Jun only tightened his hold. "Don't leave…I know I did wrong. You made realize that day. I promised that I would never take my life lightly again."
Ai pursed her lips.
"Please forgive ?"
She narrowed her eyes at him. His brown eyes looked sincere and pitiful, which was a new side of his Ai witnessed too. She never thought that Jun could make a pitiful face. Even against her mightiest resistance, his eyes lted her heart. "Fine. I forgive you."
Jun's lips blossod with a beautiful smile, and he kissed her cheek. "My girlfriend is the best."
Ai turned back to face him again. "Why did you kill yourself in your past life?"
Jun froze. His gaze automatically lowered, afraid to let her know the part of him that made him disgrace himself.
"Ai, I have done many wrong things in my past life and have hurt many people, especially my family," He shivered, fear gripping his heart. "If you…you learn that side of mine, you will not love anymore."
Ai felt his resolve shaking and saw the genuine fear in his beautiful eyes. She held his hands and asked, "Is that only how much you believe in my love for you?"
"No! I trust you. I trust you more than anybody else," he choked, "but it's . My past actions will make your belief waver in . I don't want that to happen. I don't want to lose you, Ai. Anything…but not you. Not again."
She cupped his cheeks and forced him to face her. "Jun. Nothing will make my feelings waver for you. There is nothing that will shake my resolve to live my life with you. Even if you have done so wrong things in your past life or have hurt your family, I still won't leave you. Whether it's your past, present or the future, I accept you with all my heart with all your mistakes and imperfections just like how you have accepted ."
Jun shook his head and faintly smiled. "You are perfect, Ai."
"I am not. I have my own flaws. But we accept each other. This is how love always is. That's why you don't have to be afraid."
Her staunch and tenacious words provided comfort to his heart. He found his strength in them to admit everything just like the way he confessed to Jinhai.
Jun stared at her and slowly nodded. "Alright…" he took a few monts to gather his thoughts. "Ever since my childhood, I had declared that I would marry Shui. I declared her as my wife even before she was born. Then when she did, I spent all my ti with her from childhood till we grew up. I followed her everywhere. When she was sixteen, I asked her to beco my girlfriend, and she agreed. Our relationship was going great. All this ti, Jin was always by my and Shui's side."
He faintly smiled rembering all those precious mories of the past when everything was still fine between them.
"But later I realized why he was always with us. Maybe…maybe he started liking Shui too. So, he couldn't help but be wherever she was," he shook his head. "Anyway. At first, things were well between us. But then we started to have fights. Shui was getting increasingly dissatisfied, and I didn't understand why at that ti. On her twenty-first birthday, I proposed to her because I was afraid that she was going farther and farther away from . She accepted it at that ti but…"
"But?" Ai asked.
"But then a few days later, she said that wanted us to have so distance for so ti," the back of his throat felt a little uncomfortable. He felt as if it was just yesterday. "She wanted us to stay away to have so space. She said everything was overwhelming for her…That made really upset. I didn't even know for how long she wanted that."
"What did you do?"
"I did my best for soti. I did not text her. I did not et her. But I began to feel restless when she wasn't around ," he clenched his fists and continued, "Soon, it began to feel like she wasn't missing or that my presence didn't matter anymore. She was just…fine without . I got even more frustrated by this. I felt like I am the only one getting affected by this. So, even if she didn't wanted, I secretly began to follow her."
He noticed her gaze and quickly corrected. "I wasn't stalking her!"
"I didn't say anything," Ai blinked. "I am just listening to you."
"Well then…" Jun felt greatly relieved. "I think it was during that ti when Jin and Shui got closer. I used to frequently see them together. It was usually through Jin that I would get to know how she was doing."
Jun wryly chuckled. "It reminds of one day when Jin ca to and said that I should rethink about my relationship with Shui," his dark eyes were filled with resentnt. "When Shui rejected on her twenty-fifth birthday was when I realized why Jin said that. He himself loved Shui. Everything made sense to that night. Shui loved Jin, and he loved Shui."
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