Chapter 399 The Wheels Of Fate Are Already In Motion
?This place is amazing.
Even inside the Dungeon where there was no light on certain Floors, it wasn't as dark as it is here.
It almost feels like the trees, the ground... Everything sucks the Light before it can even be seen.
The Monsters here aren't used to seeing Light. Feels like they hate it.
I like this place.
After everything that happened, it felt perfect.
The Dungeon with the Undead Lich...
I'm convinced that the Mural depicted the Demon King and the battle that took place a thousand years ago, ending his reign.
The Triad, the Undead Lich that was inside that Dungeon, Gaavah, Dragons, Giants... I am getting so many clues.
Nothing conclusive, but it feels like I am starting to understand things.
Things I had no idea about.
It was also sothing I could focus on. I could focus on this, and forget about...
But you just had to go and die, huh? Just had to turn yourself into a goddamn Item.
If I could, I would have stayed there. In that room, in that Dungeon of yours.
But I couldn't.
My mind wouldn't let . My thoughts wouldn't let .
I have to move. Otherwise, I start rembering...
I need sothing! The next thing! The next clue! The next fight!
Sothing to focus on, so that I...
I need to keep moving so that the past doesn't catch up to .
Funny, isn't it?
I think it was the sa about my Past Life.
But I rembered my Past Life. mories that I had begun to fear... I rember them now.
Those mories... Allowed to forget about it. About Elisa. About what happened.
Rembering one thing allowed to forget about the other.
It's cowardly. It's selfish.
But I don't mind forgetting about her for now. Because I want her to forget about .
I'm scared.
I fear that I might have... Scarred her.
I'll leave. So forget about . Keep going, and forget about .
I don't want to beco... A source of nightmares for you.
I don't want to think about it.
I don't want the past to catch up to .
So then... Why are you here?
How did you get here?
Why... Did the Past catch up to ?
Because it's not truly the Past? But I left it all behind... Did I?
What does it an to break away? To leave it in the Past?
I see... I didn't do it properly.
I rember sothing I heard in my Past Life.
They say you need to burn the mories to forget. Burn the things that remind you of the thing you're trying to forget.
Is that why flas are rising from my hand?
Should I burn it... To leave it all behind?
I don't want to forget about that Past though.
The mories hurt. They make my skin crawl and my heart ache.
But I don't hate that Past.
I don't want to forget about it. I want it to forget about .
Why didn't you forget about ?
Why did you co into this dark and disgusting place?
Are you trying to bring back to that side?
I won't. I can't.
That part is over. It was a clean break.
Why did you have to ss it up?
I can't... Bring myself to ask you that.
I need to keep moving.
I can't even look you in the eyes.
If I do... If I turn around... I'm not sure how I will act. How I will react.
Truthfully, those eyes have always made feel uneasy.
I've always hated those eyes.
It's like they're screaming at that I am not good enough. That I am a disappointnt.
The sa eyes... That my younger self looks at with.
I could bear your eyes before.
But now, after what happened, I just... Can't.
It took a while, but I get it now.
You're not really judging or anything. Your eyes are simply too pure. You are. And I am not. That's all there is to it. You don't judge with those eyes. I judge you, and then .
I'm already having a hard ti. If I have to look into your eyes in addition to that...
The instant that I left you, I was pulled back.
Ancient Commanders, an Ancient General, the Undead Dark Triad, the First Demon King...
I was pulled back into that World. The World that Gaavah wanted to be a part of.
This is the World that I'm supposed to be in, not yours.
I don't deserve to be in yours.
There was a ti when all I could do was watch others play and compete from my window, while I was stuck in that room.
It was fun, but I started hating them at so point. Because all they did was play. I could tell that they never trained or tried to get better.
They simply remained the sa.
Years before that, when I was much younger than them, I was training and trying to get better. The World punished for trying to be better. But it's different for you all.
Why aren't you trying to be better?
That's why... I won't waste this potential.
I don't deserve to be in your World. And I won't let myself be in your World.
You deserve to live peacefully.
It's different for .
If trouble doesn't find , I will go find it.
I refuse to put you through that. One, because you deserve better. Two, because I wouldn't be able to fight and protect you.
If you had been by my side against the Undead Lich...
It was perfect.
Why did you have to ss it up?
Why did you have to co find ?
Why? WHY?
Are you saying that I can make it right?
Is that how much you like ?
If you had followed this way in the Past, I probably would have been moved.
But not now.
Right now... You're just a bother.
I can't be forgiven. I don't want to be forgiven.
Because I can't forgive myself.
If she hadn't taken this eye of mine, if she hadn't stopped then...
The Demon Lord Of Lust is to bla.
But I am also to bla. For letting myself be influenced. For not being stronger.
These Shards of the Deadly Sins surely allowed the Deadly Sin of Lust's Influence to be stronger. But those also make my strength. Sacrifice, huh?
You ca alone.
Did you expect to go back with you? Go back to her?
Go back into the Demon Lord of Lust's Territory?
I can't do that.
The Ancient General that the Undead Lich summoned...
We're lucky that we survived.
The Demon Lord Of Sloth sent to Commanders.
I wouldn't have survived had the two of you not been there.
But what if a Demon Lord decides to send a General my way?
I wouldn't be able to defeat sothing like that... Not yet.
Having you by my side wouldn't help. The difference in strength is too large. What if I try to run away and the General goes after you? Then I will find myself running after you and the General.
It won't work.
Even if... I were to bypass the rest, it just wouldn't work.
If I'm dying anyway, then I might as well die alone.
I won't drag either of you with .
The two of you have sowhere you're supposed to go to anyway.
Even if I could let myself, I wouldn't.
I've already run away.
Don't you see?
Even now, the instant that I saw your snow-white pelt, I turned away.
Before I could even see your clear eyes, I was already running.
Had I kept being my younger self, my younger self that wasn't punished, that didn't hate the world, that didn't hate himself... Then maybe.
But not now.
I can't choose you.
I don't choose you.
The reasons don't even matter. My body started moving before I even thought of those reasons.
I started running right away.
How long did I stand under that dark sky debating which direction to take?
Had I started moving right away, you wouldn't have found .
Had I taken more or less ti against the Undead Lich or inside that room, you wouldn't have found .
I kept thinking about which direction to take, but I was unable to choose.
The Past(You) caught up to .
But I am already running. I guess that is just what I do.
How did you find this place?
How did I find this place? After that long dream about my past life... Was it a Dream or a series of Visions? Both, I suppose.
You found .
Now, I'm running.
Thanks to you, I am moving.
Thanks to you, I didn't have to choose a direction. You chose for .
You did enough.
Now, go back. Go back to her.
***
The inaudible echoes of Darkness once said,
"Keep going.
Keep moving forward.
You'll have all the answers. You will find everything as long as you look for it. Keep going. The plan is already in motion. Everything will happen as it should.
Do not think too much. Do not try to understand. Do not worry. Everything will happen as it should. In due ti, everything will beco clear.
The World has already decided.
You had a choice. But you couldn't choose.
And so, the World chose for you.
You refused to choose.
And you let yourself be moved.
Like a leaf blown by the wind, you relinquished control.
Like the leaf that you are, follow the wind.
The World will guide you.
I will guide you.
Follow the darkness in your heart.
The essence of who you are.
It is already clear.
Your destiny.
Your fate has already been chosen.
Now, keep going.
Find her.
Look for her.
The Witch in the Woods."
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