Chapter 599: Chapter 573: Understanding and Clues (Thanks to Nainai Sheng’s Secret Admirer for He’s Jadeite Reward Update)
In both her past life and this life, she owed Yu Minglang an apology, failing to reciprocate his deep love and making him wait for her for a lifeti in his past life and racking his brain for her illnesses in this life.
If only she were a normal person, if only she could control her own feelings.
But illnesses were not within her control, and many people in society misunderstand those with ntal illnesses, thinking that they can control their conditions if they try hard enough. If they can’t control it, it’s seen as lodramatic, self-destructive, and selfish.
Many people don’t understand pre-marriage phobia, OCD, or even depression.
If you love him so much, why not marry him? lodramatic!
If you know washing your hands isn’t good, why keep doing it? Poor self-control!
Why always think about depression and suicide when life is so good? Spineless!
Normal people use “normal” thoughts to constrain those with illnesses, which worsens the patient’s psychological stress and makes them hate themselves even more, leading to a more severe condition.
As a psychologist, Xiao Qian disagreed with a normal person easily choosing soone with psychological issues, because acceptance required tolerance, which was easier said than done. Most people wouldn’t want to endure and compromise for a lifeti, and no one is a God without resentnt.
Who was Yu Minglang?
He was an excellent man, unreachable in the eyes of others.
But to accommodate an ill Xiao Qian, he willingly beca a foolish person, doing everything that seed silly. Even when his actions were exposed, he bore the consequences, took her anger without telling her that he was treating her.
Others might see him as a stupid and foolish man, but Xiao Qian knew he could be smart.
Yet, the cost of his intelligence was to hurt her, so he chose the road of foolishness with no turning back.
In his past life, Yu Minglang was mature and even had a high and cold charm, making him the perfect husband choice for every young girl.
But in this life, to accommodate her psychological issues, he compromised again and again, becoming a man willing to do anything for her…
Yu Minglang anxiously waited for her to explode while preparing to be beaten again, but he saw Xiao Qian tearfully looking at him, making him very anxious.
“Oh dear ancestor, don’t cry! Everything is my fault. Besides breaking up, you can do whatever you want, just don’t cry, alright?”
“I have sothing to tell you.” She held back her tears, making a significant decision in her heart.
Seeing her suddenly serious, Yu Minglang had a bad feeling. He stretched out his finger to her lips to silence her before she could speak.
“Don’t say anything! If you dare ntion breaking up, don’t bla for spanking you until you obey! I was wrong, but that’s not enough to sentence to death! You have to give a chance for reformation!”
He still couldn’t forget the taste of her ntioning breaking up before; now he feared hearing the word.
Xiao Qian shook her head.
“I don’t want to break up. What I an is, if you really want to get married… we can give it a try.”
The worst outco could be that she doesn’t adapt well after marriage, her nightmares beco worse, and they find a solution then.
She couldn’t believe that as a psychologist, she couldn’t handle getting married.
Now there was a divergence between her consciousness and subconscious.
Consciousness was the thought and ideas one could control. Xiao Qian clearly recognized that she loved Yu Minglang and wanted to build a family with him. She wanted to marry him.
But her subconscious opposed it.
Due to her past experience of failing to raise a child, Xiao Qian’s subconscious rejected marriage, fearing to repeat the past life. All of this was beyond her control.
The subconscious was such a magical existence, influencing our worldview without us realizing it. If Xiao Qian weren’t a psychologist, it would be easier. A psychologist like Professor Liu could hypnotize her, directly entering her subconscious and modifying her mory.
Xiao Qian had treated other patients using this thod. Professor Liu never thought she would have mories of her past life, making her pre-marriage phobia more severe than imagined. Even excluding the factor of reincarnation, neither Xiao Qian nor Yu Minglang could be treated with hypnotherapy due to their resistance.
So Xiao Qian wanted to gamble, trying to see what would happen if she and Yu Minglang forcefully got married, using her consciousness to fight against her subconscious.
Hearing her agree to get married, Yu Minglang didn’t look overjoyed but rather deeply gazed at her.
Xiao Qian waved her hand in front of him, wondering why his reaction was completely different than what she expected.
“Let’s not rush.” Always anxious to get married, Yu Minglang didn’t let the joy cloud his judgnt and calmly made a decision after hearing Xiao Qian’s agreent.
“But you—”
“I’m in a hurry, and I do want to marry you, but since you’re not ready, let’s slow down and not feel pressured.”
“I can try.”
Yu Minglang couldn’t help but smile at her determined expression, just leaning his chin on top of her head.
“Look at your expression now, it’s like you’re going to the execution ground. Our wedding should be a happy occasion, not this tense.”
From Xiao Qian’s expression, those who knew would think she decided to marry him, but those who didn’t would think soone had dug up her family tomb.
“You already know I have a bit of pre-marriage phobia, so don’t pick on my expression not being on point, okay!” Heaven knows how painful it was to fight her own nature.
At this mont, Xiao Qian vividly thought about what having an incurable psychological illness was like.
Less elegantly put, it was like wetting one’s pants.
Knowing that it was bad but unable to control it, feeling disgusted but unable to control it.
That was the experience of having a psychological illness.
Yu Minglang knew she must have struggled greatly to overco her fear, and as a result, he didn’t want to force her and was more compassionate.
“I’m not picking on your expression. I just hope my bride can smile when she marries . Since you’re not ready, I can wait. I’ve waited for three years, so one more year doesn’t matter. Don’t think about anything; it’s my fault, and it has nothing to do with you.”
He guessed that Xiao Qian’s eyes were red because she agreed to marry him, possibly knowing his true intentions. Yu Minglang didn’t want her to feel pressured nor discuss her phobia, so he changed the topic.
“Qian Bao, where did you get this towel? Imported from the island country?”
He took the towel from his head, trying to change the subject, but this shift unexpectedly revealed a crucial clue!
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