Chapter 213: Past Life and Present Life
Translator: 549690339
-You really like socializing, don’t you? You admire the social big brother so much. How about I find a disco for you to check out?” Xiao Qian said to Chen
Zilong.
Chen Zilong imdiately begged for rcy. “I surrender, sister. Can I just study well?”
Xiao Qian humd. As she calculated, Chen Wanku of the past had caused nurous troubles by now, making her marry the scumbag without a chance for divorce. However, after being taught a lesson by her in this life, he had been behaving and not causing any trouble.’
She commanded him to move his luggage upstairs.
Where did mom go?”
“To a village eting. Sister, many people have been coming to our house and the surrounding area lately, carrying tools and asuring. What’s going on?”
People were asuring with tools?
Xiao Qian slightly organized her thoughts and imdiately widened her eyes!
“Sister, what’s going on? I heard it might be the relocation office, but we’ve been noisy for so long, and they’ve asured several tis already, but there has been no movent. This ti is like thunder and rain – sister?”
Chen Zilong watched Xiao Qian, who had just been calm, suddenly get emotional. She rushed to the calendar on the table, flipping through it, and then closed her eyes, as if recalling sothing.
“Sister?” Chen Zilong looked puzzledly at Xiao Qian.
Xiao Qian closed her eyes and suddenly opened them. She pushed Chen Zilong aside and strode out.
“Sister, where are you going?”
“I’m going out to do sothing, and I might be back late.”
Chen Zilong shrugged, “This must be going to see Brother Lang, right? So impatient right after coming ho…”
But Xiao Qian wasn’t going to see Yu Minglang at all.
In her previous life, she recalls that on this day, she was battered and bruised by the scumbag and returned ho to seek help from her family for a divorce. At that ti, the village was also having a eting, but the representative of the family was not Jia Xiufang but Chen Lin. Xiao Qian waited at ho for half a day, and when Chen Lin ca back with a pleased expression on his face and heard about her divorce, he imdiately drove her out without any discussion.
At first, Xiao Qian didn’t know why her father was so eager to drive her away.
As she was leaving, she heard the neighbors discussing with joyful faces. Then she learned that the area was about to be demolished.
That ans a house, money, and how much the family could get.
Chen Lin hid the university admission notice to save money for his son. After Xiao Qian’s marriage, she discovered that the bitch was homosexual and wanted a divorce, but Chen Lin wouldn’t allow it because he wanted to get money from the bitch to clean up his ss. Even when the house was about to be demolished, and the family got their money, Chen Lin still wouldn’t let Xiao Qian divorce because he was afraid of giving her a share of the family’s property.
If it was said that her marriage with the scumbag was filled with only indifference and violence, and it had already made her physically and ntally exhausted, then Chen Lin’s attitude was like the straw that broke the cal’s back. Unable to see a way out, Xiao Qian ultimately chose to end her life on this day in her previous life.
Walking on the sa road as she did back then, she headed towards the place where she had jumped into the river.
Xiao Qian’s expression grew colder and colder.
All those things from her past were unbearable humiliations.
She couldn’t imagine how she could have been so wretched back then. Why couldn’t she be like her present self? Even if she wanted to die, she could blow up the scumbag and trash father along with her by hugging a gas tank.
That was truly the most innocent ti when she had never thought of harming anyone before this day in her past life. However, no one had spared her either.
The river was already frozen, and only in the center of it was a hole. Xiao Qian didn’t know whether it was made by fishern or people washing clothes. This side was not far from the Urban Village, and if anyone had a seriously ill elder at ho, they would, according to custom, bring their clothes to wash in the river as well.
Xiao Qian stood by the river, looking at the hole with a cold smile and ice-cold eyes.
When treating others, she often used phrases like “embracing the wounded inner child” to help them confront the hidden, wounded child within. But she didn’t want to embrace her wounded child, even if it’s only a mory. All she could think of now was how the weak shouldn’t have it good.
If she hadn’t jumped in her previous life and t the person who saved her, changed her thoughts, and also changed her destiny, perhaps she would have already died in this freezing lake.
Even knowing that her thoughts were extremist, she didn’t want to change. Perhaps the kind-hearted child in her heart had long been frozen to death in this lake.
Who, born into this life, is a deep-thinking, unscrupulous person from the start?
But that’s the way the environnt forces people to change, forcing her to tamorphose into the person she is now. Should she thank Chen Lin and the scumbag?
Nowadays, even thinking about these people disgusts Xiao Qian. Her purpose for coming here today is not to disgust herself, but to wait.
She’s waiting for the person who saved her in her previous life.
She wants to know who saved her and who changed her destiny.
In her past life, the person who saved her sat by her side in the hospital and talked to her for a while after the incident. Those words helped Xiao Qian get through a lot and also laid the foundation for her current character, in fact, Xiao Qian can no longer rember what the person looked like or what exactly they said, just the general aning.
She once used the professional analysis that her excellent mory sohow only forgot her benefactor’s appearance. In the end, it was concluded that this mory loss could be the result of an avoidance reaction after the trauma. She felt that her most painful and vulnerable period was a humiliating period in her life and instinctively did not think about it, inadvertently blocking out the appearance of her benefactor as well.
Post-traumatic reactions can take two forms: so people hold onto the mory and even constantly experience “flashbacks” in their everyday lives, inserting frightening mories that lead to illusions, hallucinations, and dissociative disorders. On the contrary, Xiao Qian blocked that mory and did not want to recall it, hoping to face the difficulties of the past.
However, so far, she has not found a therapist who can treat her. She and Second Brother Yu have so similarities, both belonging to the category of exceptionally hard to hypnotize, having the strongest antitherapeutic abilities. It is frustrating for a therapist to seek treatnt as no one has a stronger skillset them themselves.
Another few minutes and she would be able to see the one who saved her and face the vulnerability of her past life. Xiao Qian felt a bit excited.
Perhaps after addressing this issue, her Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder would be sowhat alleviated.
There was still so ti before she jumped into the river in her previous life, so Xiao Qian stood by the river and waited.
Several people were setting up stalls by the river, as it was right by the entrance of a park and many children ca to play during their vacation.
A young girl who seed to be a student ca over, promoting a card with a string to Xiao Qian.
“Sister, I am a student who works part-ti. Would you buy a wish card? If you hang it on the tree, it can bring you good luck for a year.”
Xiao Qian looked behind the girl and saw a pine tree with a few cards fluttering in the wind.
It seed that it was the sa in her past life. She had bought one when she was feeling hopeless, but when she held the pen to write, her mind went blank, and she tied an empty one to the tree. This incident deepened her desire to die. That’s because she didn’t know what hope there was for living..
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