Chapter 1131: Chapter 1103: Emotional Detachnt Disorder Chapter 1131: Chapter 1103: Emotional Detachnt Disorder “Why should I cry? If I hadn’t organized the Baron at that ti, my side would have suffered significant losses. There’s nothing for to cry about.”
“You’re lying! You feel guilty for driving the Baron to a dead end; otherwise, why would you suffer from post-traumatic stress disorder? The tremor in your hands is purely psychological. You have no difficulty stringing tiny pearls, which shows that your fingers are flexible and there is no nerve damage. But you can’t even fire a toy gun. Clearly, it’s a reaction specific to firearms. I bet the first thing that cos to your mind when you hold a gun is the Baron’s face just before he died, right?”
His expression told Kiara that she had guessed correctly.
“Your constant insistence that you have fulfilled your mission actually stems from the emotional detachnt symptomatic of post-traumatic stress disorder. What you need most now is to vent your emotions, whether it’s anger or sadness. As long as you release these feelings thoroughly, it will be good for you. You don’t need to feel guilty for surviving. When you saw the Baron die, in fact, you felt guilty that you were still alive. Your sense of mission convinced you that you were right, but your emotions couldn’t hide your guilt towards your friend. Husband, you need to release it.”
Kiara spoke her judgnt in one breath. As the top psychologist, how could she fail to notice his abnormality?
“Can you cure it?” he asked.
Kiara wanted to shout that she could, as the best doctor who had saved so many people; it made no sense that she couldn’t save her own husband.
But she couldn’t say it; facing Mario Yuno’s clear eyes, she couldn’t lie.
Putting aside their relationship, just considering Mario Yuno’s personality, she was at a loss.
From the incident to the present, he had not shown any normal human emotions. He used his god-like self-control to suppress his consciousness. Just as Kiara joked before, such a person would either be forever invulnerable or, if afflicted with even a minor psychological issue, it would undoubtedly be deadly for him.
Kiara’s expression betrayed her heart, and Mario Yuno tugged at the corner of his mouth, reaching a hand to ruffle her hair.
“Silly girl, if you can’t cure it, then I’m not sick. It’s okay, I’ll be fine.”
Kiara watched his overly composed expression, and a puzzle that had troubled her since her rebirth finally found its answer.
The thought struck Kiara’s heart like a bolt of lightning, startling her with imnse guilt and self-reproach.
She finally understood why, in her past life, she saw Camden with such a personality, yet in this life, he had lived like a big boy for so long. It all made sense; all the puzzles were solved.
An unbearably heartbreaking answer was ready to erge.
The world never witnesses change without reason. Kiara previously couldn’t understand the reasons behind Mario Yuno’s dramatic change in personality until this mont, when she saw his repression of emotions, did she finally understand.
In his past life, he must have also gone through the sa ordeal, which altered his personality so drastically.
In his past life, Mario Yuno too was a cheerful big boy, cool on the outside but warm-hearted, until one day, he personally ended the invading Baron’s life. This sense of guilt led him to develop post-traumatic stress disorder, from which he never recovered.
But he was a very special case—his strong self-control made his response to the disease different from others’. While common symptoms of PTSD like nightmares, irritability, hypervigilance, and amnesia did not appear, his personality underwent a major change.
This trauma stayed in his heart; he never forgot the dead Baron, nor did he ever stop punishing himself.
On one hand, he remained committed to his mission; on the other, he couldn’t forget the guilt he felt towards the Baron. On the surface, he appeared indifferent, repeatedly emphasizing his mission, but the more fiercely he highlighted it, the more his heart ached.
Ever since then, many years had passed without his ergence.
The radiant Mario Yuno, who had bid farewell to Baron as he passed away, ceased to exist anymore.
What remained was a man who appeared strong, but whose heart already bore a profound heaviness.
From a broader perspective, Mario Yuno had matured. His behavior in his past life resembled that of a mature man, sensible and calm, quiet with unfathomable thoughts. He didn’t express his emotions to anyone, not even to his beloved Kiara.
She thought about the scene where he had held her and wept at her death in their past life, probably the only ti he showed emotional fluctuations after Baron’s death.
They say growth cos with pain, but Mario Yuno’s developnt was so agonizing that it made people despair. Upon learning this news, Kiara’s imdiate reaction was a bout of darkness before her eyes, and she fainted.
The pain she couldn’t bear, he masked with frivolous reactions, and that was the most terrifying thing.
During the ti Kiara had passed out, she had a long dream.
The deep and profound Mario Yuno of their past life and the adorable Mario Yuno of this life alternated in her dream. She dread of a past where both of them drank leisurely across from each other, her guzzling glass after glass while he watched with enigmatic, profound eyes. It was not until she pushed him down in her drunkenness did she rember the look in his eyes, which had beco clear once again in her dream.
She finally rembered what he whispered in her ear when she was dying in agony in their past life.
He said, “Don’t leave .”
Back then, he must have loved her incredibly to utter such words, reflecting his deepest fear.
Mario Yuno, already suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder, must have subconsciously felt that everything he loved would eventually leave him, just like his favorite gun.
Kiara’s spirit floated in the air, witnessing this mont, tearfully regretting everything in her dream.
She truly regretted it.
She never understood him in their past life. She resented that he loved his work more than her, hated his calmness, detested his silence, and loathed the way he looked at her with such depth in his eyes, which is why she developed pre-marriage phobia and left him to run away.
If she had noticed his irregularities earlier and seen the fragility behind his strength, would she still have fled from marriage, would their life together still be shattered?
Kiara’s dream was fragntary. She saw things from their past life she had ignored; she also saw Camden’s warm companionship in this life. She saw how the silly fellow presented her Carnations as if they were Roses, and how he took her fishing in the mud, leaving her in a deplorable state.
Even more, she saw the unwavering love behind his silence and depth which she had hated in their past life.
As it turned out, love had always been there, even though it was expressed differently. But what remained unchanged was the affection he had for her, giving her all that he could without reservation, even though she had beco a runaway bride due to her pre-marriage phobia, he still did not give up searching for her.
If only she hadn’t been so stubborn, if only he hadn’t tried so hard, would they have been spared the heartache of reaching such an irreparable state?
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