Pulling my hand out of my nice, warm mitten, I lted the tear on my eyelash and then quickly put my hand back into its nice, warm space. Did I ntion that my hand was nice and warm? I chuckled to myself as thoughts of diving into a nest of blankets on the floor of my bedroom the sa way my hand dived back into the mitten circled through my mind.
But from warm, fluffy thoughts straight to reality, I needed to plan my next step. In my head, I knew what I should be doing, and I knew what I would need to do next. But at what cost?
I slowly started shutting myself down, just like one of my foster mothers showed how to do. I stretched my neck, hearing the clicking of my bones coming into (or out of) alignnt. I pulled every thought in my head deep down inside of , so deep that even I couldn't hear the running monologue that arguably kept sane most of my lives.
If I had pulled that stunt in my past life, I would have been thrown to the horde out front faster than I could yell 'fuck'.
I knew that arguing with the head of a safety zone was a stupid decision to make, and yet… I did it.
And I probably pissed off the boyos just as much as I pissed off the Rear Admiral… whatever his face is. I let my mind go completely blank and simply started counting.
1…2…3…4…5…
50…
And that's when I saw them. I—it is hard for to describe what had appeared in front of my eyes. I was no longer in front of the Navy Base of City J, there was no longer a horde of zombies in front of fighting the humans that lived there. There was simply darkness.
And flas. Hundreds upon hundreds of flas.
Four flas stood out, completely separate from everything else, even though they were surrounded by other flas. These four flas were each a different color, but I instinctively knew who they were.
The first fla was pristine white and flickered with a life that would not be put out. It was Liu Yu Zeng. I sighed, seeing how strong the fla was, happy that he was not hurt.
The second fla was red. But not the bright red of a normal fla, nor the dull red of a fine wine. This red was twinged with dark purple… a crimson fla, almost like the color of blood. This one was Wang Chao and his fla shone the brightest of all, even if I knew he was not the first. But he was safe and healthy and his fla called to just as strongly as the white fla.
A bit further away was a third fla, almost as black as the darkness that surrounded it, but I could still see the flickering, the movent of the fla against the stillness of the background. Chen Zi Han, my monster in the darkness in the best of ways. I wanted to reach my hand out to touch the fire, but I held back, looking for the fourth and final fla.
And there it was, almost beside , a pale fla, more silver and gold than any other color, but as the fla flickered it beca a tallic grey color. I stared at the fla completely entranced as it flickered within reach, begging to touch it. Liu Wei, I breathed as the fla flickered again as it engulfed the fires around it.
My joker, my savior, my solemn knight, my salvation. I could see everything that they were in those flas as if they would always be my beacon in the darkness, my way ho when I got lost.
And I guess I was a bit lost right now.
I stared at the flas around my four knights trying to see if I could sense anything about them. Anything at all that might let know who or what they were. But there was nothing. They all looked and felt the sa. Should I take the risk and consu all of them?
There was a part inside of that scread for it, that demanded that they sacrifice their flas for . But the more rational part of knew that I couldn't, that so of those flas were important to my n and as such, I couldn't touch them. But oh… how I wanted to.
Shaking that thought from my head, I brought myself back into the present and the ongoing battle. I could tell that the humans were starting to tire out. No matter how much training they did before, it is a lot different to physically fight sothing and try to take their heads than it was to simply point and shoot a gun.I think you should take a look at
Do not get wrong, I have the utmost respect for *most* of the n and won that have put their lives on the line to protect others. And I am happy that technology advanced enough that wars were no longer fought and won on giant battlefields using swords, spears, bows, and shields.
But at the sa ti, war got easier when it was just a press of a button. Now, however, it was back to being bloody, where you had to look the person in the eye as you took their head.
I shook my head as visions of old Greek battles of the ancient era filled my mind with n riding horses and chariots into battle instead of tanks. I was becoming too sentintal, I guess. I would need to change that fast.
"Let's wrap this up boys," I shouted into the chaos. There were more than a few grumbles at my glib remark, but the four that I was intending to get the ssage simply laughed.
"Yes, My Queen," said Liu Wei as he gripped the necks of the two zombies in front of them. My vision flashed back into the darkness as the flas were extinguished. I was finding it easier and easier to switch back and forth and wondered if maybe I had gotten a spirit power as well. I would have to ask Wang Chao about it later.
Wang Chao no longer really bothered killing on a one-on-one basis. Instead of clenching his fist, he simply waved his arm and several zombies fell at the sa ti. "Showoff," grumbled Liu Yu Zeng as he let his mist engulf several other zombies, killing them instantly. It looked like everyone was becoming more powerful the longer they fought.
And that idea made smile.
These four n in front of were impossibly strong in a way that no one in my past life had ever been. Even Wang Zo Mo couldn't manipulate his poison with such accuracy. He killed everyone and everything with it while Liu Yu Zeng wielded it with deadly precision, not allowing it to infect the humans even if they were touching the zombie at the ti.
I felt my body relax as I understood that I no longer had to worry about how they would survive in the coming years. Now I just had to figure out if I was going to survive alongside them.
I was still desperate for ho, for the one that I built with my own hands and supplies, the one that was never supposed to be tainted with the outside world.
But the boys were different. I couldn't see them happy at the ranch, planting fields of wheat and rice and hay. They had a much different calling, one that might just end up saving the world one day if I didn't hold them back.
Listen to , so sentintal. I lowered my head and chuckled, pushing all the thoughts out of my head so that when I saw Wang Chao again he didn't know the darkness of my mind. I would stand by my n as needed and I would stand in front of them too. But for now, let's see where Rear Admiral Zhou Gang Jia's head was at.
Because if he, for one second, thought it would be okay to attack MY n, then I would take his head down to Hell with , the consequences be damned.
I quickly shook myself free from those thoughts, fighting the darkness that threatened to rise up and engulf . I was not that type of person, I know I wasn't. I was good, I was kind, and…..
'A sucker… willing to put up with anything and anyone in the hopes that soone would love you,' hissed a voice from the darkness. I cracked my neck as I watched the boys co closer to , almost all of the zombies dead and ashes thanks to them.
I might be a sucker, but at least I knew who I was. Refusing to push down the darkness for a third ti, I simply embraced it. I was not a saint, and I was not a sinner, but I could and would be whatever the Hell I wanted to be. That was the lesson I learned in my previous life…
Living only half a life was not living at all. Embrace the light, embrace the dark, and find…
I shook my head. Stupid sentintal thoughts.
"Hey boys," I shouted as they approached . "Did you have fun?"
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