Rebirth: Once Again With You Chapter 354 It Was Him Who Betrayed Her First

If only he paid attention to her more, he would know that the servants of this house walked around her head because he rarely ca ho. They would disobey her and even steal her things.

But his wife could do nothing because those servants were sent by his mother, and he was too busy to notice or listen to her complain.

ng Renshu bit his lips. The after-taste of the noodles felt bitter for so reason.

He washed the cup before throwing it away. His body was tired, but the sight of his study room caught his attention.

ng Renshu went inside his study room to find an unkempt room with books, papers, and mugs left on top of the desk. Previously, his study room was always clean and neat, thanks to his wife, who organized the place for him. He allowed no one to enter this place except for Li Caiyi, because he couldn't trust anyone but her.

His wife was gone, and this place now resembled an animal's nest. He found no comfort working in this place anymore, so he always finished his work at the office.

Among all the papers ssily scattered on top of his desk, so ripped pieces of paper were all over the place. ng Renshu knew what that paper was, and a heavy feeling weighed again on him.

One of the pieces of paper got the word "divorce" written on top of it. It reminded him of that day when he found out that ng Shuchun had acted on her own again.

He was enraged by his sister's willfulness and spared no ti in making her study abroad just so he wouldn't need to see her face again for a while.

When ng Renshu learned that Li Caiyi had spent a night with soone else before her death, he felt angry and betrayed. However, after he found out what ng Shuchun had done without asking for his permission, it was like soone slapped him hard across the face.

"It was all my fault." ng Renshu fell on his knee as he clutched the piece of paper.

Initially, he indeed had thought of divorcing Li Caiyi. However, the reason was far from what ng Shuchun assud.

It was because Li Caiyi always held herself back for everyone. He knew Li Caiyi hated him after he forced himself on her. Living together after that beca unbearable.

No matter how much ng Renshu tried to get closer to her, she always flinched and took so distance away from him, like he was a frightening monster that scared her. Her aversion hurt him a lot. Both on his pride and heart.

"I thought if it's her, we can spend the rest of our lives living in harmony." ng Renshu muttered weakly. "Why didn't she trust ?"

They grew apart slowly, and ng Renshu thought there was no point in continuing their marriage when all they did was hurting each other.

It was painful whenever he saw the rejection in her eyes whenever he tried to take a step toward her. He couldn't look at her the sa way again as ti went by.

It was unfair that she refused to give him a chance. It was frustrating when she never talked about her genuine feelings to him. It was painful that she hated him so much that his touch repulsed her.

In her eyes, ng Renshu was never a man or a husband. He was just a childhood friend who had crossed the line. He felt like she blad him with her serene gaze whenever their eyes t. It was an unbearable thought.

ng Renshu couldn't stand that fact. He ca to hate the version of himself reflected in her eyes. So he avoided looking her in the eyes.

If he didn't see, then nothing was there. No hate or condemnation.

ng Renshu would sohow find a reason to go ho late, just to avoid her. He didn't want to see the forced smile on her face whenever they went out together, so he purposefully went alone to a formal party, claiming she was sick or busy.

The distance and misunderstanding between them piled up, and he ca to dislike her existence at so point.

Blinded by that montary feeling, he grabbed a divorce paper. He wanted to liberate both of them from the pain that ca from this false marriage.

Li Caiyi was a good friend, but she wasn't a suitable wife for him. He had miscalculated.

However, whenever he thought that Li Caiyi would probably find her happiness with so other man after this, he could not continue. He filled every column in the paper, but he couldn't show it to her.

ng Renshu kept telling himself to give their marriage one more chance as he sealed the paper inside the deepest part of his bookshelves. In the end, he completely forgot about that divorce agreent.

Until ng Shuchun found it and gave it to his wife herself.

ng Renshu wondered what Li Caiyi felt when she received that docunt during her darkest days. His wife never betrayed him. It was him who betrayed her first and disappointed her.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoyi. If only I wasn't such a coward." ng Renshu's eyes glazed with tears. He leaned his back on his desk before hugging himself into a ball. "You should have gotten angry and killed ; why would you kill yourself?"

Inside the empty and dark house, there was a sound of crying, which continued until dawn. ng Renshu, who drowned in his self-bla and self-hate, cried himself to sleep on the cold floor.

***

A few days after that, ng Renshu received a call from Li Junjie in the middle of his work. ng Renshu's eyebrows were raised in a pleasant surprise.

After Li Caiyi's funeral, Li Junjie had ceased to contact him. What happened at the funeral caused an irreparable crack between the two families' ties, and they hadn't kept in touch with each other for a while.

'How could I bear to face Junjie when her sister ended up miserably because of ?' ng Renshu bit his lips before he hesitantly accepted his call.

"Hello?"

"Renshu, I have sothing I want to give you. Do you have ti today?"

Li Junjie didn't beat around the bush as usual. Nevertheless, his tone sounded very urgent, and it bewildered him. ng Renshu glanced at the pile of docunts on top of his desk before replying.

"No, I'm not too busy right now. I can et you anyti you want."

"Good. Then can you et in the hospital right now? I'd love to et you in other places, but my legs are tied here."

"No worries. I will head there now." ng Renshu rose from his seat before walking out of the room, alerting his assistant.

"President, where are—"

"I have so urgent matters to do. Clear my schedule for today."

ng Renshu didn't stop and went straight to the elevator. The assistant was surprised, but later a smile crept upon his face. It had been months since he saw the president smiling like that. Sothing good must have happened.

"Alright, the least I can do to support him is to make sure he can relax as much as he wants!"

The assistant pumped a fist and quickly returned to his seat to empty his boss' schedule.