Li Caiyi threw herself onto the bed, feeling the fatigue in her body slowly ebb away. She had a lot of things in her mind, but she couldn't see the end of that tunnel yet.
Her hair was still wet, but instead of taking a hair-dryer, she went to her school bag and retrieved her notebook. She flipped it open right on the page where she jotted down all the information about Shen Qiang she knew.
"Who are you exactly? How many of your words can I believe?" Li Caiyi muttered sadly.
The fact that she knew nothing about Shen Qiang depressed her, and there was no way to know now. Even her mories of him began to vague as ti passed by.
It felt like he gradually went away to soplace far away. Li Caiyi was afraid she would wake up one day to find she couldn't rember anything about that man anymore.
"No, I can't accept this... Definitely not. I will never forgive myself if I ever forget about him."
Li Caiyi stood up and walked over to her study desk. She took out a new notebook she had just bought from her desk drawer and grabbed her pen.
"I won't let him disappear from my life," Li Caiyi whispered in a determined tone, as though she were making a vow to herself. Then, she began to write in that new notebook. She poured everything she rembered about Shen Qiang into the last details.
Even if she couldn't recall his face clearly anymore, she still rembered how he comforted her under the chilly night sky, telling her not to cry alone.
Despite not being sure if so parts of mories about him were already gone, Li Caiyi still noted everything down. If, by worst scenario, her mories truly disappear for good, she wanted her future self to know that she once had ever loved a man so deeply that she entrusted her life to him.
At the end of her notes, Li Caiyi made another note for herself, telling herself not to doubt her own handwriting and that she should never forget and give up finding Shen Qiang.
After she finished, she re-read what she wrote and felt like the burden on her shoulders lightened a bit.
"Shenqiang is right. I do want to believe in him, after all. I want to believe that his feelings for are real." Li Caiyi said in a trembling voice.
Li Caiyi closed the notebook and returned it to her desk drawer and silently prayed that the ti to use that notebook would never arrive.
She sighed and thought about drying her hair when her phone vibrated wildly on top of the bed. Li Caiyi plopped herself on the bed and grabbed her phone. Her heart skipped a beat when she saw the sender's na.
"It's Zhiqiang. I wonder what he needs from so late?" Li Caiyi muttered but actually felt happy inside. Filled with expectation, she slowly tapped on the new chat.
[Dai Zhiqiang: 👋≧◉ᴥ◉≦ Good evening. I have eaten your homade dinner well. It was delicious].
Li Caiyi chuckled when she saw the contrast between the cute emoji at the beginning and the stiff gratitude ssage after that. She thought he must have racked his brain to find a good emoji to send.
"How cute," Li Caiyi could imagine his serious face while double-checking his ssage before sending it.
[Li Caiyi: Good evening. ^^ I'm glad you are enjoying it. Are you still working?]
,m [Dai Zhiqiang: Yes. I'm probably going ho late today.]
[Li Caiyi: I see, that must be rough]
[Dai Zhiqiang: Not really. I'm used to it.]
[Li Caiyi: Even so, don't force yourself, and tell when you are finished with your work.]
[Dai Zhiqiang: Why?]
Li Caiyi didn't realize what she had just sent until she re-read it twice. A sense of embarrassnt burned her face when she found how creepy she sounded. Flustered, she quickly tried to recover from her mistake.
[Li Caiyi: Ah, I'm sorry, I don't know what I'm saying. Just forget it >///
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