Su Xiaofei nodded in agreent, knowing that for the first ti since the news broke out about his accident, she was at peace. Having Lu Qingfeng right here next to her was enough to dispel her worries from her heart.
"Feifei, do you rember what I asked you before I went to Shenjing?"
Lu Qingfeng's question after a long silence between them reminded Su Xiaofei of the ti she made a promise that she would give him a proper answer once he ca back. It was clear that Lu Qingfeng wasn't wasting his ti and wanted to hear her answer now.
"We've known each other since we were kids, and I have never made a friend before eting you." He started, the moonlight above them allowing them to see where they were going as they continued their leisure stroll.
"Years passed by, and you entered my heart at so point without even realizing it. For the longest ti, I've been wondering if you would be willing to give a chance, or would you find it despicable that I ca to love you."
Su Xiaofei furrowed her brows together. She might be stupid when she was younger, but who was she to criticize a person when it cos to love? If anything, she didn't want to ruin her friendship with Lu Qingfeng and hurt him in the process.
Lu Qingfeng stopped and turned to face her, wanting her to see the sincerity in his face as he confessed and laid his feelings bare for her again. He could only hope she wouldn't deny him this ti.
"Feifei, I'm no longer that young boy who used to follow you around, trying to win your attention. Now, I would like to ask if I can entrust my heart to you, love you deeply with all that I have and protect you for a lifeti? In the future, would you allow to accompany you on every step and milestone of your life, through thick and thin?"
Su Xiaofei had the urge to cry for the second ti that night. The overwhelming emotions that washed through her were indescribable. Here was a man who wanted nothing but to love and take care of her and yet, in her previous life, she went after a man who couldn't see her worth and kept trampling over her feelings.
While it was true that she was the one who brought it upon herself, Su Xiaofei couldn't help but think that Mo Yuchen, or anyone, should have tried to shake so semblance into her before. How could she turn her back from her mother and ignore her best friend's pleas for Mo Yuchen's sake?
As she looked at Lu Qingfeng's face, who was now looking at her with anticipation and worry in his eyes, Su Xiaofei thought that she really shouldn't have made such a reckless decision before and married Mo Yuchen despite her loved ones' objection.
If she had waited for Lu Qingfeng to wake up and recover from his trauma, perhaps her life would have been better in her previous life.
Her silence made Lu Qingfeng uncomfortable, and he unconsciously released her hand from his hold, effectively bringing Su Xiaofei back to reality. It hadn't been easy for him to say these words again, but Lu Qingfeng knew that he needed to be cautious with Su Xiaofei and treat her with enough patience after all the sufferings she experienced in the past.
"So… this is your answer?" He asked, but Su Xiaofei couldn't find the words to tell him that it wasn't.
"I understand, Feifei. You don't need to force yourself into sothing that you didn't like." He sighed. Perhaps he had been too complacent and confident that her feelings for him would grow after years of pursuing her. He should have paid more attention to her despite his busy schedule at work and school.
Were her feelings for Mo Yuchen still strong that she couldn't accept another man in her heart? Were the grievances she was nursing from her previous life forbidding her to be truly happy in this lifeti?
Lu Qingfeng thought that it was unfair for Su Xiaofei to be denied a chance at happiness. While it was true that she was given a chance for rebirth, it wasn't solely for the reason of seeking revenge, but to allow her to live her life to the fullest.
"You don't have to think too much about it, Feifei. It's enough for that you are honest with . It might take so ti for to truly move on, but I hope you won't deny as a friend after this." He continued, with a solemn expression. "I'm just being honest with myself and being foolish to say what is truly in my heart."
Su Xiaofei clenched her fists, wanting nothing more than to throw her arms around him and assure him that he was wrong. She would be damn stupid if she let this good thing slip from her hands. This kind of love was too rare to find and if she allowed it to pass, she might never encounter it for the second ti.
Even if the world viewed her as a villainess, she didn't care anymore, because this tyrant viewed her as his world. It was rare to find soone who could love her with all of his heart, and she didn't dare let him go, because in the end, she was a selfish person who would take everything and anything that she wanted.
"This is why I dared to confess and lay my heart to you again, although I'm also aware that you might refuse and turn down for good. In your eyes, I might just be a friend you can rely on, but Feifei, I still wanted to say this. If in any way, I caused you any inconveniences, I hope you will forgive ." Lu Qingfeng said.. As a man, he cannot allow himself to force Su Xiaofei to accept him unwillingly.
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