RWBY – The madness of Lappland Painful past

I apologize for the delay in submitting this chapter, I have been checking and preparing to correct errors in all the chapters I have written so far due to which I did not manage to prepare the chapter in ti .

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Blake pov

Looking at the hotel staff leaving my room right after helping clean up the ss that Yang made , I sit back down on the now freshly dressed bed wondering what just happened .

'Luckily I saved my dinner .'

I think looking at the plate of unfinished fish lying next to on the bed . Taking the plate to finish eating I notice that I am alone again .

' So I should do it now before Lappland gets ho .'

I think looking at my scroll lying on the bedside table . Taking the last bite of food I put down my plate and pick up the scroll . Walking to the window with the scroll in my hands I sit down on the window sill .

' If I don't do it then my aunt will do it for .'

I think while dialing the number for my mom . I was going to call my parents earlier however I didn't want to do it with Yang in the room , I honestly thought Yang would stay until Lappland returned which would make have an excuse not to call again . However , now I have no excuse .

' Now or never .

I think while waiting for soone to answer .

Kali : " Hello ?"

After a mont of waiting through the speaker I hear my mother's voice . In a mont of hesitation I fell silent not knowing how to start a conversation . Sitting on the windowsill I draw my knees to and taking a deep breath I get ready to answer .

Blake : "Hi mom ?"

I say uncertain of my mom reaction after all I ran away from ho and since the " disappearance" of Lappland we have not been in very good contact with each other .

Kali : "Blake ? Is it you are you okay ? Where are you ? If your disappearance is Adam's doing again then I swear ..."

Hearing my mom words I am a little overwheld by her questions and not a little surprised by her explosion of anger when she ntioned Adam .

Blake : " Mom calm down, I'm fine . I am in Vale together with .... Lappland"

I say stopping my mother from further anger by ntioning Lappland to her .

Kali : " Lappland is with you ? Is she okay ? Can you give her to talk to ?"

Says mom again throwing into a whirlwind of questions when she apparently returned to an even better mood than after starting the conversation with .

Blake : " Lappland is with and she is dooing well at least for her . And now she is not with she left to do sothing ."

I say leaving out Lappa's visit to the doctor so as not to worry her .

Kali : " Why did you run away ? Is it related to Lappland ?"

Asks mom hitting straight on the point . Since Lappland disappeared mother has always together with father searched for her with the help of many people . But there were not many willing to help them because of Lappland reputation .

In all of this I knew what had happened but I remained silent looking at the worry of my mom and dad as they continued to look for her .Thinking about that day about what I did , I recall the sad state in which I t Lappland less than a few days ago .

'If I wasn't so stupid and selfish '

Thinking about it, I can't help but cry.

' I am a common traitorous whore . Lappland gave all her heart and do things that no one should willingly sign up for . It is because of that everyone sees her as a monster .''

Kali : "Blake is sothing wrong ?"

Asks mom shaking out of my thoughts as I gather myself .

Blake : " No , nothing mom I was thinking " .

I say trying to control the tremor in my voice .

Kali : " Blake what's going on , are you crying ? "

Asks mom with worry in her voice . But hearing this makes feel worse than trash because I rember many unkind things I said to her .

'More than once I ran away from ho to be with Adam on missions . Even though my parents didn't want to be in white fang anymore because of Lappland I just laughed at them . I don't deserve this worry '

Blake: " Mom it's nothing I have a cold ."

I say wiping the tears that have gathered in my eyes. Sohow hearing Mom's voice makes feel even worse about myself.

Kali : " Blake turn on the cara ".

Says mom seriously when a video call request appeared on my scroll .Confused with my trembling finger I decided to accept it which made see the image of my mom who was looking at with seriousness .

Kali : " You are not crying ? "

Asks mom looking at through the cara . Looking towards the window I see in its reflection myself drenched in tears as the makeup I always try to put on runs down from my eyes .

Blake : " Blake tell what is going on ? "

Asks mom with seriousness in her voice . Knowing mom she is ready without a boat to cross an ocean full of grimm to be with now . She has always been like that with that look I knew she would give her life for , those eyes the sa care that Lappland shows so often despite her character . At that ti I felt the guilt eating up from the inside ,sothing inside broke I felt like I had to tell everything .

Blake : " Mom I'm sorry .It's my fault .... What happened to Lappland is my fault ."

I say fearing my mother's reaction when I stopped trying to stop crying .

Kali : " Blake what are you talking about ? What is your fault ?"

Asks mom when I don't dare to look at her .

Blake : " A year ago I ,Adam and others caught Lappland..... He said he knew a place .... A clinic where they will help her where she won't hurt anyone ....It was who made Lappland disappear for a year "

I say wiping more tears from my face saring all my makeup all over it .

Kali : " Blake ..... You."

Says my mother with disappointnt in her voice , to which I could only curl up inside myself yessir tightly drawing my knees to my chest .

Blake : " I believed Adam , I put Lappland aside even though she was the one who always gave everything .... I believed Adam , I betrayed Lappland ."

Blake : " Mom I .... was ready to kill her for this idiot .... I set her up by sending her a ssage .... I knew she was injured from the last mission . I believed that Adama would catch her without any problems and transport her but this asshole with others almost killed her...... and I like an idiot looked at it and believed it was the only way ."

I say confessing the deepest nightmare of my heart . I thought Lappland would have died that day if I had not stepped in .

Blake : "But I stopped it ..... hitting her in the back of the head she turned around and I could see the conflict in her eyes ...... she could not defend herself from . She did not defend herself when I knocked her down , she just smiled at .... Her words her tone ..."

I say unable to catch my breath any further I continued crying as I curled up shaking on the windowsill having mories of that night in my head .

Blake : " Not until ... A year later when things between and adama deteriorated I had the courage to look for her . Adama lied ... When I found her ... She was chained up in a dark cell . In the darkness , naked ... Mom ... What have I done ....."

I say in a whisper without having the strength or courage to say it out loud.

Kali : " Blake why didn't you tell about it earlier ? All this ti you knew where Lappland was yet you never ntioned it ?"

Asks mom after a long silence from her tone I couldn't tell if she was disappointed or sad .

Blake : " I didn't know either , I thought I knew , only when Lappland disappeared.... I started to notice .... What we were doing was not helping anyone .... I started to think and ask .... Then I doubted Adam he said he didn't know anything .... I had to search myself to find her they kept her on the nagerie ."

I say , having difficulty in forming a sentence .

Blake : "I didn't know what to do .... I continued to believe in Adam I ... I was afraid ... Adama talked about how Lappland is dangerous to herself and others .... He talked about how she almost blew the mission and tried to kill him ...... I ..... I ...I ...... I'm sorry mom ."

I say trying to calm down . I sincerely regret everything I have done I don't deserve rcy from mom or Lappland . If I'm honest I wasn't even sure if Lappland would actually co back to after all this .

But in her cell in her eyes I saw this joy at the sight of , this ray of hope in her eyes . I didn't have the courage not to take her with despite the fact that I counted on insults from her , I wanted her to leave .

Kali : "Blake calm down tell everything that happened , but this ti calmly and with details ."

Says mom in a calm tone however I knew that the storm would start and my parents do not forgive Adam .

Blake : " Mom I can not , he will hurt you."

I say knowing that I already screwed up anyway , just looking at mom I couldn't .

Kali : " Blake Belladona . I love you because you are my daughter however I also raised Lappland you both are important to . But I'm not afraid of Adam. Together with your father we started to fight against the whole kingdom. If you think that so kid with a savior complex is able to threaten in that case I guess you don't know your father and well enough."

Kali : " If you don't tell everything in detail I swear I will be in Vale in an hour ."

Says mom in a tone so serious that I know that holding my tongue is pointless because she will surely keep her word .

Blake : " Mom just please don't do anything that will endanger you I won't be able to live with the knowledge that sothing happened to you or dad ."

I say looking at the picture of mom who only smiled at . Taking a few breaths I gather my thoughts into words to tell everything as I rember it . At the ti mom was listening to and despite the fact that it is mories from a year ago I rember everything as if it was yesterday .