The rays of morning sun made its way on Senja's face, urging her to wake up.
She indeed awake, with grunted under her breath as she felt her head throbbing in pain. The blanket fell from her body when she tried to sit up, only then she realized that she wasn't sleeping on the couch.
She startled and snapped her head to her left side and there she saw Xiao Tianyao was sitting on the wooden chair. His face was stoic as ever, a little bit cold for her like.
"How long have you been sitting there?" Senja asked with raspy voice.
It was supposed to be her who wanted to wait until Xiao Tianyao awake, but in reality, apparently it was the other way around.
Xiao Tianyao didn't answer her question and stood up to walk away from the room, Senja wanted to chase after him, but when she put got off of the bed, Xiao Tianyao ca back with a glass of water.
Wordlessly, he gave the glass to Senja and sat back on the wooden chair, sheepishly Senja drank the water and sat on the edge of the bed.
Silence around them.
No one tried to break it and Senja was too comfortable playing with her empty glass.
"I have another eting to attend thirty minutes from now." Xiao Tianyao inford her.
In the other hand, he wanted to say if there was sothing that she wanted to talk about she needed to talk about it right now, because he was running out of ti. At least that was Senja's own interpretation from his words.
The true aning wouldn't be far from that.
"How do you feel now?" Senja asked him abruptly.
She needed to bring up this discussion sooner or later and she knew that she needed to be the one who have to confront it.
"You know how I feel." Xiao Tianyao answered her tersely and it sounded harsher than he intended to. His insecurities rose again. "How do you feel?"
Senja lifted up her face and looked at him right in the eyes when she answered him. "Tired" She said truthfully.
She was tired literary and also with the uncertainty that gnawed her heart. She wanted to make all of this clear, so she could take another step forward.
However, her answered made Xiao Tianyao froze as his eyes hardened. He interpreted it differently.
"Are you tired of ?" His heart sunk when he said it. "I know it" He mumbled.
"What? No" Senja denied it directly. "That is not what I an"
"That exactly what you ant." Xiao Tianyao insisted as his tone beca harsh.
He didn't want to fight with her again, he didn't want to yell at her again, but the anger that bubbling up in his throat was forcing its way to show up.
"After all you had seen, it is very impossible if you are fine." He snapped at her.
Only then, Senja realized what Xiao Tianyao ant. "It was terrible mory indeed." Senja confird it and Xiao Tianyao scoffed at her statent. "But, it wasn't you. You are under hypnotized."
"Your reason didn't hold the water." Xiao Tianyao had co up with the sa excuses many tis, but couldn't justify himself that he was guilty free just because he was under hypnotized.
Senja closed her eyes. She was really tired and didn't want to argue with him, she wanted to know about their relationship or found any reason for her to stay.
Now, since she had knew where Yun whereabouts, the way for her to get ho was only miles distance away. If he still treated her coldly then she didn't have a reason to stay.
"You have to let help you Tianyao It is not the right way to face it." Senja said it tiredly. "Let's face it together"
"Together?" Xiao Tianyao interjected coldly as he narrowed his eyes. "You weren't even there when that tragedy was happening. So, why do you want to face it with ? Are you feeling sorry for ?"
Senja opened her eyes and they were burning with fury. She knew that she have to calm down when she faced him, he was in denial. He shoved away everyone who cared about him and misinterpreted it as a pity.
"Goddamn it Tianyao." She cursed right in front of his face, well it wasn't like this was the first ti. "I don't feel sorry for you for what you had done, but I do feel sorry for you in the way you handle yourself." Senja was furious now.
And that was all it took to ignite the anger inside him that he had been trying to distinguish with no avail. He needed an outlet to vent out his anger, because recently every people who t him were acting excessively polite and understanding. They talk very slow and even didn't raise their voice.
"Do you think I will be fine after all the horrible things that I did? I will just laughing, brush it away and move forward!?" He snarled.
Senja gritted her teeth as she stood up and crossed her arms. She stared down at Xiao Tianyao.
"I never said that!" She bit back. "But, to avoid is that solve your problem?!"
"By not avoiding you, can you solve my problem?"
Senja clicked her tongue annoyingly. He gave her a hard ti now. "Of course not! That is your problem bullhead! Only you who could fix it!"
"Then it won't make any difference whether you are here or not!" He snapped back.
That's it. That was all that Senja needed to know.
People said, don't talk when you were angry, but soti the truth was spoken along with anger.
Senja stopped to argue as she sat back at the bed. She didn't say anything afterward.
anwhile, Xiao Tianyao regretted the mont he said it. He didn't an it that way, but apparently Senja had taken the worst way to interpret it.
After a mont of silence, Xiao Tianyao opened asked her, with softer tone. "What are you going to talk to last night?"
Senja didn't even raise her head and kept her eyes on her fingers. "I know Yun's whereabouts. I think it's the ti for to go ho."
There was a howling pain in her heart when she said those words, but she ignored it.
If there wasn't any difference if she stay, then maybe went ho wasn't a bad idea. Returned to her family and her brothers, did their mission.
"I will co with you, but not now." Xiao Tianyao said. He couldn't go anywhere now when the war would began in the matters of days.
"I don't ask you to co with , I inford you about this." Senja said firmly.
Xiao Tianyao frowned. "What is that an?" Sohow, he knew the answer.
"I will leave alone." This ti Senja raised her head and there was determination in her eyes.
"You leave ?" He reiterated.
"Yes." She nodded to emphasize her aning.
The idea of Senja was leaving filled him with dread, it snapped sothing inside him. "No. you will not go anywhere!" Xiao Tianyao stood up abruptly. Anger was dancing in his eyes again.
"I will go, Tianyao. And I don't need your permission." Senja stood up to show how serious she was.
Senja was about to walk to the doors when Xiao Tianyao whisked her and shoved her back to the bed. She felt on the mattress with her back.
"What are you doing!?" She yelled at him. She had had enough with the way he treated her these past days.
She loved him, but she wanted so respect as well.
"YANG YU!" Xiao Tianyao roared while his eyes were still on Senja. He glared at her, like the way she was glaring back at him.
Within seconds, Yang Yu was there, bowing his head, ready to receive his command.
"Don't let her get out of this room even if it's only a step!" Xiao Tianyao was furious. He knew how stubborn his woman and how slick she was. "Bring another Crescent Moon mber to guard this room."
Yang Yu befuddled, one ti his master didn't want Senja near him, but now he wanted to lock her up. Regardless, he still agreed with it and ran outside to gather another Crescent Moon mber.
Like Xiao Tianyao, he also aware how cunning this woman. She managed to enter his master room couple of ti in the past without him knowing it. Last ti was another example. Thus, he took this order seriously.
Inside the room, Xiao Tianyao and Senja were still glaring at each other.
"Stay." He said. "I have to attend the eting. We will talk about this later."
Xiao Tianyao was about to leave the room when he heard Senja spoke leisurely that made him froze.
"Do you think rely guards can lock up? don't you think you are belittling ?." Senja snickered, she saw Xiao Tianyao's expression turned rigid when he turned around to face her.
"I had tricked them and got away from them couple of tis in the past, do you think I can't do it now?"
Senja gave him her harmless smile when she added. "Think again."
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