Gan Yanyu rested her head on the desk, fingers playing with the now empty cup,
"I keep saying it’s for this, for that... but it seems like my obsession with winning the competition runs deeper than I imagined."
"All the way here, I tried to convince myself, but I failed."
"....."
Lin Tian remained silent.
This wasn’t the first ti Lin Tian noticed this.
Back during the Star Cup, Lin Tian could sense it.
The low mood Gan Yanyu had after losing the competition was far more intense than Lin Tian expected.
Even though later Gan Yanyu said that she was worried about Lin Tian being taken away, which led to her wild thoughts.
However, Lin Tian could still feel Gan Yanyu’s uncharacteristic desire to win.
"Lin Tian, do you think it’s possible that my real dream is actually to be the Keller Cup champion... I just want to win the competition, attain the highest honor in cello, and that everything else isn’t as important, that I’m not as noble as I thought... that’s why I didn’t feel anything from what you said earlier...."
Gan Yanyu’s eyes dimd, murmuring softly, as if speaking to Lin Tian, or perhaps to herself.
Before she could finish,
Lin Tian imdiately reached out and covered her mouth.
The girl looked up and saw Lin Tian’s slightly angry eyes,
"Don’t say that!"
"..."
Gan Yanyu was startled, her pupils suddenly widened.
"Idiot, just because you didn’t perform ’Moonlight’ well, you’re already doubting yourself?"
"No one knows you better than I do! You’re not that kind of person!"
"Otherwise, how could I have co this far with you!"
Lin Tian was furious.
He said this all in one breath, glaring tightly at Gan Yanyu.
"....."
If Gan Yanyu was really the kind of hypocritical person she claid, giving the excuse of wanting more people to hear her music as a reason for her worldly desire to win the highest championship.
Then Lin Tian wouldn’t have followed her all this way.
Because Lin Tian never participated in the competitions just to "accompany Gan Yanyu"—maybe that was true before, but not anymore.
Lin Tian ca this far purely because—
He, too, now has a dream in classical music.
The desire to present such beautiful works to the world!
This dream brought joy to Lin Tian, and he truly felt the happiness within it.
And all of this,
was influenced by Gan Yanyu.
It was Gan Yanyu who made him feel such happiness.
Lin Tian had witnessed everything along the way, no one understood better than he did.
He knew just how genuine Gan Yanyu’s feelings were.
Her love for classical music, her love for beauty, wanting to bring such music to all music lovers.
It was because of the continuous collisions in the spiritual world,
that Lin Tian beca so deeply involved.
So when Gan Yanyu uttered those self-proclaid hypocritical words,
Lin Tian truly got angry.
"If you truly feel that way, I’ll compose a new piece right now; we’ll record ’Moonlight’ later, but not for the competition!"
"No!"
Gan Yanyu held onto Lin Tian’s hand.
The girl bit her lip, her expression conflicted.
Finally, she slowly let go,
"That doesn’t explain why I feel this way..."
"Clearly, what you said is right, we don’t need to achieve this champion dream to accomplish those things... but I just can’t convince myself."
Gan Yanyu covered her face; she truly couldn’t understand it.
Why she couldn’t suppress this desire to win in her heart, no matter what she did.
Could it be that she really... all along, was just saying one thing but aning another?
"..."
"They don’t conflict."
At that mont,
Lin Tian’s words made Gan Yanyu look up.
"I think these two things don’t conflict."
Lin Tian said firmly,
"Whether spreading classical music or winning the Keller Cup, both are our dreams!"
"Winning the Keller Cup too...?"
Gan Yanyu had never heard Lin Tian speak like this, feeling slightly dazed,
"Isn’t that championship just a ans to achieve our dream?"
"Damn, can’t it also be part of the dream?!"
"Part of the dream..." Gan Yanyu still hesitated.
"What’s wrong with that?"
Lin Tian said gruffly,
"For a professional player, is it shaful for the dream to be a world championship?!"
Dreams don’t all have to be about spreading classical music around the world sounding all grandiose.
Winning the world championship can also be part of the dream!
As a professional cellist,
aspiring to win the championship that represents the top cellist in the world,
is absolutely not shaful!
Both dreams don’t conflict; they are genuinely what Gan Yanyu wants to achieve from her heart.
Lin Tian understood.
He finally understood!
The real reason why Gan Yanyu couldn’t perform ’Moonlight’.
It wasn’t because Gan Yanyu was too nervous or under too much pressure.
And it wasn’t sothing that could be solved by telling Gan Yanyu to stay calm and look at the competition with a peaceful mind!
That might be one thod, but not the only thod.
She doesn’t need to convince herself to take winning or losing lightly.
What Gan Yanyu truly needs to reconcile is the guilt she feels for wanting the championship.
The desire to win the competition, not wanting to lose, wanting to win!
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