You Changjin asked why.
Jiang Xinyi was very calm, she stared at You Changjin and said, "I gave you a chance."
"I’ve said that I can’t tolerate deceit."
At this mont, You Changjin’s expression was sowhat blank, with a hint of the panic that cos after a breakup. He said, "I, I didn’t lie to you."
"Are you sure you’re not hiding anything from ?" Jiang Xinyi was too calm, it didn’t feel like a breakup.
"I," You Changjin thought seriously but still couldn’t rember.
Jiang Xinyi sighed, picked up the wine glass, and drank a third of the red wine. She said, "When I was working at Zhou Yuwen’s express station, I chatted with a coworker, who told the salary is only a thousand yuan a month."
You Changjin suddenly rembered what he had done; he had truly forgotten about it. Who would think of such a thing done for Jiang Xinyi’s sake as deceit? Even now, You Changjin thought that if it was because of this, it wasn’t a big deal.
So You Changjin tried every ans to make up for it. He said, "Then, it might be because of your educational background, or it might be that Zhou Yuwen looked after you on my account."
Upon hearing this, Jiang Xinyi rolled her eyes completely: "Changjin, do you not know at all? Do you think I would co to you without getting things clear?"
"It’s not like that, even if it’s because of this, we shouldn’t break up, right? I was doing it for your sake, Xinyi. Leaving ho without enough living expenses and unwilling to accept my help, this was the only way I could think of. I didn’t do anything wrong; can’t you feel my love?" You Changjin’s face was a mask of pain, truly not feeling he’d done anything wrong.
Jiang Xinyi said, "Have you ever considered why I’m unwilling to accept your help?"
One is one, two is two. From the ti Jiang Xinyi left ho, to her unwillingness to choose a big company, every step was her choice. She wanted to take a path unbound by others, and she was happy now. She hadn’t even graduated from her master’s program. Finding a part-ti job close to school, occasionally helping out, plus having cucumbers to eat, she was quite happy.
But You Changjin just had to create trouble for himself.
If it’s a thousand a month, then so be it.
Does he really think she cares about that extra five hundred yuan?
Acting like this only burdens himself.
Jiang Xinyi said she was absolutely rational and anyhow, if things didn’t feel right, she would cut her losses in ti.
Now she felt she and You Changjin were not suitable.
So, should we break up?
Listening to Jiang Xinyi’s words, as warm as 37 degrees from her lips but as cold as below zero in content, You Changjin’s face was a mask of pain. Every word from Jiang Xinyi caused You Changjin imnse pain. Unable to hold back, he reached out and said, "Even if I did wrong this ti, it’s not a capital offense, Xinyi. We’ve been together so long, and I was only afraid of you suffering and wanted to give you a hand. Even if I was wrong, you can’t just write off. I know I was wrong."
Jiang Xinyi shook her head with a sigh, "You still don’t realize what you did wrong, or else you wouldn’t say that you were doing this for my good.
"You are a good person, Changjin. I was going to make things clear that day, but then the school called you, so it got postponed to today. Then these past few days, I’ve thought a lot. I carefully considered it, and I’m not a qualified girlfriend. I’m too self-centered. Throughout our ti together, it seems like it was just you giving. So I think, breaking up is good for , and for you too."
"But this was all my choice... Xinyi, please don’t break up with ; I, I can’t be without you." You Changjin was almost crying.
However, Jiang Xinyi shook her head and said, "Let’s just leave it at that, Changjin."
"You will find a girl better than . I wish you both happiness."
With that, Jiang Xinyi stood up.
"Xinyi," You Changjin wanted to beg Jiang Xinyi not to leave him.
But before he could say anything, Jiang Xinyi said, "You should know my personality."
"Don’t make look down on you."
"...."
With one sentence, she completely sealed off You Changjin’s path. Jiang Xinyi left just like that. At that mont, You Changjin was in so much pain; the worst part was this feeling of suffocation that couldn’t even be vented.
That night, You Changjin didn’t even know how he got back to the dorm. He frantically sent ssages to Jiang Xinyi, apologizing and asking for forgiveness.
But Jiang Xinyi never replied.
Since he kept sending ssages, she had no choice but to reply with one line.
"After breaking up we can still be friends, but like this, I don’t think we can even be friends."
With one sentence, You Changjin was caught on a thorn, in an impossible situation.
You Changjin was probably suffering more than Chang Hao and Li Qiang because while the other two were just in the pursuit stage, fantasizing about girls, there’s a type of ’Loyal Dog’ who after breaking up, the other person is idealized in their mind, growing more painful as they think of them, only able to wash their face with tears every day, lying in bed, sending lengthy texts to Jiang Xinyi, reminiscing about every little detail with her, and however much they think, the more they see Jiang Xinyi as perfect, eating spicy hot pots and grill-flavored rice every day, then haggling with the canteen’s window lady, saying, "Auntie, this isn’t even fresh, why not sell it cheap to ?
Or, "Auntie, I co here every day, can’t you give a little extra?"
Jiang Xinyi’s personality would make her liked wherever she went. Now You Changjin thought about it, Jiang Xinyi was simply a treasure of a girl, yet he didn’t know to cherish her. How could he have been so foolish to insist on showing off over that five hundred yuan?
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