Chapter 48
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“…… huh?”
My head, which had been foggy from the squealing and the heat, beca increasingly blurry. It was like a thick fog.
I can’t believe he married wasn’t for the children.
Of course, I thought he wanted my blood, which was filled with magical power, and visited a remote place like the Kingdom of Achaia to propose an alliance.
So I figured I wasn’t the target of the deal he wanted. There’s a reason for that.
How nervous I was to make sure he didn’t find out about my lies. I even prolonged our consummation by faking I was weak.
Kwanach clutched my face and made look at him. I could feel the moisture pooling in the corners of my eyes hardening and falling downward.
I opened my mouth absentmindedly.
“I naturally assud that you married because of your successor to the empire. But, I can’t have children, so in the end I’m not needed by you. …….”
Kwanach gasped, interrupting .
“No, it’s not. Never.”
“Why ……?”
“Why?”
Kwanach’s eyes crinkled up as if he was hurt. A shuddering breath flooded out from between his lips.
“Don’t say that, Usphere. My heart is torn just hearing it. It’s because I didn’t say anything that you have such a misunderstanding…. ….”
Kwanach let out a heavy sigh before slowly approaching . Our heated lips briefly interlocked and fell.
Kwanach said, gazing at .
“I’ve never thought of you as a ans so far.”
“…….”
“I married you because I wanted you, Usphere.”
My lips opened helplessly without realizing it.
It felt like my body was caving in underneath , even though I was sitting there leaning against Kwanach. My heart pounded and skipped a beat.
He wanted as a person.
The whisper was so hot and sweet that my whole body lted. Did anyone ever treat like this in my previous life and this life combined?
The reason why I was treated differently in this life was because I fulfilled my duties as an Awakener. Unlike my previous life when I was a failure, I had power.
The title of the kingdom’s shield preceded the na Usphere Catatel.
But I took it for granted. I wasn’t disappointed. I was a person born with many rights and corresponding duties.
I ca from a line of rulers. It was a life that had no choice but to value gender-related obligations rather than nas.
“……you wanted ?”
Kwanach, however, was not like the rest of them. Could there be a more heartfelt confession of love than this?
Suddenly, I rembered what Kwanach said in the carriage on our wedding day. He had said that he wanted a true marriage.
Now that I’ve revealed the lies I’ve been hiding, I felt like I knew what such a relationship was. Kwanach was felt clearer and closer than ever before.
Still, I couldn’t believe what he said completely, so I asked in a agitated voice
“But you still have to have an heir. I was actually researching how to have a child on my own. I don’t know for sure, but it may not be impossible at all.”
“That’s okay. Just don’t take it too far. I could just choose soone competent to rule and declare to him. What’s the problem?”
“But…….”
“It’s not in my character to be obsessed to have an heir. Even if the child is my son doesn’t an he’s capable, but he inherited the throne and that’s what past dynasties have beco.”
It was Kwanach’s idea, abolishing slavery and building a new empire. Kwanach said as he gently patted my cheek and neck.
“You have nothing to worry about, and you don’t have to feel guilty about what anyone says around you. I will make their tongues useless to you forever.”
“No, it is only natural to worry that the emperor will have no heir….”
“Didn’t you say it was my fault that made you misunderstood?”
Kwanach had a tendency to try to take the bla for everything. It seed to be a habit. Is that why I keep leaning on Kwanach like a baby?
Because no matter what I do, he always says okay.
With a small sigh, I rested my weak neck on Kwanach’s shoulder.
“Has your fever risen again? I really need to call the doctor. Lie down, please.”
Kwanach led gently and laid on the bed.
He was right, my health was getting worse again. My body, which was trying to compensate for my energy, wanted to sleep constantly. My eyelids began to droop more and more heavily.
But there was still so much I wanted to ask Kwanach. I exhaled and looked at him. I overca my overflowing fatigue and opened my mouth.
“Kwanach…… by the way, if we didn’t know each other until our wedding day, how did you know about and marry …ackack… did you decide?”
When I coughed, Kwanach shouted and called the doctor. He hesitated for a mont.
“That’s…..”
“Have we t before?” (Usphere.)
“You don’t have to know …….” (Kwanach)
Kwanach looked away from with a puzzled expression.
“It was a long ti ago. You don’t have to rember it. I hope you don’t rember from that ti. It was very ugly.”
Kwanach was reluctant to divulge his past.
Kwanach and ugliness were two words that didn’t go well together at all.
What on earth…Did I ever et him? When?
I tried to search my mory, but it was unclear.
This was not the only question. What is he going to do about Roman and Diaquit, will he do a full investigation on the Guilier, what about the nobles who were locked up, how will he calm their discontent……
There were a lot of political issues that needed to be resolved. I wish I could have been of more help to Kwanach.
Of course, I knew that Kwanach was a very wise man, but he had led the revolution to victory with his wild, animal senses, and his talent was only specialized in war.
This ti, when I saw how furious and politically overwheld he had beco, I thought I would have to stand by his side and put my head together with him.
But the sleep that was pouring in could not quite prevail, I closed my eyes, as if I fainted.
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I ca to my senses and spent another five days just lying in bed.
I noticed sothing was wrong.
I had co back to life from a near-death crisis and spent most of the day asleep. And sotis I woke up, but Kwanach wasn’t around.
This was proof that the situation at the Imperial Palace was tense. Eventually, though, Kwanach went into the bedroom.
I wanted to know how the case was going, but every ti I asked a question, the answer I got from Kwanach was always the sa.
“Don’t worry about it. I’m taking care of it.”
He didn’t tell . No, he seed to be deliberately hiding the situation.
I couldn’t stand it, so I asked Simon and Marianne about it, but they just answered that they didn’t know anything.
Why don’t they let know anything?
We confessed to each other and I thought our hearts were connected. Every ti we t for a little while, Kwanach was extrely kind and affectionate. I couldn’t have been happier.
But sowhere, little by little, our relationship was getting awkward.
Fortunately, after the fifth day, I were able to move a little. I was so frustrated that I staggered to the door and opened it.
“Your Majesty! You can’t leave!”
“What is this?”
The corridor in front of the bedroom was packed with nurous guards. It was truly a thorough surveillance and security. The soldiers were fully ard, as if it was war ti.
While I was in a daze, Marianne hurried led back to the bed.
“Marianne, let go of .”
“Please forgive my rudeness, Your Majesty.”
I was still too sick to overco the strength of Marianne, who was bigger than . I had to sit motionless on the bed again, pulled by Marianne’s hand.
“Marianne, what’s wrong?”
Marianne let go of and bowed deeply.
“I was under strict orders from the Emperor to never let the Empress go outside.”
I let out a small sigh and touched my forehead.
“I see. I can understand His Majesty’s concern since I was injured…He doesn’t want to overdo it, but I need to know what’s going on outside.”
Marianne didn’t reply, but kept biting her lip.
“‘Am I supposed to just lie here, knowing nothing?”
“…….”
“Marianne!”
I called her urgently, and Marianne squeezed her eyes shut and opened them.
“It was also the Emperor’s order not to say anything.”
“To ? Why?”
“The emperor is …..”
Marianne had a complicated look on her face.
“He’s changed a bit since you collapsed.”
“What do you an?”
SKwanach’s eyes, which were full of madness, flashed through my mind suddenly.
“He’s always anxious, and his temper has grown fierce. I think it’s because he’s afraid of losing Her Majesty. That’s why he doesn’t want you to step into any political situations.”
“Still. You can’t treat like a child and leave alone without saying anything.”
“With all due respect, I think so too. But the situation is….His Majesty is just anxious.”
“What’s the situation?”
“…….”
“Marianne, please.”
When I abandoned my dignity as an empress and spoke to Marianne as if I were begging her, she opened her mouth after a mont of hesitation.
“Roman is gone…..”
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