I cant say I dont understand Han-gyeols feelings at all.
Hes not one to lie without reason, after all.
Perhaps he lied to avoid worrying or because he was concerned I might co looking for him like this. While I understand that might be the case, I cant deny feeling a bit hurt by it.
But it seems wrong to burden a sick person with feelings of being let down.
Yet, I didnt want to force a smile and pretend everything was fine with Han-gyeol.
Ive always wanted to be honest with him.
Whats the right way to act here?
Should I confront him about why he lied? Or should I just accept it as is?
I definitely cant just accept it.
Just like Han-gyeol did for , I want to do the sa for him. I wanted to return the favor, to be there for him when hes suffering alone.
Thinking about it made feel even more upset.
I chopped the green onions on the cutting board a bit faster.
After finishing the porridge and letting it cool for a bit, I headed to Han-gyeols room.
I fed him the porridge myself before handing him the tray.
Without any conversation, Han-gyeol quietly ate the porridge, and then I gave him his dicine.
Hey, Eun-ha.
Yeah, Han-gyeol?
Im sorry for lying earlier.
Although Han-gyeol apologized, that couldnt be the end of it.
I wanted to talk about it in more detail.
Lets have your dicine first. We can talk about this later.
I decided to wait until Han-gyeol was feeling a bit better before bringing up the conversation.
After taking his dicine and water, Han-gyeol placed the cup on the bedside table.
Wheres the thermoter? Lets check your temperature.
I asked Han-gyeol after he had taken his dicine.
Its on the desk, but I think my fever might have gone down now.
Lets check to be sure. Just a mont- oh, here it is.
I found the thermoter on Han-gyeols neatly organized desk.
When I took his temperature, it read 36.9C.
What was it this morning?
It was 37.6C. Whats it now?
36.9C. Its definitely lower than this morning.
Maybe its because of the porridge Eun-ha made for .
Han-gyeol managed a weak smile, but I didnt respond.
His smile and voice were fading.
Sorry...
Hearing Han-gyeols apology, I cautiously started the conversation.
Im not mad. But I am hurt. Why didnt you tell ?
I had a rough idea why Han-gyeol did what he did, but I wanted to hear it from him.
The college entrance exam is only about a hundred days away, and I didnt want to worry you. More than anything, I thought you might co to take care of if I said I was alone. And I was worried I might pass the cold on to you.
It was just as I had expected.
I understand. I can see why youd think that. But how do you think you would have felt if I were sick and alone at ho and didnt tell you anything? Be honest with .
Faced with my question, Han-gyeol pondered for a mont before speaking softly.
I would have felt a bit hurt.
Right. I feel the sa way. Im hurt by you, Han-gyeol.
Yeah.
I organized my thoughts before speaking.
I dont intend to force you to talk about sothing youre uncomfortable with. As your girlfriend, there might be issues I cant solve, and even if I knew about them, I might not be able to help. If youre dealing with sothing, I wont ask what it is and will just quietly stand by your side until its resolved. Youre wise and capable of handling things on your own.
I continued, looking Han-gyeol directly in the eyes.
But this ti is different. You were sick and alone at ho. It might seem like an overstatent, but what if your fever had spiked or youd needed to rush to the ergency room before your mom got back? At the very least, you should have reached out for help when you needed it.
My disappointnt began to show.
Just as you want to be there for , I want to do the sa for you. I could have helped. Why did you suffer alone? I understand your feelings to so extent, but it still hurts. Just like you were there for , I want to hold your hand, take care of you, and be by your side when youre sick. I dont want to be soone who only takes from you. I want to give back and take care of you too. Its not just you who feels this way.
Han-gyeol seed a bit surprised by my words.
Will you do this again...? Suffer alone because youre worried about ?
No, Im sorry. I think I was too selfish.
Right. Dont do it again. You understand? Ill be really hurt if it happens again.
Yeah... Im sorry.
Enough with the apologies... can you thank for taking care of you instead?
Thank you.
Good. Is that a promise?
Yes.
Only after hearing Han-gyeols response did I feel sowhat relieved. I sighed deeply and looked at him.
Are you in a lot of pain?
No, not much. Eun-ha, can you smile now? Ive been a bit scared up till now.
I wont smile. Im still hurt.
Im really thankful you ca. Ill recover faster thanks to my girlfriend.
Han-gyeols words made the corners of my mouth rise slightly.
I have to resist. I cant just start smiling all of a sudden.
Its so nice to see Eun-ha.
...
My lips kept curling upwards.
Co on, go down. Please go down!
Being with Eun-ha makes all the pain fly away.
Hehe...
I ended up smiling without realizing it.
Youre finally smiling.
Ah, really-! Stop with the complints and go to sleep.
I want to enjoy the rare occasion of Eun-ha being here a bit longer.
Whats a patient doing talking about enjoying? Youve taken your dicine, so go to sleep.
Im not even sleepy.
Ill hold your hand, so just go to sleep.
I carefully took Han-gyeols hand in mine.
But I want to spend ti with Eun-ha.
No, you need to get better. Close your eyes and sleep.
Who can sleep with a beast beside them?
I wont bite, so just go to sleep, will you?
Its because Im thankful.
Just close your eyes for 10 minutes.
Can I get up after 10 minutes?
Yes. So keep them closed.
Okay.
Han-gyeol closed his eyes.
I took in the sight of him, his handso face.
Eun-ha, have you eaten?
I was so worried about Han-gyeol that I couldnt eat.
Really? You must be hungry.
I managed to force sothing down. The side dish was at.
That doesnt an you ate it all, does it...?
It was just hard to swallow.
Han-gyeol chuckled at my words.
What will Eun-ha do if I fall asleep?
Watch over Han-gyeol while he sleeps?
Thats embarrassing.
Just stop talking and fall asleep already.
It feels like Im making myself vulnerable to being devoured.
Han-gyeol seed to have no intention of falling asleep anyti soon.
Eventually, I quietly got up and lay down beside him.
Eun-ha? It feels like soones lying next to .
Yes, thats right. Since Han-gyeol isnt falling asleep, I thought Id join you for a nap.
My heart is racing too much to fall asleep.
Just endure it. I want to sleep.
Despite feeling shy, I snuggled into Han-gyeols arms.
He kept scooting towards the wall, but I kept burrowing in closer.
Finally, Han-gyeols back hit the wall, and I was fully enveloped in his embrace.
Eun-ha, sharing a bed... and covering with the sa blanket for a nap is a bit-!
Well just hold hands and sleep.
Isnt that an incredibly dangerous statent thats been around for ages? And were already in an embrace. Were already past the point of no return.
Since Han-gyeol lied today, isnt it fair to receive this much of a punishnt? Even if its uncomfortable, endure it. Its a punishnt.
Isnt that a reward?
Nope. Its a punishnt.
I closed my eyes and tried to sleep.
Reluctantly, Han-gyeol held in his arms.
I dont think I can sleep like this.
Then Han-gyeol can provide an arm pillow.
Can I move it if it gets numb?
No.
I slipped out from Han-gyeols arm and placed it under my head.
Eun-ha, it feels like 10 minutes have passed. Can I open my eyes now?
Yeah~ You can open them now.
Han-gyeol opened his eyes and looked at my face.
Why are you staring like that?
Because I like lying here with you.
Its just for today since Han-gyeol is sick.
Did you use that as an excuse to climb into bed?
Han-gyeol is really quick-witted, isnt he? Or is it that he knows too well?
...Was it that obvious?
Extrely.
But I wanted to try napping together with Han-gyeol.
Truth be told, too. Shall we sleep for just three hours?
That sounds amazing.
But cuddling while sleeping is too much.
No, Ill just cuddle.
I thought we were just going to hold hands.
That was a lie.
I burrowed into Han-gyeols arms with a smile. Eventually, he gave in and wrapped his arms around .
I give up..
Thanks for letting win~
Sleep well, Eun-ha.
Sleep well, Han-gyeol.
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