Guan La always felt that her stubborn and unyielding personality was closely related to her mother.
Guan La’s mother was a typical strong woman, busy with work, but she treated her very well. Whatever she wanted, her mother provided!
Except she couldn’t often be with her.
Guan La’s most profound childhood mory was the nanny holding her hand in the yard while she watched the flowers and plants wither and bloom again, and bloom and wither.
Then she repeatedly asked the nanny, "When will mom be back?" The nanny was silent, and called out, "Miss La!" Her voice was sowhat choked!
While other children’s childhoods were filled with parental love and affection, her childhood was worn down by loneliness and waiting.
She waited for her mother to return, even if it was just to have a al with her, but these hopes were never fulfilled.
Around the age of four, she went to kindergarten, and every day after school, other kids had dads or moms picking them up, but she only had the nanny!
At that ti, other kids in the class teased her, saying she was a wild child without parents. She argued, saying she did have a mom, a very beautiful and capable mom.
She took a photo of her mother from ho to show her classmates, saying, "This is my mom, see, I have a mom!"
The classmates frowned at the picture of the beautiful woman, "Why is there only a photo? Is your mom dead?"
She angrily shoved the classmate away, shouting, "You’re talking nonsense, my mom is not dead, she definitely isn’t!"
"Then she doesn’t want you! Your mom doesn’t co to pick you up, you must be the unwanted wild child..."
Guan La often thought back to that scene in the years to co, finding it quite amusing.
A little girl was frantically shouting in class, saying you’re all bad people, you’re all speaking nonsense, you’re all liars...
But the more she retorted and resisted, the more it highlighted her helplessness and inferiority, because often, that’s exactly what she thought.
Mom didn’t want her, didn’t like her, so wasn’t willing to be with her.
It seed like it was from that day that she started refusing to go to school, and later her mother helped her transfer.
At the new school, she didn’t want to go. Her mother, helpless, said, "Lala, be good, mom promises this ti she will make ti to pick you up from school!"
She kept her promise, she really ca to pick her up, but because of work, she could only make it about twice a week, but she was very satisfied.
At least this proved that she had a mom, she was not an unwanted child!
She grew up amid this small satisfaction!
That year, when she was thirteen, she entered junior high school, her mother’s work beca even busier. It was said that the company expanded and she got promoted!
Thirteen years old, she gradually beca more understanding, realizing that it wasn’t easy for her mother to raise her alone!
She felt she should be considerate of her mother.
It was also at that ti she discovered many of her mother’s shortcomings, like smoking, drinking, taking sleeping pills, and crying while holding her father’s photo!
Only then did she realize that the mother who appeared as a strong woman, glamorous and praised by others, was already worn out and fragnted inside.
Her mother was an incomplete soul!
Perhaps also because of growing up with only a mom and no dad, she beca very independent and determined, more mature than kids her age.
At the sa ti, she hoped to grow up sooner, work hard in the future, and then let her mom resign and rest at ho.
She thought, since her mother raised her, it would be perfectly normal for her to take care of her mother in the future!
She had no father, her mother had no husband, but at least they still had each other!
She thought that would be enough!
But everything that happened later proved it wasn’t like she imagined at all.
She found herself left alone in this world by her mother, and many years had passed in a blur.
Guan La took a deep breath, trying hard to smile, tears, such a luxurious thing, she shouldn’t possess them.
If no one pities you, who are you crying for?
...
When Guan La went to the company, she heard that Lu Yinchu ca to the company, which made her quite curious.
Since Nanxi gave birth to a child, Lu Yinchu had practically lived in the hospital, with important docunts only delivered by Mo Yan after Nanxi fell asleep for him to handle.
Mo Yan had been busy for him these days and wasn’t in a great mood, mainly because Liang Qiaoqiao was also pregnant now.
Lu Yinchu wanted to accompany his wife and child, and so did others!
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