Since the first day of eting him, Zenith was aware of Kylian’s sharp observation, which he might’ve underestimated while spending such a soothing mont with him inside his room.
Quickly he retrieved back his senses, and realizing he might’ve sounded too confident which caught into Kylian’s suspicion, Zenith tossed a clumsy smile, "How would I et your mother without your help, sweetie? I have just talked to her on the phone once, but it’s just my gut feeling, that she will always love you no matter what you have beco. I am sure of that!"
Though Zenith’s clumsy answer dissipated the skeptical thought inside his mind, Kylian couldn’t stop himself from forming a grim expression. His brows furrowed a bit deep, and lifting his gaze down, he murmured in his mind.
’You are wrong about it, Zenith. Mom never wanted to transition into an oga in the first place. Now that I have heard from her, even if she faked a smile to hide her sadness, my heart will break every ti I look at her. This is my painful reality, but I am just so lost and confused about my future now. How am I supposed to et her eyes bravely as I did before?’
Watching him fall into a small intense silence, Zenith panicked internally a little, pondering if Kylian had actually found his answer too skeptical to believe! Thus to divert his attention, he put on another clumsy act, "Oww, it hurts again!"
"Huh?" As if his idea worked, Kylian hurriedly grabbed onto his bandaged arm and tried checking if he was bleeding again, "Where does your hand hurt? Does it sting anywhere? Did I wrap the bandage too tight?"
"No, I am hurt...here." Holding a cryptic smirk on his soft lips, Zenith pointed his finger towards his heart over his bare chest while pouting at Kylian, "I am hurt here inside...because you keep ignoring this handso guy next to you and keep thinking of sothing else. This is very unhealthy for my heart now."
"Goodness, stop scaring with your silly tactics!" However, Kylian smacked gently on Zenith’s arm while scolding him, walking away from the bed to put that first-aid box inside a small storage box. While doing so, a tiny smile arched his lips when he mumbled to Zenith, "But...thanks."
"Huh? For what?"
"For...trying to comfort at least. It felt nice to open up, though, it’s really unlike . Until now, I have always lived that way...but when you tried to comfort and heard out, I was really glad." When Kylian turned his glance around, his rolled ocean eyes which looked glum until a mont ago now were shinning with a tender smile.
With the moonlit falling on his charming face with his black shimring hair covering his forehead, along with that pleasant smile, Zenith was enchanted by his spell-binding beauty for a brief mont.
Ogas were always gifted with dazzling beauty but compared to even the most beautiful ogas Zenith had seen, none of them were even close to Kylian’s strength and elegance...which made him feel, undoubtedly, Kylian was the most divinely gorgeous oga to be ever born.
His heart pounded with the soft fluttering feelings gushing inside him, which made Zenith couldn’t help but sound a bit insecure, "Don’t smile so beautifully in front of any other man. I will get riled with the urge to rip off their eyes if anybody else other than watches you smile like this towards them!"
"Hey, you’ve promised you won’t harm anybody else from now onwards...so stop with your crazy talk. I am just smiling normally because I feel glad."
Scolding him in a soft amicable tone, Kylian walked back towards him and started preparing the bed as he continued speaking, "Also, it’s pretty late already so we should sleep now. I have only one pillow here so you can take it, I won’t need another pillow. But I have two quilts, so we can share it equally."
While he was preparing the bed, Zenith stared still into him, pondering how could soone always put others before them, whereas he was the one who had always acted selfishly on his own! Being with Kylian was teaching Zenith to be more selfless, which made him feel proud to have found Kylian in his life.
When he finished adjusting the bedsheet, Zenith jumped on the bed and took the pillow just as he said, but he stretched his big muscular right arm while summoning Kylian, "Thanks for lending the pillow, and no need to use two quits, we can just share one. However, in return, you can use the most expensive and exquisite pillow in the world which no one has ever used until now."
"Huh?"
His answer left Kylian a little startled but bursting into a soft peal of laughter, Zenith tapped on his stretched arm when he ntioned, "I am talking about my arm pillow, sweetie. This will be only reserved for you. Thus, I can take this pillow and you should sleep on my arm, or my chest...which one do you prefer?"
As if he was startled by his unexpected invitation, Kylian curved his eyes when he smiled widely at him, "I can take your arm as the pillow, but how shall I trust your words of getting the reserved one when you have already slept with multiple partners?
"Hey...that’s a completely different thing. I never bothered to even think of their discomfort...rather than looking after my own needs." Looking a little guilty from the grim look in his eyes, Zenith mumbled in a low, hoarse voice.
Staring intently into his guilt-stricken face, Kylian felt a bit agitated inside when he scolded in a low pitch, "If you never bothered to think about anybody else, then that makes you a jerk. Do you know that?"
"Yeah...I know I was a jerk to them. I was always aware of it."
As Zenith’s face turned gloomy with his answers, Kylian felt the urge inside him to scold him again...but he rather thought of considering it next ti, since he didn’t intend to make Zenith feel bad now.
With a heavy exhale, Kylian put a small smirk when he answered ardently, "Fine. I will take the arm pillow, but only if you reserve that for ."
"Huh? Yes, of course!" Like a naive child grinning happily at the sight of his favorite candy, Kylian’s answer imdiately lifted Zenith’s mood when he proudly stretched his long arm to offer him that.
While Kylian was about to rest his head on him, suddenly a quick thought ca across his mind which reminded him to warn Zenith first, "Also, don’t even think of trying any funny business with just because I let you sleep here in my room! Otherwise, I might chop off your monstrous thing...do you understand?"
"Yes, honey. I won’t initiate anything without your permission." Sounding confident from his tone, when Zenith welcod Kylian to rest his head on his arm, his heart was giddy inside with the thought of having Kylian wrapped closer to him.
As by now, Zenith realized, Kylian seed to have let down his guard a lot than how he was always prepared to fight him.
When he rested, Zenith slowly moved near and hugged Kylian from behind around his waist, making him wince from his sudden approach as he quickly urged, "Hey, you’re not planning anything, right?"
"No...but...I just want to say sothing to you. Would you hear out?" This ti, Zenith’s voice was mixed a sense of relief, which made Kylian curious to hear him out.
Getting his permission, Zenith nudged his forehead against Kylian’s warm broad shoulder from behind, while he professed, "It’s true...that I had multiple sleeping partners. I have lost the count now with how many people I have slept with until now...and I could barely rember their faces either, because just as I said, I never bothered to care for them after I was satisfied.
"Yeah, I know I might sound like a damn jerk...but...I have lived my life this way, until now. This is the truth that you’ve heard about , Kyle. I didn’t want to keep this away from you...but I didn’t want you to find out about it so soon."
Unexpectedly his confession stirred a lava of uneasy emotions gushing inside Kylian, while he failed to recognize them as his jealousy towards all those people who were bedmates with Zenith.
His amicable mood turned surly when he tried to break free of Zenith’s other hand which which holding onto him, "Hey, are you purposely trying to make angry with you? Certainly, I don’t feel happy to hear you spill this bullshit, do you understand?"
"No...please hear out..."
"Hear about fuckin’ what? You could’ve at least tried to deny sothing, apart from shalessly accepting the allegations—"
But tightening his hold around Kylian to not let him escape from him, his voice shuddered a little when he opened up about his dark past, for the first ti to soone else.
"13 years... I have had terrible insomnia for 13 years now...and... when I heavily relied on using sleeping pills, my pheromones, and health were drastically affected...which made Dr. Albert warn to use those pills in moderation.
"Unable to use them as I pleased, I relied on alcohol...drugs...and other ans which could help sleep...only until...I found sex as one of the effective ways...to control my insomnia... I know it might sound ridiculous to you and you might be getting mad, but...please, would you believe ?"
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