Ouroboros Record ~Circus of Oubeniel~ Chapter 30: The Room Without Her (1)

Previous | Chapter List | Next A dream.She saw a dream.A distant day that played out a long, long ti ago.In front of her was a small, yet stylish house.She went past the door and entered the corridor. She opened the door.There was a woman doing needlework by the fireplace.......Mama!Oh-ho, what is it? What a waste of your cute face, no?The young and beautiful woman stopped her work and greeted her crying child warmly.To avoid injuring her daughter, she placed her sewing tools by the side and embraced her gently into her chest.Her erald eyes reflected the emotions and anxieties of an affectionate mother.The child sobbed and whined.Um...Ev-everybody was an. T-They said they didnt want to play.Oh dear...did you have an argunt with your friends?The child swung her head side to side in response to her mother.After a short pause, she painfully told her mother.......They didnt want to be friends with .There was no way she could have had an argunt with non-existent people.This child had not a single friend.The mother gloomily lowered her brows.Surely, she had a clue about what was happening to her daughter.The child continued complaining while being unable to empathise with her mothers distress.Your mother cheated!Making friends with nobles is unfair!Thats what all the other adults say!Commoners hate stories of upstarts too.Especially so if it was about getting closer to nobles, who were a pain in their butts.Particularly, in the case of this mother and daughter:Playing with the kept woman is going to infect us with disease!You get infected with an embarrassing prostitute disease!Thus, they hated the nobles kept woman and her child.They were half baked existences that could neither be considered a commoner nor a noble. Since she was a woman who stood together with their oppressors and her daughter, the child of such parents, the masses who lacked authority and wealth probably to be a target to beat up and release their pent-up anger. Instead, they would likely only show their disdain and talk behind their backs so frequently that even their children would rember what they have said.Sob...The mother found it hard to control herself and embraced her daughter.M-Mama?The child looked at her mother strangely.Sorry...sorry! Because of !Drops of warm tears trickled down to her cheeks.Mama, are you crying? Are you hurting sowhere!?No, I am fine. I am fine...but I am sad that you had to sufferThe mother shivered while choking on her words. She was definitely blaming herself for everything. If she had been born to a proper noble, she would not have to be ill-treated by the children of commoners. If she had been born to a wealthy commoner, she would have been able to make new friends.Because I am a no-good parent, I have caused difficulties for my daughter...No...even Mama is crying...The daughter who was in her arms twisted and turned at the unease she felt.Mama isnt no-good! Among the adults I know, Mama is the kindest!Sniff...thank you for saying that.The mother bravely returned a smile to her daughters childish consolation. Then she caressed her head gently. The child smiled at her mothers warm sensation.I love Mama! Thats why I want to grow up to beco like Mama!The young mother could not help but strain her smile slightly. Her way of smiling appeared to be hiding so kind of pain.That is no good. Not good.She tried her best to correct her in a joking manner. The child blinked her eyes in surprise.Eh! Why?I am sure that you will beco an adult more upright than .She looked as though she was praying or dreamingpared to , who is a commoner, you have the noble blood of your father. I am sure you will beco a wonderful lady.Papa?Yes. The papa that you love dearly too.She spoke with a slight tinge of red in her face.He is a splendid and kind person. He has been saying that her wife will not be able to calm down now, but one day, he will welco you into their household.Papa will bring in? Not co here?Their house is far grander than this. And then, he can spend more ti with you too.Really!? Papa will play with more often!?The child shouted in exhilaration. She must love her father. Just hearing about her father makes her so happy.Towards her innocent smile, her mother forced a smile.For that day to co, you have to study hard!......I am not allowed to just play?Right, you arent allowed to. You have to listen to your papa.The child moaned in protest, but soon, she seed to have noticed sothing and looked up.......What about Mama?Eh?If I follow father, what will Mama do?The child seed to have realised that her mother avoided talking about herself. She sounded unsure again. Her mothers expression beca clouded.......I will not be able to go.Why?The wife will be enraged at .She squeezed slightly harder at her childs hand.It hurts...Ah!? Sorry...I suddenly...The mother quickly tried to soothe her child who started crying again.Once her daughter beca calm again, she continued.......Mama cannot go. Because Mama isnt the legitimate wife of papa.Mama isnt a wife? Even though Mama is so loving with papa? Is it different from the storybooks?Man and woman et, fall in love, marry each other and build a happy family. A plausible story from a fairytale for children. The mother gloomily nodded.Yes...Because Mama isnt a wife, you have had to sufferShe said and hugged her daughter closely again.You shouldnt beco a woman like . Please do not beco a mother who makes her own child cry. Do as your father says and beco an upright lady. Please...beco a beautiful bride one day.Will Mama be happy if I beco a bride?Of course, Mama will be very happy.With her hand, she gently combed her childs hair.Make a promise with Mama. If you ever find sobody you like as much as Papa, make sure to beco his bride.Make sure to never beco like her, and end up being looked down upon as a mistress. She was probably trying to convey this implicitly.Bride of sobody I like...The child clumsily repeated what her mother said. She was still a small child. Definitely, she did not understand the aning and the weight of love. Nevertheless, she seed to have perceived her mothers fervour and soaked up her wish.......Mm! I promise! I will definitely beco a bride!She declared aloud. She was undoubtedly smiling from ear to ear as she declared. Good. Do not forget it. Okay? Anrietta...The mother was smiling like a budding lily....And so, the mothers wish was carved into her childs heart.Beco an upright lady.Find a wonderful romance.Beco a beautiful bride.Surely such a pure and innocent wish wouldThat must be a glitch.The girl who awoke from her dream shivered as she said.