Haa, Its so cold today
I accidentally let my thoughts slip. The sky was glazed in dark damp clouds. If I am not mistaken, this mornings news stated that there was a 60% probability of rain occurring in the afternoon. I had just finished eting with a client so I went out of the building, I pulled the scruff of my coat to better cover myself and headed straight towards the closest train station. There was a plan to et my subordinate at Shinjuku Station at 14:45 sharp. Right now it was 13:35. From the nearest station, it takes around 40 minutes to arrive at Shinjuku Station. My stomach is totally empty and most likely there will be enough ti for to eat so soba noodles at Shinjuku Station if I stood whilst eating.
It is likely that from the previous business negotiation I had just completed with my client, I will be able to secure a reasonably big order. If this is successful, I will be able to achieve my sales budget for this term. Although I couldnt help but to grin slightly, asides from my individual sales, I rembered that the departnt/division Im working for is not yet in a safe level that I can be content with, knowing that hardships are still yet to co I suddenly felt a rising depression growing within . I reminiscence about the sales figure my subordinate that Im supposed to be eting, has achieved so far.
Its already in the middle of February and it seems that she was only able to et around 30% of the sales goal. At this pace/rate the most she could accomplish will be around 60 % by the end of March. (Allow to ntion that within this term, as in within this annual quarter January-March) there are other subordinates within my sales team that are doing quite well apart from her. However, this is not a good reason to neglect the situation. Todays eting is due to the fact she was finally able to make an appointnt with a client.
Arriving at the station, I took out my Suica and entered. (Note: Suica is a prepaid e-money card). The remaining balance in the card is 12,345 yen. Ohh, what an interesting array of numbers. Well it wasnt like a number used to win a horse bet, but more like a serial number I suppose. Finding an amusing irony in the set of numbers, I sohow felt a little better as I boarded the train towards Shinjuku. Mid-afternoon of a weekday: In terms of riding on trains (I have this habit of going to the end of the train especially if it was during the dayti. This is because the chances of it being empty is much higher) the end of the train is usually empty and it becos possible to sit down comfortably without the need to worry about fighting for a spot. There is about 20 passengers inside.
Whilst sitting inside the train I began to rember the events of a previous custor transaction. Last year, I handed over this particular client of mine to my subordinate, I believed the client was pleased with her. Therefore I purposefully handed this client over to her. However it seems that the sales figure strangely dropped this year. It makes worried.
I want to find/grasp out the main cause for the drop in sales in todays eting. Thats because, if the root of the problem isnt found, I wont be able to create counterasures to solve it. Because the custors orders/demand was decreased so suddenly, it is certain that the share is being taken away by other competing companies. The question is the motive. Well, since the problem cant really be solved by thinking about it right now, lets stop worrying about the matter for now.
For so reason Im a little bit sleepy. I absentmindedly stared at the weekly magazine advertisent which hanged inside the train with a drowsy mind.
After I graduated from high school I did not possess enough money for tuition expenses. Therefore I decided to enter the National Defense Academy because they told I could receive so sort of salary. (At the ti when I entered the Defense Academy back in the 1980s, the requirents to enter werent as high as they are now. All you needed to enter was a healthy body and no criminal record, your family/close relatives also needed to have no criminal record, in other words it was the so called clean record, furthermore as long as you graduated from high school with a passing grade you were allowed entry. Most likely this was due to the fact that assets were being highly inflated within the economy and Japan was at the peak of their depression, therefore the popularity of the Self Defense Forces was very low). (Note: This event in Japanese History was known as the Lost Decade) Unlike when I was in high school my grades in university wasnt anything special, I was just a little above average in my grades when I graduated, afterwards I quickly entered into the Mariti Officer Candidate School. Because I was a graduate from the Defense Academy, I was only required to be assigned to the unit for half a year (If you were to enter this program right now, the amount of ti required would be the sa as if you attended a general university which is 9 months.) I was stationed in the country side for my military duties when an event occurred at the end of the year.
I was able to take my leave for the New Years holiday for 4 days in a row and I had thought that this was truthfully, a blessing in disguise. Before I went ho to my family, I visited a high school friend of mine who lived in Tokyo, this was on December 30th which was at the beginning of my holiday.
To begin with, just because I bought a new car in the New Year Holidays, I wanted to show it off to my family in order to gain their respect, this was slightly mischievous of I know. I arrived to my friends house on the 30th in the evening, we went out together to a nearby pub and had plenty of things to drink and eat, it was only after quite a bit of ti had passed that we decided to call it a night and go ho.
A few minutes after we exited the pub, we were t with a scene whereby a bunch of n were trying to hit on this pretty woman. The girl seed to be getting cornered by the thugs, she was clearly not interested and was trying to reject the ns advances, however she was being pursued relentlessly by them, these n are what you might call hoodlums (or another way to call them would be juvenile delinquents), I had tried to convince myself that this kind of occurrence was a regular one within the Tokyo downtown district. I turned a blind eye to the problem and tried to walk past them. Im just a part of the asly self-defense force unit and not really a policeman whom should uphold the law, if by so chance I were to be involved in a fighting incident and this got into the newspaper, this would cause many troubles for the unit I am serving and I may get kicked out as a result.
By the way, my stupid drunk friend for so reason or other was totally full of energy and he wanted to look good/cool in front of the woman who was getting hit on by the hoodlums, I dont really know if he had so sort of fantasy about being the hero who saved the damsel in distress but he went in front of the hoodlums and he actually gave them a warning. Naturally, the juvenile delinquents did not listen to his warning in the slightest, instead they turned their attention towards us and began to question us about our real identities Who the hell are you? they said, as they looked at us with a suspicious looking gaze.
In regards to the woman, I signaled her to get away, whilst trying to grab my friends arm/side in order to hold him back, I really didnt want him to get involved. The fact is I probably didnt need to interfere or get worried about him. This guy since middle school had been a practitioner of Judo and as long as his opponents had their clothes on he could forcefully throw them. At best, he would be able to throw down one to two of these delinquents before we had to run away, of course I was already planning my escape route.
My thoughts were way too naive. One of the crazy delinquents suddenly raised his voice in a piercing shriek and ran at my friend with a knife. If I am not mistaken, there was a rumour in the news recently about a gang of delinquents getting into a fight and actually causing bloodshed, this was reported not too long ago. As I was thinking about how bad this situation was becoming, I was attacked. My friend who was about to throw the guy coming at him with a knife was tackled down by another guy from the side. I gave a sidelong glance to my friend whom was just tackled. I beca desperate and tried to convince myself that this was all part of a legitimate self-defense act. Figuring that I had no other choice but to fight, I was preparing myself to use the Hand-to-Hand Combat skills I learned in the Self Defense Force against them.
Even though my grappling skills werent as good as my friend, I trained for over four and a half years with both the Defense Academy and Mariti Officer Candidate School. My body had been forged by the training both in terms of hand-to-hand combat and overall physical strength, when faced with such a dangerous situation my body moved naturally and spontaneously in response to the threats.
In conclusion, the fight ended with my friend being stabbed whilst he was on the floor luckily none of his internal organs were hard and he was able to escape with his life, on the other hand I made sure to beat the living hell out of the person who stabbed my friend along with all the other gang mbers and send them all tied up to hospital, then the policen ca rushing towards the hospital and arrested them. There was plenty of witnesses in the downtown area at night, naturally I couldnt leave my friend who was hurt, all by himself to just to run away by myself. I was surrounded by a mountain of n all ard, whilst I was the only one without a single wound on my body, naturally the policeman would see as a suspicious person so I had no choice but to accompany the police officer to the police station. (Note: Wow this guy is op. LOL)
-A Self Defense Force (JSDF) veteran in active duty has brutally assaulted civilians. (Note: I will use the Term JSDF from now instead of Japanese Self Defense Force)
Back when I was serving, the SDF personnel were viewed as social outcasts. For soone like who was ranked OF-3 Major and had a minor leadership role within the GSDF (Ground Self-Defense Force), it was obvious that they wanted to use as a scapegoat for the mass dia which seed to gobble up the story like hungry fish. I pleaded not guilty and used legitimate self-defense as my excuse in the trial, furthermore the woman at the scene of the cri also provided a testimony for , in the end my innocence was proven and I was able to win the case. However, because I beca a nuisance to the JSDF, I had no other choice but to resign. My superior officer was half crying when he profusely apologised to saying Im sorry, Im really sorry whilst bowing his head, back in those days, discrimination/public criticism towards JSDF was too strong and there was no other solution than for to resign.
I thought that it was a real sha I had to leave in such a way, But what has already happened has happened, no use dwelling on it. I parted away from the JSDF formally recognised in the shape of an independent resignation. Well it wasnt like I committed a cri and there was no cri history recorded either, I was still young in the first half of the 1990s and I quickly adjusted by finding employnt. Even if I wasnt greedy looking for a job, it was relatively easy for to obtain employnt in a small/insignificant trading company, I was able to land a job in a mid-level food trading company.
Ah, By the way nothing special developed between the won I rescued that day.
Inside the train, a poster was hanging on the other side from where I sat, it said: Behind the Scenes, the Great Efforts of the JSDF in 3.11When I saw such an article/magazine I absentmindedly stared at it and it revived back so old mories I had in my younger days. All of my regrets and lingering emotions regarding the JSDF were already completely gone, however, I always had this feeling that if I were still in the JSDF and I was sent out towards the earthquake disaster, I would have lost my life. It is not a lie that I have such feelings. Youve probably guessed from the resignation event which occurred, but, I obviously dont have a strong sense of justice.
If I truly had a strong sense of justice, then the first person to act in order to save the woman would have been instead of my close friend. The only reason I acted was because I was forced by the circumstances. Even the fact of entering the SDF was not particularly because I wanted to be a hero serving the country or to be of assistance to the national defence of Japan. The main reason for my attendance in the JSDF was because I could relieve myself from the need to pay for any tuition fees, and after graduation from the SDF I was guaranteed to be automatically employed that was how simplistic my thoughts were.
Of course the GSDF (Ground Self Defense Force), MSDF (Marine Self-Defense Force) and my forced assignnt to the country side (Though it was a very short ti span of one year) was all under the orders of the JSDF, at that period, the JSDF were the ones putting food into my mouth and naturally I realised that it ant that I had a duty towards the nations security. Nevertheless those things have passed, I am no longer working for the JSDF and words like nations security holds no aning to .
Whilst I was thinking about such things at length/profoundly, I slowly drifted off into sleep. Besides, I still had plenty of ti before I arrived in the last terminal to Shinjuku.
Please marry !
In front of my eyes stood a young woman. It is my wife. But what was this anyways? Ahhh, its a dream. Its been 19 years since we were married, and even for my wife, her age was catching up with her. She isnt that young anymore and she is even starting to grow so wrinkles. However, the wife in front of right now was around her twenties no matter how you looked at it.if Im not mistaken she should be 27 years old. This was a scene of proposing to my wife. At this point in ti I was 25 years of age. It was when I proposed to my wife 19 years ago. This brings back mories. Even though I know its just a dream, its really nice to see my wife so young again. I feel like I can fall in love with her all over again. The reason why I think that she looks young when shes 27 years old is most likely because I myself is over 40 years of age.
Yes
As I thought its the spectacle from that ti. Even the answer she gives is the sa. She looked directly into my eyes and whilst letting out a slight smile she answers clearly. Yea, yeah this is really nice. I thought that I would get stomach butterflies but because this is a dream there is no such reaction coming from my stomach. Im after all an old man already so it cant really be helped.
Its jolting.
Eh?
Although it is indeed regrettable, it is necessary to remove the madams womb due to her weak physical condition
Almost like I received a slap to the face the words made miserable. The general physician Ito, whom is in charge of my wifes health, delivers the bad news whilst biting his lower lip.
My wife was diagnosed with uterine cancer, and after she got operated, my wife lost her womb.
She was crying whilst saying Sorry. Im so sorry
This was the second year of marriage.
Bump, Bang, Its shaking.
its beautiful, thank you
It was the mont in which I presented her ring, she had a pleased expression on her face. It was the so called sweet 10 carat diamond. I gave it to her as a present for our 10th anniversary marriage celebrations. This ring was bought from the pocket money/secret stash I managed to accumulate by playing Mahjong, I was proud to say that Mahjong was one of my strong points and both my superiors and co-workers were like sitting ducks/easy marks when they played against .
(As I thought my wife is really cute. Im really glad I got married to her)
I closed my eyes in deep satisfaction. This ti, I was 36 years old. My wife was 38 years old. Indeed it would probably be an overstatent if I were to say that she was cute at this age. However I still thought that she was the loveliest girl in the whole world.
Bang, bump, its shaking.
Its nice to et you, my na is Please take care of
This person has such a soft voice. For so reason or other she was bowing her head really low that I couldnt really see her face either. Ahh I couldnt really hear what she said, but, isnt this Shiinas interview? Shiina is the subordinate I am about to et at Shinjuku Station. I suppose my dream is still continuing. How long ago was it again? 7~8 years ago I think?
Bang, bump, its shaking.
Is this all the mbers that are present for today?
The person in front of looked like the son of Godzilla as he asked such a question. Ahh, isnt this Yoshitake-san from the next division/branch. Even though Yoshitake-san has this kind of face, shes actually a girl. Whoopty doo, thats Tasaki-san shes a person that resembles Jaiko from Doraemon. Why does our company have so many won that have such individualistic and unique faces I wonder?
Thats right, including we have 19 people
Today is just a leisure day composed of volunteer employees. In our company there is no such system that gives company trips to the employees, furthermore there are also no events such as end of year parties or New Years parties. Although at first I thought that there would be a low number of people interested in gathering together for a company trip as a holiday, on the contrary after doing an experint and calling people out, there was a quite a large number of people gathered.
The companys fishing club flourished. I grew up in the rural area along the sea and naturally fishing was one of my hobbies. It is simply one of my past ti favourite things to do. I wont acknowledge the people who pay to go on a lake filled with a predetermined set amount of fish and perform the thing known as catch and release. If you catch a fish, you must eat it.
10 years ago I t this co-worker of mine whom was 2 years younger than , his past-ti hobby was also fishing, and since then we have arranged to et up several tis in order to go fishing together. After that it would be a regular occurrence for fishing to be brought up as a topic whilst we were conversing. At one stage both of us used to take photos of our magnificent catches in order to share them with each other, we would often go into the smoking room in order to passionately talk about fishing and there was this one ti where another colleague overhead us talking and since then the fishing fever was spread and there was a ripple effect for the other colleagues as they suddenly beca interested in fishing.
At first it was just the two of us that was in this fishing club, however, around 4 years ago the company finally formally accepted the fishing club as its popularity kept increasing. Right now, it has beco a regular occurrence in our company for us to gather on every third Saturday of every month to go on a fishing trip. Unless soone was really hard-pressed and was unable to make it to the event, the attendance for the fishing event was really quite high, because the company has acknowledged the formation of such a club most of the expenses are actually covered by the company. A surprising amount of money has actually been conferred to us by the company over the years. The amount of money already budgeted to us over the many years has amounted to at least 1.2 million yen. Besides the cap/hat that we bring for fishing, most of the expenses were actually in order to cover for the fishing boat fee.
Yes, then could I please grab your attention. Because we have two new mbers who will be joining us today, and the fact that its such a good weather because its early in spring, we can proceed according to the plan and well go with marbled rock fish and black rock fishing. Please sit according to the seating order that was prepared for you in yesterdays list. Although you can change your seating order a little later, people who get seasick and more or less people that arent really confident should not move from the middle of the boat Alright please get on everyone
After clarifying such things with the others, I secure my own fishing seat which is at the very front of the boat. The person who sat next to was the girl with the Godzilla face.
Isnt Shiina-san coming today?
Ahh, apparently shes going out with her family on a trip. She said sothing about going to a place called Nasu
Eh? It is really unusual that Shiina-san wont be attending our usually eting today
Certainly for Shiina whom has a really high ratio of attending all the regular etings, this may be the first ti that she has actually skipped on a eting. Well it cant be helped its a family trip after all.
Today the group had a really big catch. Aside from that is.
Bang, bump, its shaking.
[emailprotected]: Today is my birthdayOh yeah!
junya: Ohhh!
junya: Congratulations
junya: o
junya: n
junya: y
junya: our
junya: Birthday
junya:
[emailprotected]: It, its not like I really wanted you to give so sort of congratulations okay? ///
junya: .o* o
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congrats..
[emailprotected]: You dont have to look for that kind of AA, its not even properly aligned pgr (Note: the emoticons when aligned properly actually show a cute face just think of Nepu the crawler/translator)
junya:
junya: I even tried so hard
junya: for turning 44 years old
junya: congratulations
[emailprotected]: thanks
junya: youre great (*)
[emailprotected]: also, Im no longer 44 years old, Ive beco 45 years old ya know?
[emailprotected]: Ive really beco an old man
junya: oh stop it, you are in your pri !
[emailprotected]: well, its more like Im mature in age and wisdom
junya: (*) lolol
[emailprotected]: how about you, arent you going to say your age?
junya: Im 30 years old, what about it
This was..The chat I had last year during my birthday.
I was strangely quite compatible with Shiina, and we beca quite close. She was a new recruit that had just co in and in order to get her used to the job I trained/drilled her for a period of 2 years about the formalities in handling business transactions.
I taught her the basics of fishing whilst she was keeping up to date with things like 2channel and recomnding/teaching how to play various gas, sotis we would also go out to drink together.
Bump, bang, its shaking.
Bang, bump, its jolting.
Bang, bump its rattling.
It shakes.
*Screeeeeech*!!
(Wha, whats happening?)
Gashyannnn!! *Crashh*
(Ohh, My body slidesand flies away! The other passengers in the train are also flying!!)
Guwashyaa!! *crash* *smash*
(This is bad, at this rate?!!!)
BARI BARI!! *Crunch* *Crackle*
(Im going to get smashed into the train!!)
(If only I can grab unto one of the poles!!!)
Just when I thought that I had successfully grabbed unto the pole, a shadow of a person ca crashing into .
Its probably too late for to understand this now, but I was most likely in a train accident right now.
Ahh, although my left hand was able to get a grip on the pole, but due to the person who crashed into my grip is peeled off. When I took a quick glance it seed that the person who crashed into was just a child.
Even though its around 2 oclock in the afternoon, shouldnt a kid like this be at school or sothing?
It seems that shes still at the age where she attends kindergarten.
Using my reflexes I manage to hold unto the child who crashed into .
A big impact hits my right shoulder.
I probably hit sothing really hard.
Is it about ti?
Is it about the ti that the train is going to hit sothing?
Guhaaa!!!!!!! *argh*
Guehhh!!!!!!!*ergh*
A weird voice ca out.
The trained had already crashed and many people were thrown against the edge of the vehicle, people were piled upon each other and even I was sandwiched in between the mass of people.
Seriously, it hurts like hell.
(Am I going to die here.?)
I cant move my body. The person I smashed into (The Adult person) had his neck twisted at a really weird angle.
The child whom I protected with my body could be heard crying.
I cant focus my eyes.
Miki.
I was able to vocalise with the last of my strength the na of my beloved family mber.
In the end, I was able to call out the na of my wife before I died, because of that I was a little satisfied.
I died in a train accident, at the middle of February 2015.
It would be a lie if I told you that I have no regrets, however I dont have any kids to speak of and my parents grew old and they are still alive and well. My wife has her own job, and she will definitely be able to support herself. Of course I also have a life insurance policy, if I take into consideration various things, well you can say that I have lived a full life. But it is a fact that my life was really short. I still havent lived the latter half of my life.
Yeah, well I did save up an extrely high grade alcohol which I planned to drink with my wife this weekend and there was also the matter of this terms sales figures. The fact that I have such trivial thoughts and regrets is a little weird but, I suppose its all just a part of life.
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